Dave-
I looked over at Bianca as she kept stabbing her food with her fork but not eating anything.
Right now we're at my house eating on my couch. Well I finished my food of course she's not going to eat.
"I'll take it." I said to her and she looked up handing it to me.
I sat it on the table and she just looked at me quietly.
"You not hot with that big ass hoodie on?" I asked her.
She shook her head. "I only have a bra on underneath so I'm good." She said.
"What's wrong why you need them pills?" I asked straight up.
"I can't sleep I can't eat I can barely function it's killing me." She said breaking down immediately.
I pulled her into me and she buried her face in my chest crying.
I rubbed her back comforting her.
"It's okay B. I got you through this." I told her.
"You gotta stop with the pills though. Unless you're really in pain then I will give you some but that's your only option you're not in control of them anymore." I told her.
"What if I can't sleep?" She asked.
"We're finding you a therapist." I told her and she sat up looking at me.
"Dave I like to think you know me better than anyone. So you should know I'm not going to no therapist." She told me.
"Bianca do you ever want to get back to who you were before all of this?" I asked her and she stood up.
"I came to the conclusion that this is just who I am now all the shit I went through molded me into who I am right now and I'm content with that." She said dryly.
"I'm only 18 D can you believe that shit? I need to just leave everything alone and focus on myself and my family that's it. I can't continue dwelling in everything negative I've caused I need to learn from my mistakes. I'm so lost you have no idea." She said mumbling the last part.
I watched her pace the room quietly.
She reached up to put her hair in a bun and I saw bruises on her back and wrists.
I looked at her sideways and she looked confused.
"What?" She asked.
"You still got bruises?" I asked pointing at her arms and she looked scared moving fast putting her arms back down.
"Oh um yeah they're still going away." She shrugged.
I just looked over her and nodded.
I texted Eli to let him know.
(Texting myself is easier than writing it out so this how the text convos going to be now. If y'all don't like it let me know I'll go back to typing it out.)
"How'd your convo with Rock go?" I asked her.
She looked down playing with her fingers then rubbing her arm which was clearly hurting.
"Oh yeah the whole thing was a misunderstanding. We are good now." She shrugged.
I knew she was lying but I have no place in her relationship to comment on it at all so I kept my mouth shut on that.
"But did you tell him about us kissing?" I asked her.
" No I decided to just let it go." She said.
"Why?"
"I mean I didn't want to bring it up while trying to bring whether he cheated or not up too." She answered.
"So did he?" I asked her so I knew what my next move would be.
"No. I was wrong but we talked about it and we are good now." She said.
The fact that I know she's lying is making me even madder.
"Bianca?" I asked as she kept pacing back and forth making me nervous.
"I really need to get home before Rock gets back because I said I was making dinner for him." She said nervously.
"Why are you so fidgety and nervous what's up?"
"I'm not I just need to get back home." She said.
"I'm about to go grab one of my keys from upstairs so you won't have to drive me." She said taking off upstairs as fast as she could with her bum leg.
I looked after her and decided to get up because I know something is going on she's not telling me.
I just remembered I do have a couple cameras in her house but I don't think I should invade her privacy like that I rather her just come it and tell me what's going on.
I walked upstairs to my room and found her searching through the drawers she has in here and walked up behind her hold her waist.
"David you scared me." She said holding her chest and turning towards me.
I quickly unzipped her big ass hoodie she thought was hiding something and she hurried trying to cover her body.
I moved her arms out the way and snatched her hoodie off.
As soon as I saw all her bruises I threw her hoodie into my speaker that was standing up knocking it over.
"You let that nigga put his hands on you?" I said as I couldn't control the tears that came down my face looking at the person I love in front me she had bruises everywhere.
"David-." She started but I cut her off.
"No I don't want any excuses right now don't tell me you fell or you still have your old bruises. These are fucking new and that nigga cheated and got mad when you wanted to leave so he beat your ass thinking you'd stay and you fucking did!" I yelled.
She reached up wiping my tears off my face and bare chest.
"I had to." She said crying looking into my eyes.
"You had to? Why the fuck you think that? I was a phone call away, Boogie a phone call away, Eli, Don would've answered even fucking Cameron would've answered and instead of calling one of us you saying you had to stay?" I said in disbelief.
"He said he would kill y'all and I never saw him like him that D I never seen the look in his eyes in anybodies eyes ever in my life. If I would've called y'all that night who knows what would've happened? It's my job to protect my family." She said.
I looked at her and felt the pain she had in her eyes.
"You know we would've handled it Why you ain't call us?" I asked her.
"Listen D I know everybody is tired of me fucking up my own life. Most of what has happened was my fault I just didn't want to give y'all another reason to think I failed again..." she cried into my chest as I held her.
"I haven't done anything to make any of y'all proud I know my momma shaking her head at all the fucked up decisions I've made, my own brother damn near disowned me long ago. And I feel like my son is disappointed in me even though he's not here. Everything everybody ever said to or about me was right. Everything Don said was true everything Ella and Jayla told me was true... I just failed at everything when all I've ever wanted to do was make my brothers both proud of me and I'm never going to do that." She said as I wrapped my arms around her.
