19th December 2014
"It's snowing!" Joe shouts, I jump out of bed and look out the hotel window "wow" I say, looking at the white blanket already setting on the streets of New York. "We have to go out today!" He says excitedly "yes later, considering it is 7:30 in the morning over here" I laugh, he shrugs and gets back into bed.
We arrived yesterday and all everyone has done is sleep. Today we're going to have a couple day, tomorrow everyone's going to prepare for the wedding and then obviously it's the actual wedding.
"I'm so excited for today!" Joe says, putting his arm round me "me too" I smile. He stands up quickly "I just need to go and talk to Tan and Jim about my wedding speech. I'll be back in a minute" he smiles, I nod and he leaves me alone in our room.
The past two months has been amazing. I've felt safe and had so many opportunities. Like being on TV and in magazines. Me and Joe have became even closer too.
After what feels like forever, Joe comes back in with a smile on his face "let's order some breakfast and then we can go out" he says, we both order pancakes, big ones at that! And eat them before getting ready and going.
"It's so beautiful here!" I say, looking around at the snow settling on everything "I know" Joe smiles, he takes my hand in his "your hands are freezing!" He says, I laugh and he brings my hand up to his face and kisses it, his warm hand still holding mine. "I love you" I say "I love you too" he smiles.
"Let's go in here!" I say excitedly as we see a huge toy shop. I drag Joe inside and look at all the toys in awe "I wish I knew a kid to buy presents for" Joe laughs and I decide to scare him "well, you do now" I mutter, he frowns "what?" He asks "Joe.. You're gonna be a dad" I say, holding in my laugh, he looks shocked and scared "uh I um" he stutters, I burst into laughter and he raises an eyebrow "I'm not pregnant you idiot" I laugh, he let's go of my hand which he was grasping moments before "bitch!" He says, I punch him in the arm and laugh again "who pranked me and Caspar in October?" I ask, he smirks slightly, remembering the traumatic pranks he did over Halloween.
*FLASHBACK*
I open my eyes and put my hand next to me to find no Joe. I grab my phone to see it's exactly 3am. In fear of something bad happening I slowly get out of bed and turn my phone torch on so I can see the stairs.
I go up there to see nothing "Joe?" I whisper, I walk further forward and see something on the floor. I shine my torch to see what looks like blood "what the.." I trail off when I see Joe's body next to it. I find myself screaming and i collapse next to him. There's a laugh and I look up to see a clown "oh my god!" I scream, backing away from it "what's happening- what the fuck!" Caspar says, seeing the clown and Joe, he runs next to me and grabs my hand, pulling me off the floor. He pulls me with him into the kitchen and grabs a knife, keeping me behind him "leave us alone!" He shouts, going near the clown, knife pointed at him. The clown quickly takes off his mask to reveal Jim "Jim! What the hell did you do to Joe?!" Caspar shouts, I find tears running down my face and quickly wipe them away. Caspar's still holding my hand, pushing me behind him. He holds the knife closer and Jim jumps back "it's a joke!" Jim says, Joe quickly jumps up and joins in "I'm alive! It's okay" he says, looking at Caspar then me. I sniffle and wipe away a tear rolling down my face "you're such a dick!" I shout, still holding Caspar's hand. Joe hugs me quickly and I hug him back "happy Halloween" he chuckles, rubbing my back and making me feel calm "happy shut-the-fuck-up Joe" I fake smile, pulling away from him and storming away "fuck you Joe" caspar says, following me.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
"That was funny" Joe mutters "not for me, I had nightmares for weeks afterwards" I say, shuddering. He kisses my temple and I roll my eyes, dragging him into an isle full of different toys.
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We decided to get Jim a watch and Tan a necklace from this posh shop as a wedding present and also me and Joe treated ourselves to A LOT of clothes.
"So I was just thinking about Jim and Tan and when would you want to get married?" Joe asks as we walk into Starbucks. Secretly I've really been thinking about it at the moment and I want to get married NOW! "Soon" I admit, he nods and we both order a hot chocolate "after New York do you want to come up to Bath with me and properly meet Daddy Sugg and spend Christmas with him?" Joe asks as we sit down with our drinks "yes!" I say excitedly. I've skyped with Daddy Sugg a few times and he's so nice and funny! I also met him briefly at Zoe's launch party for her beauty products and he told me that he thinks Joe's lucky to have me.
"Our names are so simple yet they still manage to spell them wrong" Joe laughs, pointing at the poorly spelt names on our drinks. I chuckle and take a sip out of the drink "I'm so happy I met you Joe" I blurt out, watching the snow fall outside "I'm so happy I met you too Amanda" he says, leaning over and kissing my temple.
