MARCO
'Marco, do you really want to be involved with someone like that?' Maliya said quietly whilst we both looked through the glass window at Keira asleep. She was under some type of anesthetic to help her, since what she'd overdosed on was really strong.
'She lied and said she was recovering... then she goes and overdoses-'
'MALIYA SHUT THE FUCK UP! YOU AREN'T HELPING! THAT'S MY FRIEND LYING THERE MAN!' I shouted and she jumped, I sat down and sighed resting my head in my hands.
'But Marco, you have feelings for her.'
'Yes, she's my friend I'm supposed to care.'
'Not those kind of feelings, you like her don't you?' No... they were just friendly feelings. A friend that I'd kissed and wanted more and more each day, Keira just didn't see it that way. It literally killed me inside when I saw her with Ricardo, but what could I do? She didn't feel the same way I did so I had to stick to being friends. Although I couldn't take Ricardo, I was sure he'd slip up one day and I wanted to be there for Keira when he did. Maliya sat down next to me and rested her hand on mine.
'Marco, fight for her.' I looked at her with my eyebrow raised.
'But why? She doesn't feel the same.'
'Well if that kiss meant something to you, it might of to her. Wait till she gets better yeah?' I shrugged.
'I don't know if she ever will.'
'Well she is a bit of a crazy bitch, she suffers with manic depression you know Marco. Manic is maniac, she's insane.' I screwed her, what the fuck was wrong with this girl?
'What's your problem Maliya? Have some respect. That's like the most childish thing you've said all day. I'm not in the mood.' I said and she looked away from me as if she knew she was in the wong, yes she was. She's too rude, I wanted to slap her up but I really didn't have any energy. If Ricardo was such a good boyfriend where was he now? She needed him and he wasn't there like I was. I just didn't understand Keira; but I'd have to deal with it. I stayed at the hospital for a while longer and then Maliya and I walked back to the car park. We got in and I started driving in silence, normally I'd have my music blaring but I wasn't in the mood. How could I be happy when Keira was in such a bad state, I wished I could do something more to help her. Something more to help her recover and get better but it seemed no matter how hard I tried or anyone did; she'd always be ill.
I parked up outside the house and locked the car. I closed the front door behind us and kicked my crepz off, mum walked out of the kitchen smiling and then her face changed once she saw my expression.
"Marc? What's happened?" I kissed my teeth and walked up the stairs. I slammed my room door shut and just laid down on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling. I didn't know what to do, whether I should go out or just stay here. A knock on my door made me look away from the ceiling and then Maliya walked in and sat on the edge of my bed.
"Marc, cheer up. Mum was trying to ask what was wrong-"
"I don't fucking care. Now of ALL times she wants to attempt to speak to me? Nah, fuck it." I said and she sighed.
"If it's Keira, she'll be out before you know it and-"
"Nah she won't be! They're thinking of putting her in a psychiatric ward until she starts responding to treatment, that rehab didn't do shit for her." Maliya nodded and flicked her hair, it was like she didn't care and Keira was supposed to be her friend. Lately, I'd been noticing her bookey movements anyway so I shouldn't be surprised.
"Oh well thats a shame, why don't you just move-"
"Just get out. You're really starting to piss me off." She screwed me and walked out of the room. I really couldn't be bothered to get out and go anywhere because I wasn't in the mood. I just wanted Keira to get better but it didn't seem like that was happening.
MALIYA
I couldn't let Ricardo be with someone like that; she was too much trouble for him. He needed me, I was sure to stick by him, unlike Keira. Marco couldn't handle the truth about Keira, she wasn't well and she never would be yet he still loved her off; why ? I'm not sure. I changed into a skirt and white top and put my white plimsolls on as I was walking out and shouted bye. I got on the bus and then got off once my stop came, I walked up to his door and knocked. He opened and raised his eyebrow, I eased past him into the house and he closed the door.
"Maliya... what are you doing here?" He asked and I smiled.
"Just came to see how you were, I mean your girlfriend is in hospital so I felt bad for you." He nodded and walked into his front room, it wasn't helping things that he was walking around with no top on but I guess most boys did. I sat next to him on the sofa and he flicked through the channels.
"Cheer up Ricardo, you look dead."
"I feel it inside, she could of died. That's how bad the overdose was." I sighed, I was tired of hearing the same things over and over. If she did die, then I would have felt guilty for what I did but she isn't dead just like I wanted. I wanted them to realise how much of an unstable person she was. She couldn't make big decisions for herself because she was seen as crazy. I can't lie she was really pretty though, so I could see why she got Ricardo.
"Think of it this way, she isn't dead and as soon as she comes out of hospital you can have her back."
"Mm... I don't know. She might have to stay there for a very long time." I shrugged.
"If you loved her, you would wait for her."
"But how much more longer am I supposed to wait."
"Well that is sort of what you get when you go out with an insane person." I said and he started screwing.
"Wait, no sorry I didn't mean it like that Ricardo!" He
I moved closer to him and rested my hand on his leg, I flicked my hair out of my face and looked at him. He looked at me weirdly as I got closer and whispered in his ear.
