Michael
After school my brother convinced me to follow them to the Novak's. Apparently, Luci needs cheering up, I don't know why they would send me though, the guy he hates. My brothers aren't exactly the smartest people in the world. They didn't even tell me why he needs cheering up. Now i'm forced to spend my friday evening with an emotional satan.
I don't know what I was expecting to see when i entered Luci's room. Emotional could mean many things, angry, sad, frustrated, anxious, a mix of all them. Me and Luci hating eachother and all, we are used to seeing eachother pissed and annoyed. None of us would voluntarily show ourselves in front of the other in a "weak" state.
So when i walked into his room, seeing him curled up in blankets and staring into nothing, was a little shocked.
So thats why i'm now sitting in Luci's bed and handing him a bowl of ice cream.
"So my brothers told you I need cheering up, huh?" Lucifer mutters. His voice is raspy.
"Yeah, don't know why they thought sending me would be a good idea." I answer. "It's cause they are starting to wonder why we hate eachother when we used to be friends. The curious little fuckers." Lucifer grumbled and poked on his ice cream with his spoon. "Why did you even come here Micha, you didnt have to do what our idiot brothers tell you to do." I sigh. "I'm not sure. Just trying to not be a douche" Lucifer snorts. "A little too late for that isn't it?" He looks at me. Straight in the eyes. Like he is trying to look in to my soul or something, he probably is. I look away from his burning eyes.
"You should eat your ice cream before it melts." I can sense him glaring at me. "I never asked you to get me ice cream." He mumbles. "No, but you should eat something cause you look like shit." He frowns and eats a spoon of ice cream. He scrunches his face up. "What? I got you vanilla, thought that was your favourite?" He drops his spoon. "It is. Just don't have the biggest appetite at the moment." He mutters. "Just eat it anyway Luce." He continues to poke around with his spoon in the ice cream. "So are you just going to sit ther and stare at me?" He asks before sucking on his spoon. "Uh... I guess."
"I barely saw you at school this week." I point out.
"I only went to a few classes." Lucifer murmured.
"Is something wrong?" I ask, trying to sound like I don't care that much. But I do.
"Don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know?"
"Well I don't know. It's notlike anything bad happend or anything. but then i have been home for almost the entire week. Does that count as something wrong?" He snaps. He puts a cigarette between his lips and light it.
"Do you have to smoke right now?"
"Yes I do Micha."
I roll my eyes.
"So are you going to tell me why you haven't been in school?"
"Eh. Why should I? It's not like you care."
"Maybe i don't, But yourbrothers do and they are worried about you or somethings."
Lucifer sighs and stays quiet. For me, its an awkward silence, but luci doesn't seem to notice or care. He lightsanother cigarette and takes a drag.
"Just didn't feel like going to school. Ran out of motivation I guess. Can't bring myself to go."
I can hear him choke up a little when he said the last part.
"It will be easier if you just go to school. It's not hard. Just do it."
He looks at me with disbelief and frowns.
"You don't know shit, Michael." He spits.
"Why are you such an asshole all the time Luce? I'm so tired off your shitty attitude! I raise my voice. He seems to sink further into his bed.
He looks at me with that "I'm going to kill you slowly." look again.
"Atleast I didn't call my best friend slut." He states firmly.
I tense up.
"You know... I trusted you Michael. I never thought you would do that to me. I trusted you more then I trusted anyone else. I guess I shouldn't have." He chokes out.
I don't know what to answer to that.
"Stop blaming the end of our friendship only on me. It was your fault too." Honestly? it was entirely my fault. He scoffs.
"You're such a fucking douche Michael! I'm glad you're not in my life anymore!" He almost yells.
I get up from his bed in a haste. "Oh Yeah? WELL I'M GLAD I'M NOT FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE AS DISGUSTING AS YOU!" I yell. I regret it in an instant, but at the same time I don't. He's such a douche, he deserves everything I said.
"Get out." Luci whispers. His lip quivers and he folds his hands in his lap.
"I said get out." he spits.
So I did.
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Lucifer
When the door finally closed and Michael was out of my room I broke down. I can't stop the tears from running down my cheeks and I hate it. I want it to stop, I hate crying. My hands wouldn't stop shaking. I wanted to yell at them to be still, but I don't want anyone to question my sanity. You lost your sanity a long time ago.
I thought that maybe, maybe Michael changed. But obviously he hasn't. My room feels way to small and I dont want to stay in here. But I definelty don't want to go outside. It's bright outside. I want it to be dark. So I covered my window with my curtain and shut my lights off. I layed down under my blankets.
Ofcourse, someone had to knock on my door. And then they walked in. I didn't bother to turn around at look though. "Hey Luce, are you going to okay?" Cas murmured. "I'll be fine, ijust wanna be alone." I mutter. "Okay, just tell me if you want to talk, I love you, you know?"
"Love you too Cas." I hear the door close. I will probably go for a walk tonight. I will have to get myself together by monday. Yeah get yourself together slut. I cant let Michael effect me this much, I have already had a shitty week. But he's right, You're disgusting. I will just have to fake it until i make it like always, then i will feel better. Hopefully.
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When everyone was asleep I snuck out of the house. I'm currently walking down some empty park. There is some bars a few streets away. I might go there.
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"Do you want to come with me to my apartment?" The guy with green eyes asked. "Sure handsome." I slur and slide of the bar stool. He guides me out of the bar.
Apparently, he was sober enough to drive, so we took his car. "So why were you at the bar in the middle of the night?" The guy asked. I dont remember his name, Alex or something. "I was looking for hot guys like you." Red and yelow lights flashed by outside. He chuckles and puts one of his warm hands on my thigh. "So can I have your number or is this a one time thing babe?" The guy purrs. "You will just have to wait and see."
29th of september
Luci
I walk into the kitchen. My brothers and sadly the winchesters are sitting there having brunch together. "Why did you come home so early this morning Luci? where were you!?" Cas asks. He's not actually worried about you, why would anyone worry about you? "Just slept with some dude." If Michael think i'm a slut, then i'll be a slut. "seriously? Who?" Gabriel frowns. "Some guy I met at a bar." I opened the refrigerator and took the milk. "Dude? w-what if he was some kind of, some kind of freak? What would you do then?" Gabriel stutters out. I shrug and sit down with my cereal. "Seriously Luci? Grow up, That could have gone really bad, you shouldn't go home with strangers." Michael chimes in. I laugh loudly. They all just stare at me like I'm crazy. "Are you serious?" I say when I have finally calmed down. He just stares at me. "Go fuck yourself Michael." After that nobody said anything. It's a pretty awkward silence. But I don't care. Awkward silences doesn't scare me. When I'm done I just leave my dishes in the sink and wander up the stairs. I can hear them talking in hushed voices behind me.
I closed my door and flopped down on my bed. You're worthless, you're such a slut. I put a pillow over myhead. "Go away."
I'm not going anywhere