"We all make mistakes in life B. You know I have my fair share of fuck ups everybody in this family had fucked up multiple times so don't ever feel like your a failure out of all of us if anything we all are. All of us came up doing shit we had no business. Everybody but Ella got blood on they hands. Everybody done shit they not proud of so nobody have room to judge anybody else." I told her.
"I just want my brother to love me again... that's all I've wanted since I was 13. Everybody knows that." She cried.
I sighed and just comforted her.
So if y'all wondering none of us know why Don is the way he is towards Bianca. They used to be close just like her and Artist but one day he just snapped on her when he had came in late night and she was up worried about him with Artist ever since then he just treated her like the step child or some shit. None of us really understand why. We like to just say it's him being a protective big brother but y'all haven't seen the shit he's really said and done to her it's like she's a random on the street he treat Ashley and Ella better than her and none of us understand his hatred towards her it came out of no where one day and ever since it's been like this.
"Don loves you you know how he is." I told her trying to make her feel better.
"No he doesn't. You know how many times he has said he hates me wishes I was never born and all that. I can understand how hard he had been on me lately but what about when I was just up waiting on him to come through the door because I thought he was dead? I was fucking 13 D! 13! That was long before any of this other shit went on. Or what about when he literally threw me out the fucking house down the fucking stairs and threw my shit at me the day before I graduated like I wasn't nothing. I wasn't crying across that stage because I was happy. I was crying because Ashley and I had to graduate alone. None of y'all were there even Artist didn't come. That shit hurt. To be graduating and having my only family not there. Do you have any idea how I fucking feel knowing my own blood hates me somebody I love with everything in me like the rest of y'all and he doesn't care at all?" She cried
"Could you imagine Artist doing me like that?" She continued.
"No not at all." I mumbled kissing her forehead.
"That shit eats me up David. I did things thinking they would make him proud and love me again and it never worked so then I started acting out so he would pay attention to how I was feeling but he just doesn't care about me and I don't know what I did." She shrugged hiccuping as she wiped her tears.
All of us knew her relationship with Don bothered her but I never knew it had been effecting her like this and for this long.
She kept crying so I led us over to my bed so we could lay down.
She climbed up with my help since she still had to be careful on her leg and laid down facing me.
"Imma get that nigga B I promise." I told her.
"D please just don't get involved I got it."
"Look at you Bianca! He tore your ass up you think imma just sit and wait hoping it don't happen again!?" I asked her.
"I don't want nothing happening to y'all! We ain't the only people Rock knows I don't want this blowing up into something more I've had enough!" She said.
"You just killed another nigga I front of me we don't have time for any of y'all getting locked up for hurt! Leave it the fuck alone!" She said seriously.
"No and you not going back to your house you staying here until I catch that nigga." I told her.
"Matter fact call Ashley over here right now B." I nudged her.
"D-."
"I'm deadass callher now." I said getting up to get me a shirt.
"DAVID!" She yelled.
"What?" I asked her.
"You're not listening to me!" She yelled damn near pulling her hair out looking so stressed out.
"I'm sorry go ahead." I told her taking her hands out of her head and holding them.
She sighed deeply. "I need sleep D." She said looking at me so drained m.
"I'm not giving you your pills this soon." I told her.
She shook her head "I know I just need you." She said.
"Not like that D I'm not doing none of that any time soon and I'm not concerned with you niggas right now." She said laughing at my facial expression.
"Man stop laughing what you need me to do?" I asked her.
"Take that shirt off turn the light off turn up the heat turn Netflix on and get in bed with me." She said.
"I know what you trying to do. You want me to sit here with you to avoid finding Rock." I told her.
"David I'm serious I haven't slept in damn near a week I need you to lay down with me please." She pleaded with tears in her eyes.
I sighed deeply going to turn up the heat and take off my sweats leaving me in my boxers.
I walked to my dresser grabbing her a t shirt since I snatched her hoodie off earlier and threw it to her.
I turned the light off and climbed in the bed with her pulling her close once she was done putting it on.
Once we got comfortable I let her turn on whatever she wanted to watch.
After a while she started fidgeting trying to get comfortable.
"What's wrong?" I asked pulling her closer to me.
She just shook her head trying to get comfortable.
"You sure you good?" I asked again.
"My body just hurts." She mumbled throwing her arm over me loosely.
"You want some medicine?" I asked her m.
"No I'll be okay I gotta live without it." She stressed.
I smiled proud that she at least trying to get herself together I'm glad she's not focused on anybody and making sure she's good cause I don't want anything else happening to her.
I pulled her on top of me.
"What are you doing?" She asked.
"This is how you go to sleep easier with me that's all I'm not trying nothing I promise I wouldn't do that to you especially right now." I told her softly rubbing her back to help sooth the pain from whatever that nigga did to her.
She nodded slowly rubbing up and down my sides like she always does which used to tickle my ribs but now I'm used to it. Which let me know she might actually be able to go to sleep finally with no problem.
She slowly stopped which let me know she had finally fell asleep.
I sighed seeing the Eli had texted me.
This nigga really said it looked like he was in there trying to kill her.
I looked down at her face. She was so skinny now she lost all the weight she was getting on her over the summer. Her brown skin some how looked drained and pale. I've never seen her as bad as this but she's still so beautiful I know she going to get through this.
"I love you so much." I mumbled kissing her forehead.
"I love you too." She said sleepily holding on to me tighter.
After a few minutes we were both slumped.