"Turn your tests in" Our professor announced.
I stood up with everybody else and walked down.
When I got back to my seat, Corbin's friend Jahir was waiting for me.
That was the one that I studied with.
"Oh, hi" I packed up my things.
"Thank you so much. I know I aced that shit just now"
"Really? Glad to head." I swung my backpack onto my shoulder.
"Can we get started on the next chapter?"
I looked him in his face, and he had a pleading look on it.
"You can just follow me to my house and we can work then. I'll feed you, and I know that you don't like other people around so it's just us."
"I really shouldn't"
"We can hang out too, if you want. I never seen you hang around nobody."
"Is that an in-"
"No, it's not" He handed me a piece of paper with his address on it. "It would just be cool if you came over, Alicia."
He walked away and I stood there for a second.
Corbin was away for a couple days on a mental health retreat thing with his parents.
For once, I was alone and I was contemplating actually spending time with somebody.
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I looked over Jahir's work. "You basically got it. Except for number twenty two. You worked out the problem right, but circled the wrong thing."
"A real careless mistake on my end, huh?" He went back and corrected himself.
I yawned and he cleared his throat.
"Can we take a break now?" He asked and left the room.
When he came back, he had water bottles and candy.
I accepted a twizzler from him.
"Jahir, could you not tell anyone about this? Like anyone at all?"
"No problem"
He stretched behind me, and I sat up, watching an older version of Scooby Doo.
"Y'know, I'm glad that we caught you at Corbin's house" Jahir said.
I turned to face him, sort of alarmed. "Why?"
"Cause I finally was able to come up with a reason to talk to you"
"It's getting late" I checked my watch.
"I just thought that you were cute that's all. I like how you keep to yourself. You don't get mixed up with bullshit."
He got up and laughed to himself.
"What?" I asked, getting defensive.
"I just uh-...realized that I don't want you to go"
I got off the bed and started packing my things.
I had extended my stay.
I was now also fully aware of my body's reaction to his words.
Thoughts of Corbin clouded my thoughts again.
"Goodbye, Jahir. Have a nice night."
"Are you scared of me?" He grabbed my wrist and gently pulled me forward by it.
"I'm scared of the consequences"
He dipped his head into my neck and started to suck on it. "I'm nobody to be scared of."
Jahir kissed all the way up to my jaw and sucked there too.
I let out a needy moan and tried to pull away. "You can't h-have me"
He backed us up onto the bed and moved to lightly kissing on my lips.
There was a full on war going on in my head.
I was caught between what Corbin wanted and what I wanted.
"It's hard to fight it?" He asked, knowingly.
I nodded and whined when I felt his dick pressing against me.
"Sorry, Alicia. I just want to kiss you, but you kinda got me excited like that." He moved his torso back and sat up.
I'm glad that at least one of us had some self control.
"I gotta go" I squeaked and grabbed my things.
I was out the door before he could escort me.
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I'm really in a fucked up situation.
I realized that when I was debating on why I should give in to my own wants.
Whether I liked it or not, I was trapped with Corbin.
Our break-up didn't mean shit to him.
He still wanted me and had to have me.
It was my own fault too though. I led him on sometimes, and I gave in easy.
I didn't like him when he got aggressive , and he seriously hurt without me.
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