Jinyoung sighed as he sat down at the lunch table. BamBam still refused to sit with them, choosing to spend his lunch with Hyunjin and his friends.
BamBam was completely ignoring them. He didn't block them or anything, which seemed to hurt worse because they could see that he was reading their messages but that he chose not to respond.
Jinyoung was ripped out of his thoughts when Mark sat down next to him and put his arm around him. He obviously still felt bad about the fact that he kissed Jackson, and was reminded of it every time he saw his boyfriend.
Yugyeom was the last one to sit down, looking tired and depressed.
"He'll forgive us," Jackson said, trying to cheer the other up.
"You don't know that." Yugyeom took a lazy bite of his sandwich as he stared blankly off into the distance.
Jinyoung wished he could help Yugyeom somehow, but he didn't know how. He also had know idea what it felt like to loose his best friend because him and Jackson had been inseparable ever since he could remember. They had had their fights, but they always knew they would be fine.
"You okay?" Mark murmured into his ear, noticing his troubled expression. He nodded. "If you need to talk about anything, I'm here."
Ugh, Mark was the sweetest, most caring person ever. How could Jinyoung cheat on him? Did it even count as cheating? It didn't matter because either way, Jinyoung felt guilty.
Thinking about this made Jinyoung's eyes accidentally move over to where Jackson was sitting, accidentally making eye contact. They both looked away quickly. While it hadn't been awkward between them, it hadn't been normal either.
"Wait guys, I have an idea," JB suddenly said.
"What is it?" Mark asked.
"Maybe if we talk to Jesse he can get BamBam to forgive us."
Hmm. Not a bad idea. "Yugyeom, what do you think?" Jinyoung thought that the ultimate decision should go to Yugyeom because BamBam was his best friend.
"We can try." He still had that distant look on his face, however.
"Yugyeom, you should come over to the apartment later," Jackson suggested. "We can play some video games to cheer you up. And we can make Mark and Jinyoung play with us too."
"Wow, just don't invite us. That's okay." Jaebum crossed his arms and pouted.
"It's okay Bummie, we were going to hang out today anyway," Youngjae consoled. JB just huffed.
When the bell rang, the six headed off to their next classes. Jinyoung still was having trouble focusing because of everything going on in his head.
He hoped he would be distracted from it when Yugyeom was over after school.
When the four of them were finally at the apartment, they settled down to play some Mario kart. Jinyoung didn't really expect to win any anyways, but he was extra distracted today. It's like he wasn't trying at all, which if he was being honest, was true.
"Jinyoung, you okay?" Jackson asked.
When Jinyoung didn't respond and continued clicking random buttons on the controller even though the game was paused, he snapped a couple of times in his face.
"Earth to Jinyoung," Yugyeom said.
"Jinyoungie," Mark said and slightly shook him.
"Hm? What?"
"What's wrong?" Mark look worried. He noticed Jinyoung had been acting off all day, and it looked like it was getting worse.
"Nothing. I'm just tired."
Mark didn't look entirely convinced, but he said, "You should go take a nap. I'll still be here when you wake up."
Jinyoung sighed and agreed. He didn't think he'd actually be able to fall asleep, but it was worth a shot. Mark grabbed his hand and squeezed it before Jinyoung made it to his room, showing his silent support.
After another round of Mario kart, which Yugyeom won, Mark decided that he was going to go check on his boyfriend.
"No funny business," Jackson warned as Mark made his way to the room.
"Remember, we can hear everything!" Yugyeom added. Mark just rolled his eyes and then turned the doorknob.
Mark was happy to see that Jinyoung actually did fall asleep. He slowly crept over to his boyfriend and saw that he had his earbuds in.
Mark crept closer so he could place a kiss on his forehead. When he was only a couple inches from his face, Jinyoung gasped and jumped up.
"Oh my god, don't scare me like that!"
Mark took a deep breath to calm his own racing heart. "Well sorry! I thought you were asleep!"
Jinyoung narrowed his eyes and laid back into his spot. "Why'd you come in here anyway?" He took out his earphones.
"I just wanted to check up on my beautiful boyfriend."
"Shut up."
"Okay, what did I do to you?" Mark wasn't being serious, he knew how his boyfriend could get, so he was just making a joke. But it seemed Jinyoung didn't notice the lightheartedness. Or he chose to ignore it.
