I couldn't shake off the bad feeling that something bad was about to happen and as I took my bath, I silently prayed that nothing happened because I couldn't handle another bad experience.
I would definitely lose it.
I got into my work clothes and just let my hair fall down my back in its naturally curly state because I wasn't even in the mood to style it.
I walked downstairs and heard the sound of cutleries in the kitchen so I made my way over there.
If I was going to talk to Jason then it was now or never.
I got to the kitchen to meet my best friend downing a bowl of bacon and eggs.
"You're up early." I said and moved to sit beside her.
"I was hungry." She said said with a full mouth which caused some of the food in her mouth to fall out.
"Manners woman!" I said with a disapproving stare and she just flipped me off.
"Who made all of these because I know it can never be you even in years to come." I said referring to the food on the table.
"Screw you bitch!" She said and I couldn't help the fit of laughter that escaped from my mouth.
"Someone is a nasty pregnant woman." I said laughing
"I hate you." She said with a scowl and continued eating.
"I love you too my love." I said with a smile and moved to give her a hug.
"Stay away you creep." She said with a straight face but she couldn't hold it for long and soon we were both laughing.
"Jason made it and it's so good. You're lucky you're married to someone that has amazing cooking skills."
"Hey! Dray's a good cook too." I said and suddenly her smile dropped.
"I'm sorry babe."
"No it's fine." She said with her award-winning fake smile.
"It isn't. He'll come around, I promise. He's just being a coward." I said with a small smile.
"Yeah." She drawled
"Where's he?" I asked changing the topic.
"Who?"
"Jason."
"Oh, he left for work already." She said and continued her meal.
"Oh—"
"He said he wasn't sure you would want to see him so he left before you came downstairs.
Look May, I know you're mad at him and all but he loves you like crazy,we spoke yesterday and of you can just listen to him—"
"But—"
"Shut up and listen to me. I know he hurt you and all but at least he had a good reason." She said and I gave her a questioning stare.
"I'm serious. He had a good reason."
"You sound just like my mum right now." I said rolling my eyes at her.
"Well that's good because we all know your mum is a smart woman."
"But you're not." I said with an evil smile and once again she flipped me off which just caused me to laugh.
"But really, you have to talk to him. At least hear what he has to say first before you decide not to talk to your husband for the rest of your life which is very stupid by the way." She said with an eye roll.
"I know mum." I drawled with a small smile.
She was about to say something when the sound of my phone interrupted her and I looked to see that it was my mum.
"Mum?" I said with a concerned voice as soon as she picked up the phone.
"Hey honey, where are you?" She asked and I heard her sniffle which only meant she had been crying.
"Mum what wrong? Is Dad okay? Where are you?" I asked all at once and my heart felt like it was going to come out from my chest.
"Your dad is fine but he's asked to see you."
"Where are you?" I screamed as I quickly got up, completely ignoring Cami and her questions.
"Calm down honey."
"Mum where are you?!"
"The hospital." She said and I hung up immediately and grabbed my keys, quickly making my way to the car as Cami followed me and I figured she already had an idea of what was happening.
"Slow down May! Are you trying to get us killed?!" My best friend cried with fear from beside me which caused me to take my leg away from the accelerator.
"He'll be fine."
"Don't make a promise you can't keep." I said without sparing her a glance and the rest of the journey was made in silence.
As soon as I got to the hospital, I jumped down from the car and ran like a wild lion was chasing me and was directed to the floor my dad was at in the hospital.
I ran into his room not sparing a glance at those in the waiting room to see my dad on the bed with tubes all over him and I had never seen him look so pale.
"Hey there." He said and cleared his throat.
"Dad." I whimpered as I moved closer to him and I felt a tear drop.
"Now now, don't cry honey. I'm not going anywhere." He said with a smile.
"Dad you know you can't leave me right now don't you? I need you more than ever. I got my fighting spirit from you so you can fight this dad, I know you can." I said and at this point I was full on crying.
"I'm never going to leave you. Even if I'm not here physically I'll be there in the spirit."
"I don't want you to be with me in the spirit. I want to be able to see you every time dad. I'm not ready to tell you goodbye dad please!" At this point I was shouting and crying.
"I don't have much time sweetheart but I need you to know that I'll always love you and I'm forever proud of you."
"Dad—" I whined as I felt him slowly close his eyes.
"Dad don't leave me! Dad please! Dad!" I said shaking him hardly but at this point he wasn't even moving or breathing.
"Daddy. I love you." I whispered helplessly but I knew he already gone.
I suddenly felt a pair of strong hands around my shoulders and didn't even think twice before burying my head into his shoulders and soon his scent wrapped me up.
Jason.
"Come on now Hazel, let's go out, they have to cover him up." He said and led me out of the room to the waiting room where everyone was seated.
I guess I missed them when I was going in.
"Hey honey, are you okay?" My mum asked and all I could do was hug her as I cried harder.
When I was finally sober, I finally acknowledged the presence of everyone in the room and that was when I saw my brother and Cami.
I guess that's settled then.
"The family of Mr Andrews?" Someone I assumed to be the doctor came into the waiting room.
"Yes please." Dray answered.
"We've moved your father's body to the hospital's mortuary, he's going to be kept in the freezer for—"
I could feel my head spinning and I suddenly had the urge to throw up.
"I think I'm going to be sick." I said getting up and the room started spinning again but as I was about to fall, a pair of hands grabbed me by my waist.
"Come on Hazel, I got you. Let's get you home." He said and carefully led me outside, the voice of everyone around me fading with the background.
The ride home was very quiet and the only thing that could be heard from the car was the low sound of music from the car. I wasn't thinking about anything, I was just blank and I felt so empty.
Something I hadn't felt in years.
