We've been busy this past few days so I rarely had the chance to see Sophie.
She said she's busy with school too, so she can't go to the library often.
But that's okay because at least we can text each other now.
"Hyung, Sejin hyung said he wants to talk to you," Namjoon told me.
I groaned, "Ahhh... what does he want?"
The boys looked at me as I made my way to our manager's office. I wonder why their faces seem worried?
"Hi?" I bowed to our manager, he gestured me at the chair in front of his desk.
"What's happening to you Yoongi?"
"Me? I'm fine. I'm perfectly fine."
"You haven't told me about your girlfriend yet."
I scoffed, "Girlfriend? I don't have a girl-"
He cut me by shoving his phone on my face.
I grabbed his phone and scrolled through the pictures.
It was me and Sophie, in the university the other day. Where I picked her up.
Shit.
"So tell me, she's not your girlfriend?"
"I... I..." I'm lost for words.
"You're trending again!"
And he's right.
#sugadating #sugagirlfriend #thatshouldbeme #girlinwhite and even #seouluniversity is trending.
The first thing that comes to my mind... Sophie.
"Hyung. Can you please take it down? Just tell them it's not me. I was wearing a mask and a hat. It's easy to deny it wasn't me."
"That's what we've been doing all day."
"All day? So you're telling me that the pictures were posted this morning?"
He just nodded.
"Hyung. Please tell them it isn't me."
"Yes. We will do that. But please Yoongi. Stop this nonsense."
There's a shot of pang through my ears.
Nonsense?
How can you say she's nonsense to me?
You don't even know her, or what I feel!
"She's important to me! And please stop acting like you own me. Just let me be happy just for once!"
I stormed out from his office and went to the parking lot to find my car.
I called Sophie but she's not answering, so I texted her.
Sophie. How are you? Please answer my call.
I closed the car's door with a bang.
I'm not afraid for me.
I'm afraid for her.
She's living a quiet life and now I ruined it.
I can't help thinking what happened to her in school today, after the pictures were posted.
I texted her again,
Sophie I'm worried. Are you okay?
I started to drive. I don't know where I should go but I want to get away from here.
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I went at the park. Sitting on the grass, the spot where Sophie and I watched the sunset.
It's so quiet, I'm here all alone. And that's what I want right now.
She's still not answering my calls and texts. I don't want to think negatively so I thought, maybe she's just sleeping already.
Are you sleeping already? Wishing you a good night.
I texted her once again. Texting her makes me calm even though she's not replying. I can still feel like I'm talking to her.
My phone rang, I answered immediately as I saw the name flashing on the screen.
Sophie? How are you?
She's not answering.
Hello? Sophie? Are you there?
Still no answer, but I heard something. Sounds like crying.
I got up from the ground.
Sophie? Are you crying?
Yoongi...
Sophie. Tell me. Please. What happened?
I ran to my car.
Yoongi I'm sorry...
It's clear that she's really crying.
No Sophie. It's my fault. Please stop crying.
I started the car's engine.
Yoongi I'm sorry. But I need to tell you something.
Okay tell me. What is it?
There's silence.
Sophie?
Yoongi I'm sorry. But we need to stop seeing each other.
I unconsciously stepped on the gas pedal on her words.
I can feel my heart shattering once more.
Is it about the pictures? I already told my manager to take it down. You don't have to worry.
I accelerated the car, I need to see her right now.
No Yoongi. It's not about that. It's about everything.
Everything?
Everything's not fine. Things are messed up for you and me.
No. Sophie. We can make things work. Please.
I felt tears streaming down my face.
Im sorry Yoongi. I don't want you to be hurt.
I'm fine! As long as you're here with me, I'm fine. Please don't leave me.
I just want you to know that I'm the happiest when I'm with you.
No! Please don't do this to me. I'm coming to see you. Just wait.
Please continue to spread love through your songs. People need it nowadays.
I need it too. I need you, more than anything.
Sophie... please...
I can't feel my hands anymore, my whole body shaking.
Please forgive me, Goodbye Yoongi.
She hung up.
"Noooooo!!!!" I shouted in frustration.
I attempted to redial her number but I couldn't see clearly. My eyes drunk from its own tears.
I suddenly remembered that I'm driving.
But it's too late.
The last thing I saw is a tree, as I crashed into it.