Continuation!
💕Samantha's P.O.V💕
Wala akong kagagana-ganang nakatingin kay Miss Yaossa habang nagbibigay siya nang instruction tungkol sa gagawin naming activity. Lutang na lutang ako, inaantok at gusto ko nang lumabas.
Psh!
Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang pagkabagot at pagkainip dito sa classroom simula nang maging Lycine Royal ako.
"Sa ngayon tatawagin ko muna ang mga pangalan ng magiging magkapareha sa gagawin ninyong activity."
Nabalik naman ang atensiyon ko kay Professor.
"This activity is only by pair." Dagdag niya at kinuha ang maliit na booklet niyang dala.
"Mr. Luke Spencer Lee and Miss Zyra Nathalie Scott"
"Mr. Asher Timothy Lykien and Miss Jetter Tiffany Lee"
"Mr. Cloud Kian Cross and Miss Kiah Maddison Sandoval"
Masayang tiningnan ni Miss ang magkakapareha na natawag niya.
Pagkatawag nang pangalan na iyon mukhang mga baliw na nakangisi si Asher at Cloud samantalang lukot na lukot ang mukha ni Kiah at inikutan ng mata si Cloud, si Zyra naman mukhang ayos lang na si Luke ang kapartner mukhang ganon rin naman si Luke, while Jetter ayon as usual NR lang.
"So, here's the next pairs."
Ibinalik niya ulit ang tingin sa booklet.
"Prince Jake Laurence Sy and Princess Kate Sapphire Lingthon"
"Prince Kaizen Vince Gilbert and Princess Katherine Steffany Chua "
"Prince Klien Ashton Black and Princess Kathleen Vielle Gilbert"
Owwkay?
Psh!
Mukhang pinag-isipan talaga ni Prof. ang pinagpartner niya. tsk!
Sana si Nerissa nalang ang makapartner ko.
(Sigh)
Can I already go outside?
"Miss KC Zuzaine Stanford and Miss Joana Morgan Im"
"Mr. Zachary Luis Thompson and Miss Jessa Ashley Kim"
"Mr. Gabriel Perez and Miss Nerissa Ashlyn Servey"
Gulat akong napatingin kay Miss nang marinig ko ang pangalan ni Nerissa. Gahh!
Seguro kong maayos lang ang lahat ngayon baka kinilig na ako dahil yung sini-ship ko ay magkapartner sa activity na ito, but for now hinihiling ko na sana si Nerissa ang makapartner ko pero mukhang malabo na.
I took a deep sigh.
Sino nga ba ang hindi pa natatawag? Ako si Hannah, si Surah, si Ethan, si Kurt at si Blake. Psh!
Wag naman sanang si Blake oh! Aish!...
I hate to admit this pero ayaw kung makapartner si Blake what if si Ethan nalang gesh! Di kami ganon ka close, eh kung si Kurt nalang? arghh!!!!
This is so stupid! Why Miss Yaossa do this? Bakit hindi nalang bunutan o pilian? Psh!
Tsk! Bahala na! Just all I care is my self, right Sam remember? I want to go outside now! Goodness! Why I feel suffocating inside of this room?
"And the last pairs....
"Prince Kurt Nathan Black and Miss Hannah Vannity Clarckson"
Napatingin ako sa kanila, psh! NR~No Reaction...
"Mr. Ethan James Anderson and Princess Surah Stone Cyler"
Now, this pairing is really-really stupid! The heck!
I don't know if tama ba ang nakita ko. I saw how Surah stiffened and and he look at Ethan the top three in the list as usual poker face guy tsk! Off course the top one is Blake and the second it's Kurt.
"And the last but not the least-
Tumingin pa si Miss kay Blake nang nakangiti bago tumingin sa akin, I look at her too with no reaction on my face. I want to go outside for not to heard my name and his name.
It feels like~~~
I'm suffocating.
