[FLASHBACK]
《Yoongi oppa ~》 Chaerin runs towards the raven-haired boy, hugging him from behind. He was in front of the school entrance, with a backpack on his shoulder.
《Morning kitten.》 Yoongi turns to give her a kiss on the lips, takes her under his arm, going to his group of friends. Chaerin giggled happily, attached to his boyfriend.
Yoongi knew why she was so happy. He was happy too, because he had won the bet. With a proud and satisfied expression they approach his friends, Namjoon, Hoseok and Jin, who watched them arrive, already imagining what had happened between the two.
Chaerin tightens Yoongi's hand every time when she thinks of the night they spent at his house, her cheeks turning red only at the thought. She will never forget it.
As soon as they arrive, Chaerin greets everyone euphorically.
Jin looks at her with a raised eyebrow 《we have a winner, I guess》 he says, turning his gaze to Yoongi, who smiled mischievously. Namjoon gives a nudge with his elbow to Jin.
《Oh! Who won what?》 Chaerin asks innocently, putting her head aside.
《Nothing important, now go to your friend》Yoongi approaches her ear, whispering 《see you later.》 Tickling her lobe, she was so sensitive to every minimum action from Yoongi, and he knew it;
Chaerin's face becomes completely red 《o-ok oppa ...》 Chaerin leaves, greeting, to reach Hwasa, almost tripping over her own legs.
She was so sensitive and easy to tease that her legs became weak for the stupidest things.
Yoongi turns to his friends 《how did you do it?》Hoseok asks his friend 《she's-actually, she was, the most innocent girl I had ever seen.》
《Chaerin innocent? You have no idea what she can do with those pink lips ...》 Yoongi squints and remembers that moment when she wrapped him in her mouth.
《In the end Yoongi won ...》 Namjoon says putting his hands in his pockets 《I hoped to fuck her virginity away, I bet she was so tight ...》 he continues.
《She was fantastic. You have no idea.》
《Aah ... how I envy you ...》 Jin sighs.
《Well, the bet can still continue ...》 the three guys look at Yoongi with a questioning air.
《Even if she's my girlfriend, it doesn't mean that you ...》 gets even closer to her friends, to make sure no one hears them 《you can't fuck her ...》
《What do you mean?》 Jin asks, interested.
Yoongi smiles mischievously before speaking.
[...]
[PRESENT DAY]
《What are you thinking about?》 Namjoon sits next to Yoongi, his gaze scanning his absent expression.
《Chaerin ...》he responds without looking at his friend.
His gaze was fixed on the ceiling of his house. Yoongi could not get her out of his mind. Her expression of hatred for him hurted. But it's just his fault, and he knew it well.
《She will forgive you.》
《She will.》 Yoongi was sure about it He knew he could make it up to her. Even if it took him years, he didn't care.
[...]
《I will never forgive you, Yoongi. Leave me alone.》 Chaerin looked at him until he finished the sentence and turned away, leaving her back to him.
The mint haired boy held his hands in his pockets, watching Chaerin leave, leaving him alone in the school corridor. Some glances of other sex-thirsty girls looked at him, hoping he would look at them; but he didn't care about those girls, he just wanted Chaerin.
CHAERIN'S POV
I set off as far as possible from Yoongi. He came back again in this school, like the others. My goal was to finish this school year avoiding everyone. All boys. Perhaps Taehyung would have been difficult, since we live together. But I will limit communication with everyone.
I want to finish the last exams in peace and without complications.
I keep walking, the next lesson was about 20 minutes, so I had some time.
Hwasa stayed to sleep with me. She didn't want to leave me alone because the boys went out last night, coming back very late. I don't know where they went and what they did.
I heard them whisper to each other in the living room while I listened upstairs, secretly, but I didn't understand what they were saying. Jimin and Jungkook also stayed at my house and Taehyung's.
I could not sleep much, the return of Yoongi and the others kept me up all night, I had a very bad headache all morning.
Today our parents should have come back; I check all day if my mother had read the message I sent her the day before, but nothing. She had not even received it.
I sigh, the storm had done some damage in the city, but nothing too serious. So I heard, I haven't read anything about it yet.
I put the phone in my pocket and go to the first bathroom of the school.
I lock myself in, sit on the bathroom, placing the bag on the floor. I take a deep breath. Will I be able to avoid everyone?
I gasp from the sudden laughter of girls who entered the bathroom. Unwillingly, I listen to what they were talking about. They were two girls, I recognize their voices, they are in my class.
《Did you hear about Jimin?》
《No, what?》
《Apparently he is that new boy's step brother, Yoongi.》
《Really? But I heard that this new boy was here in this school even before ...》
《He's bigger than us. He was always with that Chaerin girl and his friends. I heard that she fucked all four...》she says in a low whisper.
《She is lucky, they are all super hot, I would do it too, in her place.》
《My brother told me that when he was still in this school, the five of them were always together, no one ever separated them. They were like an exclusive group.》
《Wow ... who knows what happened to them to split up ...》
《Probably drama between them.》
I listened to the two girls' talk, they left after a while. I leaned my back against the wall, bringing my legs over, crossing them.
