after months of being depressed
I felt a spark of hapiness in my heart
it made me feel warm and fuzzy
your voice call made me feel this way
my heart hated hearing you cry
it hurt
so here I am
walking to the park we were last time
my heart beats faster by second
just imagining you sitting at a bench
our bench
I want to apologise
for ignoring you
for not giving you the chance to explain
I was selfish for only thinking about how it affected me , never once did I think about you
as I turned
I saw you
my feet stopped working
I was paralyzed
glued to the ground
there you were
wearing the brown coat I got you on your birthday
you looked so adorable with glasses
I always told you to wear them more often , my heart felt like it would come out of my chest at any second
I can't do this
I can't face him yet
I just can't
nonononono I am not having a panic attack no stop it
oh
my
god
he is looking at me
his eyes
is he about to cry?
jongin....
taking a deep breath, I moved towards him . He got up from the bench and started walking to me , walking slowly turned into a speed walk and soon running
we hugged eachother ever so tight
god did I miss him
his cologne
his hair
his eyes
his ears
his nose
his hugs
he took my face in between his hands
he smiled at me with teary¿ eyes
he looked deeply into my eyes , and I nodded
he leaned in
I leaned in
his lips are so soft
they taste so sweet
I remembered the momment we had one night
we were in my kitchen drinking
our conversation was about expressing feelings and your thoughts
his words are still deeply engraved in my head and they will never dissapear
'are you kidding me (Y/n) ? girls want a guy to confess with the most lamest way possible ? a text ? really'
'well why not ? my friends say it's perfect because you won't feel so uncomfortable'
'as a guy I believe thats not true. If you want to confess you have to see the person face to face , not by text . You have to be brave and just put it out there , because in reality actions speak louder than words . You should always remember that (Y/n)'
you're right Jongin
actions do speak louder than words
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A/n
wasup!
I'm back after a month or smth
I asure you I will be posting more this month
Sadly this Jongin short came to an end
I really hope you liked it and yes
Lol
Love you all
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