As soon as we got home, I got out of the car and matched straight up to my room to get out of my work clothes which were beginning to get uncomfortable.
I settled into my sweats and top and just laid down on my bed, no thoughts, no tears, nothing.
I kept staring at the ceiling for God knows how long until I got tired and fell asleep.
I woke up to the sound of a knock on my door and I just let out a very loud groan.
My head was pounding.
"Hazel, can I come in?" The voice asked and for a while I had to remember where I was.
"Hmm." I said and sat up on my bed with my back against the pillow.
"Hey." He said as he entered and moved to seat on my bed. He was wearing a black track pant and a black wife beater so I assumed he was in the gym or something. All the same he look hot and I couldn't stop staring.
"Hazel." He called again and I realized he caught me staring which caused my face to redden.
"Oh hi." I said with a small fake smile.
What? Don't blame me? I'm married to him so it isn't a crime to stare.
"How are you feeling?"
"Should I lie to you or should I be honest?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Please be honest."
"I feel empty and I have a killer headache. I feel like I'm out of tears but I want to cry but I can't and it's just so annoying. I sound stupid I know." I said and used my hand to cover my face.
"No you don't." He said as he gently removed my hands from my face and I suddenly realized how close he was to me.
"I totally understand you and trust me when I say I felt the same way when Jamie died. I guess it just comes with grieving." He said with my hands still in his.
"How did you deal with it?"
"In a horrible way. I drank, partied,vslept around and did everything that a nineteen year old could do." He said and I couldn't help but cringe at the part where he said he slept around.
"But you my Hazel," He said and moved one hand to caress my cheek which I unconsciously settled into, "you're beautiful, smart, strong and the most amazing woman I've ever met and I know you'll be fine as always but just know that I've got you, always and forever." He said and leaned in closer and I didn't think twice before I did the same.
I silently prayed that nothing would interrupt us this time and when our lips finally met, I could feel myself melt away and my body was suddenly on fire.
They were as soft as I imagined and as his lips gently caressed mine, I could feel myself relax and suddenly all my problems seemed to disappear.
He asked for permission to let my tongue in and I gladly accepted as our tongues fought for dominance but his won and I wasn't complaining.
The kiss soon got heated and before I knew it, I was straddling his lap as he moved his lips from mine to my neck.
Before I could protest, I let out a moan when he kissed a spot just beneath my ears and I guess he liked it because he let out a groan that sent heat straight to my core.
This man is definitely going to be the death me.
His hand trailed from my neck down to the hem of my top and as he raised it up I gladly let him take it off.
The look in his eyes caused my cheeks to be redder than they already were because his eyes became darker and looked like what seemed to be lust and love?
I couldn't tell.
"Dammit Hazel, you're fucking beautiful." He said as he buried his head in the valley of my breasts and I couldn't help but let out a loud moan as I ran my hands through his hair that I was very much in love with.
Just as he put his hands inside my sweats, something snapped and I stopped him.
"Jason! Jason! We–we can't." I said with every ounce of energy I had in me because I was sure my eyes said something entirely different.
"Right, I'm sorry. You're probably still mad at me and all that." He said as he ran his hands through his hair."
"No, its not that." I said quickly.
"Then what's wrong?" He asked with a concerned stare.
"I've never done it before." I said and looked everywhere but at him.
"Of course Hazel we haven't." He said with a confused look.
"I don't mean with you, I mean with anyone." I said with a low voice.
"You're a virgin?!" He asked with a loud voice and I shook with fear.
"Holy shit! I didn't mean to do that, I'm sorry I just didn't expect it and to think I almost had sex with you." He said running his hands through his hair and I couldn't help the sad look that came over my face so I got down from his lap and grabbed my top to put it back on.
I should have known he would want nothing to do with me. He was probably already used to sleeping with people who were experienced unlike me.
He soon got the hint when he saw my face fall and his eyes just widened.
"Oh fuck! Hazel I don't mean—shit! Look I don't mean I don't want to have sex with you because I sure as hell do, I mean who wouldn't? With you body like that of a goddess. I just meant that I was embarrassed because I almost had sex with you like that." He said and grabbed my hand to pull me back on his laps.
"I don't want your first time to be like that, I want it to be special and hopefully with me." He said more like a question as he caressed my cheek and all I could do was nod.
"Great! Now don't ever think I'm not crazy about you. I've been crazy about you since the first day I met you and you have to idea how hard it's been to not be able to have you for the past five months. You have no idea of how many cold showers I've taken all because of you." He said with a serious stare and I couldn't help the laugh that escaped from my lips.
"Laugh all you want but I'm serious babe. It's been hell." He said and my heart melted when he said babe.
I missed him calling me that.
"I won't have you tonight but that doesn't mean I won't have you eventually." He said in a low tone as he placed a light kiss on my lips and gently moved me to the bed.
"Where are you going?" I asked with a childish pout when he got up.
"To take another cold shower." He said and I burst out laughing.
I knew we had a lot to talk about but I just needed a little while to be happy especially now that I just lost my dad.
I was also scared that I was falling harder for Jason and for the safety of my heart, I prayed he felt the same way.
He got back soon enough and we got under the blanket and picked a movie on Netflix to watch.
His arms were wrapped around my waist and mine on his chest and I could feel his heart beat which was music to my ears.
I don't know when I slept off but the last thing I remembered was the feel of a kiss on my lips and a distant voice saying 'I love you' but this time, I know who it belonged to.
This is a really shitty chapter and I'm sorry.
I just knew I had to update soon especially after promising you guys that I would.
I hope you like it.
On the brighter side,
THEY FINALLY KISSED!!!💃💃💃
31 chapters after and they did it.
I'm not a very nice person am I? 😂
Okay! Bye for now!
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