I had become school gossip again, as before. In the end, the past always comes back, although I want to escape, it always takes me.
The past was repeating itself.
I tried not to think of Jimin and his being step-brother with Yoongi. It disturbed me, even more after having spent that beautiful night, with Jimin. If I think about it again, I get goose bumps.
My heart didn't know what it wanted. My vagina ... well she knew it. Even too well. I sigh. I didn't know what to do. I was too confused. I wanted to escape ... if only my mom was here, she would help me decide and maybe scold me.
I check the phone again, I try to call her, but the voice mail enters immediately, with her cheerful voice invites to leave a message. Her voice makes me smile.
《Mom ... when are you coming back? I miss you ...》I stay on the phone in silence for a couple of seconds, and then I close the call. I hope she will listen.
[...]
I'm in the school library, looking for a book that I needed for research, I was in the midst of the tall and dusty bookshops of all time. I look up, and I see the book I was looking for, I stand on my toes, reaching out, and grab the book.
As soon as I take it, I feel someone grab my wrist, squeezing it and making the book fall on the ground
Hard eyes that expressed anger are pointing at me.
《Did you fuck Yoongi too?!》 Taehyung asks half screaming.
《How do you know?》 I ask annoyed.
《So it's true? Why?!》
Chaerin stares at him in confusion, but the anger took its place immediately after.
《With what right do you ask me this thing ?!》
Taehyung was about to answer, but he understands that he had nothing to argue with. They were not together, they had just fucked, and he had only confessed his feelings and she had never given a precise answer.
There is silence, staring at her face still furrowed with anger. Releasing his grip on her arm.
《As I thought.》 Chaerin approaches him, a couple of centimeters from his face 《if you don't know how things went, then, shut up.》she spits out the last sentence as if it were poison.
Chaerin turns to leave, but Taehyung grasps her wrist again, and she is forced to turn around again 《then explain it to me.》 She stratifies his grip, freeing herself.
Chaerin goes away leaving him alone in his doubts.
[...]
School's over for today, and I'm waiting for Hwasa to come back to my house. Even today, she would have stayed to sleep with me. Taehyung's behavior had put me in a bad mood.
《Yoo ~》 the gentle voice of Hwasa made me whirl around behind me, coming towards me smiling.
As soon as she reaches me she crosses her arms with mine. She was acting strangely ... she was more affectionate than usual.
《What's going on?》 I ask suspiciously.
Hwasa becomes serious. I was right. Something was wrong.
《Apparently ... Yoongi told them ... what happened.》
《What?》 I ask incredulously, stopping.
《I mean, not everything, he just said you fucked all four ... I heard about it from Jimin.》
《Bastard ...》 I clenched my jaw.
《Why did he need to say it? That's why Taehyung reacted like this before ...》
Hwasa looks at me from the side not understanding, I quickly explain what happened in the library.
《I know it's hard, but you should explain to them what happened.》
《They can think what they want about me. If I tell it, it's not to look like a saint. I would do it only because I don't want them to think I used them ...》
《That's what I mean, Chaerin.》
《But, how can I do it? Where do I start?》Chaerin's step slows down, feeling frustrated and confused.
Hwasa takes her by the shoulders, and with sure voice she tells her 《start where you want.》
Chaerin nods, feeling a little better, smiles at Hwasa, and she reciprocates.
[...]
《Do you want to know the truth?》
Without realizing it I find myself here, in my salon, on Hwasa's advice to tell the truth.
They were all sitting, I was standing in front of them, there was also Hwasa. I could not deny that I was afraid of their reaction. What will they think of me?
The three nod. I called them all to get them here, I would have said everything. All that had happened in the past.
《Well, it's true, I fucked all four.》I say swallowing.
Silence sets in the room. No one says a word, but their looks expressed more than their gestures.
《If I tell you this, it's not to justify myself. Because I don't need it. But I want you to know the truth.》Cherin sits on the couch 《I don't know what Yoongi told you, but I want to tell you my truth.》points her eyes to the three guys, looking for a reaction, but nothing.
《Everything started the first year, I was very naïve, inexperienced in everything and easily manipulated.》 breathe deeply 《I have always been the ugly duckling of the school, but at some point of the year, I decided I wanted to change. And that's where Yoongi, the guy I always had a crush on, noticed me ...》 Chaerin scratches his embarrassed neck.
《A fairly cliché story.》 Chaerin chuckles sarcastically.
《Namjoon and Hoseok were my classmates and friends, and they knew about my crush, but they were also his friends ...》 looks at Jimin's face, he was serious, he expressed nothing.
《I thought he had serious intentions with me, I gave him everything about me. All. But he... he played with my feelings.》
Chaerin was totally undressing herself, metaphorically speaking.
She was deeply in love with Yoongi. It was her first love. Her first boyfriend. She would've done everything for him, and she did it.
《But, what I didn't know is, that he made a bet with the others, Jin, Namjoon and Hoseok. A bet on who could fuck me first. Yoongi won, but disn't finish there.》
Only Hwasa knew the truth. And Chaerin's mother, who has always been by her side, even after these mistakes. Her only fault was being too innocent and too in love with the wrong guy.
