Niall read all of chapter one in thirty minutes. It wasn’t as bad as I had expected. All it talked about was what we’re getting into basically. The way they put it makes it seems so nice and a walk in the park. But I fucking know that’s not how it actually is. We newbies are supposed to be part of a grand scheme to be slaves for all the kids who have done this before. To them it’s like giving back.
“Harry do you want to see if we can find some lunch. Would you be alright with that?” Niall asks as he gently pokes my back. We we’re laying in the same position, having not moved in an hour. He didn’t seem to mind one bit that I cried through his whole reading. He would stop here and there and offer encouraging words, it seemed to help a bit.
I shrug my shoulders, “Whatever you want.”
“Well right now I’m hungry and I want food. But I don’t want to leave you here alone.” He seems sincere, like he actually cares for my health. Is this what friends are supposed to do? Or does he have like a crush on me or something? No, no, we’re just friends.
“Okay yeah, I could eat. We did skip breakfast.” I shift out from under his arm and stood up from the bed. I grabbed the top rail for support as I tried to steady myself. Ugh fuck I hate when I stand up too fast. Niall stood up from the bed as well and he tossed his textbook on top of his bed.
“Where are the other two?” I ask, noticing they haven’t arrived yet.
“Liam told me that those guys’ Dominants likes to have them by their side 24/7. Obsessive right?”
Yeah that is pretty weird. I hope Louis’ not like that. In fact I swear to god if he is I’m not going to have it. I don’t care what I have to do he will not take control of my life.
“So you like that Liam guy?” it bugs me how much Niall seems at ease once he met Liam. Before then he looked like a deer caught in the headlights. We shouldn’t even be here. At this stupid school with no reception. How am I supposed to call my mum and sister? Let them know I’m fucking alive.
“Yeah he’s great. He also has this other guy, he said his name was Zayn I think, anyways that guy is like his other submissive. But he said that he would be sorta part-time Dom to me.”
“Niall. Mate you were so scared this morning. What happened?” I lean against the bedpost. And watch as Niall pulls a sweater from his suitcase. When he turns back around to face me he shrugs.
“I don’t know. Liam kinda just helped I guess. He said he’s not making me do anything until I’m fully ready. So I don’t have to worry about pressure.”
“Yeah but what about the fact he’s a guy. Like… does that mean that he would be putting his dick up your ass?” this school really is being dumb for practically forcing kids to be gay. It’s a good thing I put that in the contract. Louis, nor anyone else, will touch me in that way. I always have control. Always.
“Probably. It’s a good thing I’m a bottom then yeah?” he laughs.
“What?”
“Good thing I’m used to it.” He eyes me up and down, losing the smile on his face. “You’re not homophobic are you?”
“No, ‘course not. Whatever you want to do with your sex life is up to you. I just- I didn’t really expect that. Sorry.” Why did I just apologize? I have nothing to be sorry for.
“Ah don’t worry mate! Got through all of high school with people thinking I was the most available player around. I guess it could be perceived as my fault, I never really told them otherwise.”
I laugh awkwardly to fill the silence in the room. “So uh. Food?”
“Yeah cool! I thought I saw the caf around the school building. Well, more like I smelt the food.” He laughs. I follow him out of the housing building and follow him down the path to our right. I tried to keep my eyes on the ground, not wanting to look at all the poor guys who are kneeling before others. It makes me sick to think people would actually treat other human beings as dogs. I quite literally saw one crawling on all fours being led by a man holding a leash that was attached to his collar.
Niall holds the door open for me as I walk into the cafeteria. It’s pretty basic. There’s rows upon rows of tables and there’s a huge lunch serving line.
“Ugh yes!” Niall groans from beside me. He takes an over exaggerated whiff of the sweet smelling cafeteria. It smells like a barbeque. Hamburgers, hotdog, sausages. Thank god. I could go from some good food right about now.
Niall and I get in the short line and put our orders in. We each got two hamburgers, I guess that’s what happens when you skip breakfast.
I followed Niall to the end of a table and we both immediately go for the food. Ugh I didn’t realize how hungry I was. I think Niall might’ve been hungrier because he’s onto his second burger when I barely reached half my first.