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We finally arrive back to the hotel after we've been shopping and meeting viewers all day "we should come here for a holiday together" Joe says, I nod in agreement and knock on Tyler's room door. He answers it and we walk inside, seeing the rest of the crew in there. "How was your day?" Zoe asks "really good!" I say, sitting down on the floor next to her "ew it was rubbish with her" Joe jokes, scrunching up his nose, I roll my eyes at him and Zoe starts looking through my bags to see what I bought. I slowly take away the bags containing the presents for everyone in and hide them behind me so she can't see. "Um where's the nearest news agents?" Gabby asks "there's one quite near isn't there?" I ask Joe, he nods "I can take you there if you want?" He asks, she nods "I'll come" I say "no no it's okay. Relax" Gabby smiles at me, I shrug and sit back down next to Zoe, who's looking at a dress I got. "I ship jamanda" Tyler says, a lot of people in the room nod their heads and I laugh "thanks" I shrug and watch Zoe look through more of the stuff "oh by the way I'd be careful, Joe and I have some stuff in there" I joke, Zoe drops the bag and covers her ears and Tyler does the same "at least you don't have to hear them" caspar says, I glare at him and Zoe and Tyler shudder "let's stop talking about my little sister having sex" Tyler says "yeah and my brother" Zoe adds.
"It's been an hour now" I say, grabbing my phone "I wonder where they are" Marcus says. I quickly go on twitter and scroll through my timeline before checking my notifications.
'Are you and Joe still together?' I see one say, I just sigh and scroll past until I see that all my mentions are filled with that question. I tweet out saying that we're still together and asking why "people are asking if Joe and I are still-" I start but then I stop, seeing the replies and a photo.. I drop my phone and Zoe picks it up, gasping.
Someone tagged me in a picture of Joe and Gabby kissing in the Starbucks we were discussing our future hours before. "What the f**k! I shout, everyone in the room staring at me. Zoe shows them the picture and I see Tyler balling up his fists "I'm sorry zoe, but I want to punch your brother" he says angrily "I want to punch him too" she mutters, coming off the picture and handing my phone back to me "I don't know what to say" I mutter, I feel my eyes start watering and quickly blink back the tears before anyone can see but Tyler's already at my side and comforting me "don't cry. You can talk to Joe when he gets back, it's okay" Tyler says, rubbing my arm. Suddenly the door swings open and Joe walks in, gabby coming in after. When Joe sees me he quickly runs over "are you okay?" He asks, resting his hand on my shoulder. I push his hand off and stand up "I need to talk to you" I say, emotionless. He nods and we leave the room, me relying on Zoe to have a word with Gabby too. The walk to our room only takes a few seconds, but with the tension in the air and the heavy weight on my chest, it seems like hours.
We enter our room and I sit down on the bed, Joe pulling a chair forwards so he's opposite me "why?" I ask, biting my nails with nervousness "what do you mean?" He asks, not making eye contact with me "oh, I'm pretty sure you know what I mean" I say, not only feeling hurt but now angry "I don't" he lies, rubbing the back of his neck "all this time we've been together, I've learnt that when you lie, you rub the back of your neck" I say "oh so am I not allowed to rub the back of my neck now?" He rolls his eyes "really Joe? Are you being serious?" I say rhetorically "Amanda stop being-" he starts "YOU F**KING KISSED GABBY, JOE!" I shout, he stops and sighs, looking up at me "I didn't kiss Gabby, she kissed me and I didn't kiss her back" he says "oh really? This looks like you're kissing back, Joe" I say, showing him the picture. He sees it and his eyes widen "Amanda honestly I didn't! She kissed me and I pulled away" he says, standing up. He goes to take my hand but I snatch it away from him "how can I believe you Joe?!" I shout "well you kissed Joey Graceffa and you didn't see me going f**king ballistic at you!" He shouts "at least I pushed him away and didn't carry on kissing him Joe. At least I didn't leave you for a whole hour and didn't answer any text messages from you" I say. I stand up and start pacing "we went for a coffee! She wanted to!" He says, following me and grabbing my shoulders "looks like she wanted more than just a coffee! Looks like she wanted and kiss along with a pumpkin spice latte" I say sarcastically, fake smiling "stop being such a bitch Amanda" he says, letting go of me "f**k you, Joe" I say, walking towards the door. Before leaving I turn around and face him "oh and I'm being civil with you for the wedding tomorrow, but after that, I have no idea what our relationship is if you're going to cheat " I say, storming out the room and slamming the door behind me. Once I'm away from the room I burst into tears. I've always been scared of relationships after Alex, I know I may have been over the top but Joe promised he'd never do anything to me and then he goes and kisses one of my expected 'friends'.
I find my way to Tyler's room and open the door and luckily everyone has left except from Zoe and obviously Tyler. As soon as I walk in Tyler hugs me and sits me down on his bed. I tell them what happened and then Zoe tells me what Gabby said "she told me she flirted with him the whole time" she says "he sometimes flirted back a little but most of the time he didn't" Zoe says. Tyler rubs my arm and I sigh "she made him go to Starbucks, they talked for ages and then she kissed Joe. He kissed back and when she pulled away for breath he stopped her and told her he's with you and that he can't do it, that's when they went back here" she finishes. I sigh and lay back on the bed "I'm sorry about this Zoe" I say "it's okay, my brother can be a dick sometimes. I'll go and talk to him now" she says, smiling half heartedly at me and leaving me and Tyler in his room "you can sleep in my room tonight if you want" he says, walking over to the phone for room service "okay, thanks Tyler" I say "I have no idea what to do" I mutter. I've f**ked everything up.
A/N oh shit.
I HOPE YOU ENJOYED! Slow upload bc I've been so so busy lately as per usual.
Next chapter is the last one :( no!
Question: what would you do if Joe and Amanda broke up?
My answer: :(
Thank you!
Mya x