《They decided to continue the deal ...》 a knot formed in her throat 《and so ... Yoongi made it so that I fucked with everyone.》
The three guys realized why she got so angry when she found out they made that deal about her.
《It was not rape, I was consenting. I did it because Yoongi told me, because he liked ... seeing his girlfriend fucked by others, while he looked ... and I liked it too.》she said the last sentence with an insecure tone.
Chaerin's face turned red in having to tell all this. It was a part of her life that she wanted to forget. It was a secret she carried inside. She was ashamed.
No one interfered, no one dared make a noise. They knew it was a sensitive issue. They listened in silence.
Chaerin looks at them all, feeling guilty. She treated them like they did with her, more or less.
《It went on for a while. Until my father passed away ...》 she tried to hold back the tears 《at that moment I needed Yoongi and the others, and I thought everyone would be there for me, but I didn't count for them ... I was just a fucking empty-cum-hole for him and his friends.》her vo8ce trembled, she takes a sip of water.
Chaerin was in the midst of school gossip for a long time. Everyone knew of their particular relationship, but none dared to criticize them or go against them. Their families were too influential above all.
《From that time, they all started to ignore me. To treat me as if I didn't exist. Until ... they left school and the city.》
Hwasa approaches Chaerin, pointing out his presence. They exchange a look of comfort.
《It was the worst time of my life. If it wasn't for Hwasa and my mother ... I would have died. I fell into depression, I had too much pain to deal with, I was self-destructing.》 a knot formed in her throat, Hwasa squeezed her hand.
《So I lost a school year. While I was being followed by a psychologist, my mother started dating your father, Taehyung. And they fell in love.》I say, smiling bitterly.
《Wow ...》 is the only thing Jungkook managed to say.
《I must apologize. I used you like they did with me. But my psychologist explained to me that ... the lack of my father, a male figure, causes me to constantly seek males attention. That's why I probably ... behaved like that with you all.》
Taehyung's tense expression turned to disappointment. Jimin looked away from Chaerin's, Jungkook was the only one looking at her, smiling warmly.
《Well. That's all ... you know more or less. I recovered, our parents got married, you moved here and then I got to know you all better.》
Although Chaerin and the other four were quite popular at school, Jungkook and Taehyung knew nothing. Only Jimin had heard of it, but he didn't think she was the girl in question.
The school was very large, not everyone knew each other, there were so many students, and it was hard able to keep up with every gossip.
《I think it's time I also explain my story ... I owe you. 》Jimin interrupts the awkward silence that had been created, no one knew what to say to Chaerin. Not that something could be said for such a situation.
Everyone had mixed feelings about it, they were confused, angry, jealous, annoyed ...
《Yoongi and I are step brothers like you, our parents got married some time ago ...》 takes a break, thinking about how to explain everything in a simpler way 《we all lived together, I didn't get along with him, I hated the his ways of doing things, but our parents always were on his side. So I moved ...》 scratches his neck 《it's not a complicated story ...》
《You do it pretty well on yourself.》 Taehyung says to cheer him up.
《Well, now that everyone knows everything. We can all start over, right?》 Hwasa happily jumps from the couch, joining hands. I nod smiling.
Today is the beginning of a new chapter. No drama, no sex, no complicated story. I was happy to have told them what had happened to me. But I was worried about their reaction. Indeed, they hadn't reacted that much ...
I hate to admit it, but their opinion of me frightened me.
We decide to order something to eat, we all talk quietly as normal friends. Jungkook approached me first, comforting me, saying that he would always be there for me. He is so sweet...
I'm really grateful.
But of course, our peace didn't last long.
After dinner they all relax on the sofa, chatting and playing among themselves. Now that everything was clearer, they felt more united than before. Hwasa was glad she was able to tell what had happened, she was so proud of her friend.
Chaerin turns on the TV, on a random channel, just to create a bit of atmosphere, the television gave the evening news.
"And here is the evening news for today ..."
《I'll go get some chips ~.》 Jimin gets happily up from the couch, going to the kitchen.
"After the bad storm of last day, the missing plane was found."
《But we just had dinner!》 Chaerin replies.
"We inform you of the latest news regarding the flight YF3853 from Tokyo to Seoul: the flight crashed into the sea, due to the storm."
《But I'm still hungry ~》he complains as he returns with the chips in his hand.
"There are no survivors."
Everyone's attention was turned towards the television.
Chaerin's heart started beating fast.
《Wait ... it can't be.》Chaerin rises abruptly, searching frantically for a page on a notepad. She hangs on a page with the words her mother had left her. With the flight information.
She reads the flight number, compares it with the plane that fell in the sea announced on the news. The notepad falls from her hands, her eyes fill with tears. Starts to shake.
She points her eyes to Taehyung.
《T-taehyung ... that, is our parents' flight.》
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I feel like this chapter is a mess. Well my mind is too, so it makes sense. I hope you still liked. What do you think about Chaerin and her past?
Thanks for reading~