" Prince Blake Ezekiel Collins and Miss Samantha Alliyah Smith"
Daig ko pa ang binagsakan nang langit at lupa.
I mentally rolled my orbs.
This is really-really stupid!
Why I feel that my heart is aching?
Why I feel so sad and hurting?
The scene of Surah and him hugging is repeating inside my head, parang sirang video tape na paulit-ulit na nagrereplay sa utak ko.
What a scene!
Damn!
Stupid Samantha! Why you are hurting?
"So, is their any question and violent reaction about the pairings?"
I don't know if wala ba talagang kaalam-alam sa nangyayari si Miss Yaossa hindi ba siya aware sa nangyari, the awkward atmosphere inside of this room? Psh! O alam niya rin pero kunyaring hindi niya napapansin o wala siyang alam.
I closed my eyes to calm my self.
Saktong pagmulat nang mata ko nagulat ako nang magkatinginan kami ni Prof.
I made my expression blank.
She's looking at me, intensely but with a calm expression.
"Is their something wrong, Miss Smith?"
Muntik nang manlaki ang mata ko dahil sa sinabi niya buti at napigilan ko.
"It's nothing, Miss." I said without blinking.
She smile at me. I didn't do the same.
Why would I smile? Wala namang nakakangiti sa sinabi ko and I think hindi ko pa kayang ngumiti dahil sa mga nangyayari ngayon.
"You seems not all right? Is their something's bothering you?" She ask.
Why? Bakit ang dami niyang napapansin.
Umiiling lang ako sa kanya.
"Are you sure?" She ask me once again.
I sigh.
"Yes, Miss." Please just go on with the discussion Miss, I really hate attention.
Tumango lang siya.
"So...bla...bla...that...bla...bla...is...
Inilabas ko nalang ang isang notebook at ballpen na lagi kung daladala at nagsulat ng kung ano-ano.
"Miss Smith, can you go in front?" She suddenly ask kaya nagulat naman ako.
What? But why?
Nangunot ang noo ko.
I stand up. Psh! As if I have a choice.
"Yes Miss." I said and walk in front.
Ano naman ba ang gagawin mo Prof.? I don't know but I have a bad feeling about this.
All of them are looking at me.
Hindi ko nalang sila pinagtuunan nang pansin.
A-ano daw?
"Give me a 5 things, a person, food or whatever you do not like or you hate the most." She ask when I finally standing in front.
"M-miss?" Nagtataka kung tanong sa kanya at mukhang ganon rin ang iba.
Kasama ba to sa lesson namin?
"Go on." Hindi niya manlang ako binigyan ng pansin.
Should I really do this? Psh!
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I mentally gasp when I meet his gaze.
*Lub! Dub! Lub! Dub! Lub! Dub!*
Ah! really heart!? Why you beating so fast?! Aish!
Calm down Sam. They'll looking at you.
"I hate Rain...I hate Darkness, I hate Liars, I hate....
I cut my words and I look at them.
Kate just avoiding my gaze, yumuko naman si Katherine why Kathleen she's looking at me with a sad eyes.
"...I hate the fact that some people get judge for being real while some are getting love for being fake, Miss." I said those words while looking at Professor Yaossa.
Nakita ko pa kung paanong nagulat si Miss Yaossa sa sinabi ko.
Inilayo ko naman ang tingin sa kanya at maglalakad na sana.
"Sandali, how about the other one apat palang yun Miss Smith."
Napatigil naman ako sa paglalakad.
Nilingon ko siya at binigyan nang kakaibang tingin.
"I-I hate... my old self because I'm so stupid to trust anyone that easily and I didn't know they are using me and take advantage with my kindness and innocent, I hate...my old self."
I heard someone gasp.
Napakurap naman nang mata si Miss Yaossa. Hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi ko.
I really hate my old self but-
Not Samantha Alliyah Smith.
"Miss Smith-
"Excuse me Miss I will go outside."