"You didn't do anything to me. But could you kindly fuck off?"
Okay, something was up. Mark sat down on the bed. "Jinyoung. What's wrong? You've been acting weird all day."
Jinyoung said nothing and didn't meet Mark's eyes.
"Did someone do something to you? Did someone hurt you?" Mark could hear his voice growing angrier as he thought about what could have happened to Jinyoung.
"No! No. No one did anything to me. I'm fine."
Mark chewed on the inside of his cheek. This was going to be difficult. "Then please, tell me what's wrong."
"I-I can't."
"Why not?"
"Because."
Mark suppressed his growl of frustration. He knew that if Jinyoung didn't want to tell him something, he should leave it alone. But this seemed different.
He was growing desperate. "Please. I can't just see you like this and not do anything about it."
Jinyoung sighed. "Well, you're not going to like my answer."
Mark kind of thought that was obvious. "Okay, and?"
"I just can't tell you."
"Maybe it would make you feel better if you told someone."
Jinyoung looked like he was pondering that statement. But then he shook head.
"Alright, I give up. But is there anything I can do to help?"
"Hmm. Maybe a hug?" Jinyoung smiled slightly.
"Ugh. After all that? Fine. Come here." Mark opened his arms and then wrapped them around Jinyoung. "Wow, you're warm."
Jinyoung just hummed and started swaying. After a minute more of that, the two separated. "Do you feel better?" Mark asked.
"A little bit."
"Ok good." They stayed silent for a few moments. "Are you ready to tell me now?"
Jinyoung groaned and buried his head in a pillow. "You're never going to give up, are you?" he said in a muffled voice.
"Nope." Mark popped the 'p.'
Jinyoung sat up and glared at his boyfriend. "Fine. I'll tell you."
Mark silently celebrated.
"Just promise not to get mad."
Oh? So the reason why Jinyoung couldn't tell him was because he was going to get mad at him?
Mark narrowed his eyes but nodded in agreement.
"Okay, so remember my aunt's vow renewal that I went to with Jackson?"
"Yeah...?"
"My family was being really homophobic so me and Jackson left the table and went to a random hallway. I was getting really upset and then I just kissed him." Jinyoung squeezed his eyes shut so he didn't have to see Mark's reaction.
Mark took a few seconds to process. He knew they had kissed before, but that was before they started dating. And he kind of guessed that the other two had feelings for each other but just didn't realize it. Who was he to step in the way of that?
"You guys were in the moment and you were emotional. It's fine."
Jinyoung peeked his eye open. "Really?"
Mark nodded, but Jinyoung could see there was a certain sadness around him.
"You don't understand. I don't regret kissing him. That's the thing. That's why I've been acting weird. I don't know how to sort my feelings out."
"How do you feel about me?" Mark asked.
"Oh, I still have feelings for you, obviously. I didn't mean for it to sound like I didn't. I still want to date you, but I don't know if you still want to date me."
Mark took a deep breath. "I still want to date you. But... do you have feelings for both of us?"
Jinyoung nodded. "I think so."
Mark really didn't want to laugh, but he couldn't control himself. He tried to cover it up, but the more he thought about it, the more he realized the irony of the situation.
Jinyoung looked at him confused. "What's so funny?"
Mark shook his head and continued laughing. Once he had controlled himself, he was met with an irritated Jinyoung.
"It's just- okay don't think I'm crazy."
Jinyoung narrowed his eyes even more.
"You like me and Jackson. Right?" Jinyoung nodded. "Well, I've kind of always had a thing for Jackson as well. But since you and me were progressing, I just ignored it."
"So you're saying you like Jackson and me?" Jinyoung asked, needing clarification. When Mark nodded, Jinyoung couldn't help but laugh as well.
"Our lives are a mess," Jinyoung said, shaking his head.
Mark chuckled in agreement.
"What are the chances that Jackson likes both of us, too?" Jinyoung wondered aloud.
Mark shrugged. "We could ask him."
"And then what? Would we be like, all dating each other?"
"Yeah, if he wants to."
The two laughed at the unlikeliness of the situation. If only they knew, it would be a lot harder than that.
A/N: if you aren't streaming you calling my name, wyd? also, I'm a little scared cuz my family is becoming more interested in my writing. if they found out I write fanfiction.... 0.0