'I could be so much better for you than her... trust me.' I whispered and he kissed his teeth and stood up walking towards the door. I suppose he was too inlove with Keira to even focus on anyone else but why her? She was pretty I must admit but she was completely fucked up. She wasn't sane and she couldn't think for herself properly, Marco could do a better job protecting her than Ricardo could.
"Get out Maliya." He said sternly, still glaring at me and I stood up pulling down my skirt and walked over to him.
"Ricardo, I'm-"
"Get the fuck out of my house." He looked like he wanted to punch me so I quickly left and walked. That didn't go as planned at all, I didn't realise how much of a short fuse he had. I saw three boys on bikes at the end of the road and I smiled once I recognised one of them, he winked at me and rode towards me.
"You alright babes?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yeah I'm all good, how comes you haven't called me?" He looked around and shrugged.
"Stuff to do, I'll definately be calling you later though."
"Oh so now you wanna call?"
"Yeahh, I need you init."
"If it's just for-"
"Nah, not even just sex. I've gotta go though I'll holla at you later Maliya."
"Yeah bye Luke!" He winked and then rode off again, I smiled to myself and carried on walking to Rebecca's. I knocked on her door and she answered and rolled her eyes.
"Wow, do I dampen your mood that much?" She shook her head and closed the door behind me.
"Nope, I was just expecting someone." I nodded and took my shoes off, we went up to her room and she went on her laptop.
"What did you want me for?" She asked and I shrugged sitting on her bed.
"I'm stuck with what to do. I know Luke is just using me for-"
"Beats. He already knocked up some chick called Sarah you know." My mouth dropped, he failed to tell me that. Yet he wants something else :/
"Eurgh, forget him."
"Maliya, you're the one going round like a sket. How many people have you slept with? Honestly?" I shrugged and she shook her head.
"You bess pray you don't get HIV, Aids or none of that shit. Watch when you get pregnant, or if people tell Marco!"
"No-one will tell him!" She looked at me and rolled her eyes again. If Marco did find out, he would beat the living shit out of me but that wasn't going to happen... hopefully.
"You have stopped with the drugs right?" I nodded but made sure I wasn't looking at her, it was a lie. Having an addiction to drugs was almost impossible to break; I needed them to function and I needed them to feel normal again. Since I'd already gotten my drugs off Luke since I'd been out of rehab I was coping.
"MALIYA! YOU'RE LYING!" I looked at her apologetically and she kissed her teeth.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN GETTING THEM?" She asked, I chewed on my lip. I didn't really want to tell her because I was afraid of what she would do. I played with my fingers and she punched me in my arm.
"MALIYA I'M TALKING TO-"
"Luke. I had to pay him for the drugs." She raised her eyebrow.
"How much money?"
"It wasn't with money..." She looked at me in disgust and walked towards her bedroom door, she opened it and pointed outside.
"Get out Maliya and don't come back." My eyes grew wide, why was she kicking me out?! She was the only person I had.
"You're the only person I have!"
"I don't fucking care! You're a disgusting person. You had sex for DRUGS? DRUGS! You need help and I'm not going to have you drag me down, I'm still trying to recover myself-"
"WELL YOU'RE FORGETTING WHO GOT ME INTO THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE!" I shouted and she shrugged.
"I've moved on. You need to grow up and start looking after yourself because one of these days someone is going to take advantage of you."
"No-one will-"
"You don't know that Maliya. Just leave and don't come back." She said and I stood up and went back downstairs. I put my shoes on and got the bus back home. I'd never felt so rejected and alone, I could feel my phone vibrating in my pocket and once I took it out I saw Luke's name. I busied the call and got off the bus and started walking back home, my phone beeped again and I had a new message.
I'm really sorry Maliya
-Luke x
I frowned, sorry for what? I unlocked the door and the house was silent for once. I put my keys down and went upstairs, I knocked on Marco's door. I opened it to see him sitting on the edge of his bed glaring at the wall with his jaw clenched and tapping his phone against his knee.
"Marc? What's happened?" I asked looking at him, he suddenly looked up and dashed his phone at me. I jumped in shock and he stood up.
"WHAT HAVE I DONE?!" I shouted and he slowly shook his head at me.
"I can't believe you..." He said and walked closer to me.
"I don't understand what I've-"
"YOU'RE STILL TAKING DRUGS! YOU'RE FUCKING RANDOM BOYS TO GET YOUR DRUGS!" I swallowed hard and I swear, I'd started sweating. He looked like he was about to punch me and he punched the wall right beside my head. I screamed and he slapped me with the back of his hand.
"HOW COULD YOU DO THAT MALIYA?! I KNOW KEIRA DIDN'T OVERDOSE LUKE TOLD ME WHAT YOU DID!" My face dropped.
"No, no Marco I honestly didn't mean to-"
"DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU'VE DONE!? SHE COULD OF DIED BECAUSE OF YOU!" A tear ran down my cheek and I looked towards the floor with my cheek still stinging. I was starting to feel guilty and Marco dragged me out of his room slamming the door shut in my face. I sunk down against it and rested my head on my knees, I'd done the wrong thing and I regretted it but there wasn't anything I could do.
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