Hindi ko na pinatapos ang sasabihin niya. I excuse my self because I really feel that I'm suffocating inside this room.
Tumango lang siya, kaya nag-lakad na ako paalis alam kung lahat nang mga mata nasa akin nakatuon.
I sigh and ignore them.
Nang makalabas ako ay para akong isang hayop na pinakawalan sa kanyang hawla.
I take a deep breathe.
How?
How can I escape in this nightmare .....
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When I know the fact that I'm not dreaming.
How?
How can I escape in this reality?
Can someone help me to escape?
Can you?
Help me?
Not! Again Sam! Don't let your tears fall down.
"S-sam?"
Nagulat naman ako nang may nag salita sa likuran ko.
"Nerissa?" I called her name and make my face blank.
"Where are you going?" Malumanay niyang tanong.
How can she manage to be so calm?
I avoided her gaze.
"Go back inside." I said coldly.
"But Sam you should -
" Wag mo kung pakialaman, bumalik ka na sa loob."
"Sam, Alam kung hindi ka maayos please let me help you." She pleaded.
Bat ka ba ganyan Nerissa.
"Yes your right I'm not okay, but I can manage my self, Nerissa." Diniinan ko ang pangalan niya.
Sadness is now visible on her eyes.
"Sam-
" Bakit ba ang kulit mo?!"
Naiinis kung sigaw sa kanya.
"Samantha, what do you think you're doing?"
I heard a familiar voice his cold voice.
I look at him.
His handsome face but a blank expression calm my self....but-
It's irritate me at the same time.
Why?
Why I see him in front of me?
Bakit ngayon pa?
Ibinalik ko ang tingin sa babaeng nasa harapan ko.
Nerissa?
Seeing my protector in front of me is like I see an Angel welling to protect and keep me safe until her last breathe.
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She's not just a Protector....but she's-
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My Guardian, My Best Friend, and She's like an older Sister who guide and give a protection to her younger sister....she's the person I really treasure the most.
Thank you, Nerissa for being my Protector.
But...
I think...
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I
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Can't
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Be
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Your
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Master...
Dahil isa akong Master na hindi kayang lumaban, I can't even win against her enemy.
Bakit nga ba ako naging Master?
Ano bang ginagawa nang isang Master?
Tinalikuran ko silang dalawa at hindi sinagot ang tanong niya.
"S-Sam?!"
Karapdapat nga ba akong maging Master mo Nerissa kung ganito ako kahina?
Kaya mo akong protektahan pero paano ka naman?
Palagi kung naiisip na nandiyan ka palagi sa likuran ko para protektahan ako kaya palaging ikaw ang tinatawag ko, pero hindi ko naisip na kailangan din pala kitang protektahan dahil ako ang Master mo. Pooprotektahan mo ako dahil yun and tungkulin mo pero paano naman ang sarili mo sinong poprotekta sayo?!
How can I be stupid to be a Master!
"Bakit?!!!!"
I'm selfish?
Pero bakit?
Yung taong palaging nandiyan sa likuran ko hindi ko manlang magawang lingunin?
I push them away, kasabay non lahat nang walang kasalanan itinaboy ko palayo.
Bakit?
Bakit ang gulo nang buhay ko?
At bakit?...
Sa dinami dami nang tao dito bakit sayo pa ako nagka-gusto?
You always protect me but you never heard my "thank you".
You need my thanks not my hate Blake...but what can I do? I'm hurting, my heart are breaking that no one knows.
How can I win against Surah? How?
Why you'll do this to me.
Kate, Katherine, Kathleen? How can I forgive all of you if even my self can't forget on what all of you did.
Can someone tell me how to forget the pain that they cause?
Can someone give me a medicine to ease the pain that that I'm feel right now? Because I'm welling to take just to go back in the past when we all are happy and okay.
Can someone?
Heard me?
Akala ko yung luha ko ubos na hindi pa pala.
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