Jorel's P.O.V.
I just wanted to cry myself to sleep. Yes, that's how fucked up I was. I'm unable to make the right decisions, goddamn it. I'm unable to say what I think and how I feel. What a loser I am!
While still lost in my thoughts, for a second I noticed someone's shadow following me. Maybe she wanted to tell me something more? I sighed and turned around, but instead of her, I saw Da Kurlzz creeping on me... Weird!
"Dude, what the fuck? Why are you snooping around?" I kinda raised my voice, feeling freaked out a little.
"Oh, Jay, it's you! Sorry..." He spoke with his tipsy voice. "I just couldn't sleep next to Jordon anymore!"
I raised an eyebrow at him. "As much as I know, you've already slept next to him."
"Oh, shut up!" He sounded kind of offended. "Anyway... Whatcha were you doing with your girly over there?"
"If you must know – nothing!" I still felt shitty and I just couldn't say anything more to him. "And she's not my girly or whatever... Now, go back to sleep, we'll talk tomorrow."
"All right, then! Nighty-night, Jay-Jay!" His words somehow lifted me up.
"Sleep tight... Don't let the dead bite..." I joked the way we used to, and for a second I felt better. Maybe friendship is all I need. I distanced myself from them all because of all of these fucking secrets.
Matt just laughed it off and shortly after went back to sleep next to Jordon... yup.
***
My P.O.V.
The next morning I felt pretty weird. Still feeling devastated because of my bestie and kinda confused after Jorel's words, I couldn't get up and face the day. Ryan texted me again and again, so I briefly explained to him why I needed to leave. I still wasn't sure how I felt about him. I mean, I liked him as a friend, and yes – we shared some interesting moments yesterday, but I didn't even have time to process everything. And what's up with Jorel anyway? First, he goes back to his girlfriend and then he comes back to me with all that cute bullshit talk! I already had too many problems, but once I'm gone I'll leave all these testosterone boys behind and things will be much simpler.
Ryan and I arranged a meeting because he wanted to give me some kind of a gift. I had no clue what it could be, but I was really curious. I quickly get dressed and said bye to the guys on my way out. As much as I noticed, Jorel was probably still asleep since he wasn't with the rest of the group. I just hoped he wouldn't bribe about me leaving because I wanted to be the one to announce that.
But then again, why would he? He's been keeping us a secret, so I don't think he'd even mention we had a conversation, let alone anything else that has happened between us. I'm not even sure if I should believe in any of his pathetic shit from last night.
***
Ryan was already waiting for me. The second I showed up, he hugged me and kissed my cheek.
"So sorry to hear about your friend... How are you holding up?" He asked with compassion in his voice.
"I've had better days, you know..." I answered honestly.
"Yeah... I'm so sorry once again! So... When exactly are you leaving?"
"As soon as possible! I haven't told the band anything yet, but when we figure everything out, I'll be leaving... for good." I had mixed feelings about this. On one hand, I was impatiently waiting to see my bestie again, but on the other... I'll say goodbye to the guys and Ryan as well and probably will never see them again.
"Well, then... This isn't goodbye since we still have some time to spend together." He winked at me. "But before you leave... I've got something for ya!" He handed me a huge envelope which made me perplexed.
Jorel's P.O.V.
"Why did you idiots let her be with that asshole again?" I was fucking furious.
"Man, calm down. There's nothing to worry about." Danny was the first one to respond.
"Nothing to worry about, huh?" I hissed. "Every fucking time she goes out with him, she ends up drunk and/or crying!"
"All right, that's a good point!" Jordon stated.
"And did she even tell you the news?" I questioned, still angry as fuck.
"What news?" Jordon asked, looking at the others in confusion. They all stayed silent.
"So, that means no..." I spoke under my breath, trying to relax a little bit. "Look, it's not up to me to say it, I know she wouldn't like it... But, I guess she'll tell you later. It's really important!"
"Are you saying that you know something we don't? No fucking way!" Dylan chuckled.
"Well, obviously, since he's spending nights with her." Da Kurlzz added and I just wanted to choke them both.
"Hey, it's not like that at all!" I defended myself. "None of you, including her has any idea what I've done to protect her!"
"Protect her from what?" Danny asked and they all looked more and more confused.
"Nothing!" I gave up. I didn't wanna reveal too much.
"Hey Jay, wait!" Johnny, who's been silent for a while, exclaimed.
I let him join me outside, leaving the others on the bus.
***
"Goddamnit, man! We never got a chance to talk." Johnny sounded very serious.
"About what?" I still wasn't sure what he knew about me.
"Listen, you can trust me... I'm probably the only one you can truly trust." I admit, his words were giving me chills. "I know you've been tortured by someone."
After his statement, I just stared at him in disbelief.
"I know you're probably confused right now, but listen to me..." He continued. "I've been tracking some suspicious people and let me tell you – I think I'm on the right path to discover them."
"B-But...how?" I actually stuttered. "How is this even possible?"
"You really thought you were going to disappear just like that and not to make me worry?" He actually smiled after his words. "You're like a brother to me, Jay. I had to do something."
I still didn't know how to react properly. "Man, I don't know what to say... Really..."
"Don't say anything yet." He interrupted me. "Just don't say anything to anyone. You can't trust anyone these days... for real! I promise you, Jay, I'mma help you escape this madness!"
"But I don't want you to get hurt because of me!" And I really meant it. I've kept this a secret for so long only to protect them all the best I could.
"Oh, don't cha worry about me, baby! If someone fucks with J3T, I'm like – kill 'em all." He winked at me and for the first time in a while, I wasn't feeling alone.