While chewing my food I look around the caf to notice there are other pair similar to Niall and I’s. Secluded to two or three people. I don’t see anything that could resemble a hierarchy matter. Everyone here seems to be classified as equal. I’ll have to ask around or something. Not that I’m complaining!
“So what about you Harry? You like Louis?” he wipes his fingers on a napkin he pulled from the dispenser.
“Ugh.” I lean forward and rest my head in my hands. “He’s not bad, I mean there’s worse. But I just hate this whole idea. In my contract I made sure there was no sex involved. There is no way I’m having another man’s dick up my ass.”
“Sorry.” I added as an afterthought when I realized I could’ve possibly just offended him. “You know what I mean right?”
“I think. So you like to be in control?”
I raise my head to give him a ya think look. Just the thought of not being control of what’s happening to me makes me scared. I’ve always been a kid who had to have everything run by me. Pettish? Maybe. But even things like what we had for dinner I had to know beforehand.
“This could be good maybe. You’ll kinda be forced to give some control over to that guy, maybe it would relieve some stress or whatever. Harry it could help you know.”
“Is that the crap Liam fed to you?” I hadn’t meant for it be harsh, it just sorta came out that way.
“Yes Harry. That is what he told me. But I do think it can benefit you. You just have to be willing to try.”
“No!” I almost yell. He seems taken aback so I soften my voice. “Niall, no.”
“Okay. Okay. Let’s just talk about something else yeah? You watch any footie?”
“Um, no. Not a lot anymore.” That was Andy’s thing.
“What!?” he exclaims.
And so that’s how we wound up spending the rest of the night. Him jabbering on about his favorite team making it all the way this year. And how they’ve got the championship locked away. I humor him and agree with whatever he hell he’s talking about. I could care less which team is better than who.
This kid didn’t have an off button because by the time four o’clock rolled by he was on about his high school team’s quarter finals match where he said they lost miserably when Niall was out with a knee surgery. If Niall thinks he’s all that and a cup of tea I would’ve loved to see him and Andrew in a one-on-one match. Andy was the star player on almost every team he was on, he had so many scholarships for athletics to a shit load of schools, all he had to do was say where. My sister Gemma got the brains of the family. Valedictorian in her graduating year, was first in every class. She too had her pick of whatever university she wants.
Then there was me. Barely scraped by in all my classes, no coordination. In fact, it was a big joke around my family that my mum only had to pay for one of her kid’s schooling. I guess it was true, but sometimes the truth hurts. A lot. I never said anything. If all I could do was make them smile, then a dumb screw up I’d be.
It was pretty tough to follow in my siblings footsteps.
“Oh a Styles. Your sister was one of my best students.”
“Andy’s little brother? You comin’ out for tryouts today?”
It was tough. But once my reputation got around and the only thing I was known for was how good I could shag girls, I guess you could say most of the staff lost hope.
“Hello? Harry are you even listening?” Niall snapped his fingers in front of my face, bringing me back.
“Yeah, yeah.” I agree, nodding my head.
He gives me a disbelieving look before he says “Okay well, we can’t be late for class tomorrow. You wanna grab another burger or something then head back?”
We grab ourselves another burger each for our dinner I guess then we throw out our empty plates and make our way back into the housing building. My phone reads 5:05 so I really don’t know what we’ll do for the rest of the night. We eat in silence walking the short distance back to the cabin.
Niall and I ended up playing a game called ‘flow’ he showed me on his phone when we got back to our room. We sat on my bed comparing and playing games until around nine o’clock when the other two boys returned to the room. They didn’t say a word but went right to their own beds and it looks like they fell asleep. Without much of an option Niall and I decided to go to sleep too. He wanted to stay down in my bed and so he did. We snuggled up like we were before, my head resting on his chest with his arm draped across my back.
I hope he realizes this doesn’t mean I’m attracted to him. I hope he’s not attracted to me because sorry mate, I don’t swing that way. I don’t question it and instead I fall asleep feeling comfortable, and safe for the first time in years.
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