Kim Jennie's Point of View
A brand new day.
I scratched my eye and I noticed it's reddish as I got up and look at the mirror. One question entered my mind.
Do I like Taehyung?
First of all, I always get nervous when I am talking to him. I feel like there's something inside me when I'm talking to Taehyung.
Second, butterflies on my stomach. I feel like a tingling sensation from my spine to my back, to my stomach. Especially when he touches me, and our kiss! Sh*t! I remembered it again. I still can't get over from it.
And last, I always struggle to be confident in front of him. I'm always like, "Y-yes", "N-no", "O-okay" around him.
But what is really the basis of liking someone? Do you just like them? So now do I really like Taehyung too?
SH*T!
I just remember that today Taehyung will be expelled to the university.
But no, he will be not... I got some flashbacks with my Dad's conversation a long time ago.
"Just tell me anything you want to happen, I will grant it immediately, but I know that doesn't mean I will cover all of my sins," My dad said.
"Dad, please do me a favor."
"Please make sure that Taehyung won't be expelled even if he's a scholar. He doesn't deserve this... Please talk to the President," I said.
And he granted it immediately. I hope Taehyung accepts this. I won't make him expelled, our graduation will be on the following days and he will be expelled? Hell no.
Someone texted me. And it's Nayeon?
Nayeon: Go in Taehyung's condo immediately! He's voluntarily quitting the university! He just got his things from this school and went away, fetch him now while there's still time, Jennie!
Wait— what? I need to tell him about my favor on dad! I'll never let him quit on the university. This is not fair to the other scholars who got expelled. But for the sake of him, I'd rather be unfair.
I've seen his condo a couple of times but seeing it again brings a lot of memories to me. We always bond in here, cram our assignments and projects and some sleepover.
I stood in front of his door. The thought of knocking makes me feel more nervous than ever. And the thought of him not going out of the door makes me break down.
What if he already left? But what if he's still here?
I think... he deserves to know that I like him too. Should face my cowardliness and say it to him.
I took a deep breath and knocked three times. I thought no one will respond but I almost flinch when the door opened. I saw his emotionless face. His perfect, big but narrow eyes, his slender nose and thin lips. God, I miss him.
I'm really lucky to have him as my bestfriend, and I know he's not lucky to have me.
"Why are you here?" He asked. His question did hurt me, it sounds like he doesn't want me here. I saw his bruises on his lip, cheek and everywhere on his face. I felt guilt, those rocks must have hurt him a lot.
"You're leaving?" I looked inside, he's packing stuff and clothes. "Isn't it obvious?" He answered playfully and coldly.
"I thought you're with Kai, are you two not together anymore?" He asked me, I can't even look at him straight in the eye.
"Please Taehyung, let's not talk about him."
"After choosing him instead of me, you don't want to talk about him?" He chuckled, with a hint of sadness. So that's what he thinks? He smirked and his bruises were more visible now.
"I didn't chose him!" I'm desperate. Please believe me. I just let him held my arm that day but it doesn't mean I chose him.
"Whatever you say," he said and went inside. Without him saying, I also went inside his room. He sat down the bed and packed his clothes.
"Tae, are you really going to leave?" I asked him but he continued packing his clothes. "Tae—"
"Do you know what hurts the most Jennie? We're bestfriends but I'm the only one who's fighting," he said, not even looking at me. Tears come to merge on my eye.
"I'm so sorry—"
"Oh! I forgot! We are BESTFRIENDS. BESTFRIENDS. ONLY. And that's okay Jennie." He looked at me. His tears are about to fall.
"I told the president that he should not expel you to this university... So please don't leave..." I'm so f*cking desperate right now and I don't even care.
"It's my decision, so you can't do anything about it." I can't stop my tears now.
He's now done packing his clothes, he took his bag and went outside of his room.
I should be angry at him right now but I know I can't. He has the right to refuse and I hurt him a lot. Even if he will not be expelled, he will still be bullied in our school.
I also went out of his room. He took his keys and locked his room and went away without even saying goodbye to me.
My tears kept on falling, the bubbly, comedian and joyful Taehyung turned into a cold one. I didn't know that it hurts like this when your best friend left you. I don't know where will he go now but still, I'm saying goodbyes silently.
I realized that I really like Taehyung the same day he left. And I haven't got the chance to say it to him.
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