Sorry! Alam ko it takes time para matapos ang story na 'to but a year ago, I decided to stop writing. Hindi ko po alam, nawala ang drive. Naisip ko baka hindi talaga para sa akin. I've so many pending stories yet most weren't finish. Sabi ko dati, writing is a passion. I mean MY PASSION. But the more I wanna finish the story, it only pressures me to the point that it became a stressor. Ang dami kong pangarap noon, at the age of ganito dapat may libro na ako. At the age of ganito, dapat nagbu-booksigning na ako. Ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko. And that's actually my dream maybe 15years ago. :(
Sabi nila, takes time. May sariling timeline, kung para sa iyo ibibigay. But what if it's not really for me? :(
Ang hirap po talaga. Ayaw ko ma-disappoint but disappointment always come and napakadalang mag-go.
I don't know, I really love the character of my stories. They somehow relieved me but I can say, not yet enough. I really wanna hug them, be friends with the character of my stories but I can't give justice to them. I was so unfair. :(
I never imagine myself giving up writing, but what should I do? Naging cycle na. Lagi ako napipigilan.
I'm sorry, kung sinasabi ko man ito. Hindi ko kasi talaga alam kung tama ba 'tong nararamdaman ko.
I know, I'm not the only one that feel it this way. But knowing that fact, I don't think it's worth believing now.
Wahh! I sounds so nega na. Kaso wala eh, naiiyak ako. Sobra. :(
Please pray for me. That's the only thing I wanna ask from you. This time, ako naman po ang lalapit sa inyo para ipanalangin ako. :(
God bless and thanks in advance!
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May 28, 2019 noong nasulat ko 'to. Nevermind the kadramahan at pagiging trying hard sa pag-construct ng sentence. HAHAHA!