Christianna snuggles up beside me with her bottle in one hand and her favorite blanket in the other, finally falling asleep. "Bae you up?" I roll over with my finger over my mouth telling him to be quiet.
"My bad." He whispers leaning down to give me a kiss. "How was it this morning?" I ask still whispering. "It was cool. I'm glad as hell to be home with my girls."
I smile. He climbs in bed with us wrapping his arm around me and Christianna. "Don't forget my sister having a cookout at 4."
"Cool. I need to get Chrissy up an hour ahead of time to do something to her hair."
"Don't have my baby screaming."
"It's not my fault she hates getting her hair done."
"You heard what I said Asia Evans." I chuckle, "You do her hair then." I say. "You got it, just don't make me fight you."
"Boy please."
At twenty years old I'm the mother of a two year old little girl and I am the girlfriend to Robert Simmons, better known as Rock. My hair company is selling like crack on a Friday night everyday. Most importantly I'm happy. You would think my happiness is what matters the most to those around me and everyone is except my brothers. They're happy but they still have those moments. Ive accepted the fact that they don't want to see me with any man and would prefer if I was 8 years old forever. Things aren't as bad as they were but things have never been the same between us.
Things happened naturally between me and Rock. It wasn't forced, shit just flowed. We've been together for almost three years. He supported me through my entire pregnancy. He made me feel what I was missing. He's with me because of me- nothing more, nothing less. He loves Chrissy as if she were his and he loves me. He doesn't mistreat me. He's never put his hands on me in an abusive manner. He's goofy yet serious. Like my brothers, when he walks into a room people stop and stare. That power of his presence is one of the many things I love about him. This man would go to war about me and doesn't care what anyone else has to say. In my eyes he's perfect.
"You know I'm bout it." He says.
"You would never." I challenge. "Shittt." I roll over facing him as he smiles, "What you want?" He asks.
"You to fight me."
"My baby sleeping beside you, I got you tonight though."
"Whatever Rock."
My relationship with my brothers hasn't got back to what it use to be. It's not not as damaged as it was but it's not perfect either. When they found out about me and Rock, they went crazy. I was still pregnant at the time and shit was still bad between us. They felt like I betrayed them. They felt like I disrespected them. Honestly, I didn't give a fuck about whatever beef they had, with who they had it with. In the beginning, they assumed I only got with Rock to get back at them and that was the furtherest thing on my mind. Thankfully we've all grown a bit since then.
I didn't know about Rock and my brothers issues until he told me. I knew I had heard the name before but I never put two and two together. He was upfront about everything. It was so crazy because the beef with my brothers started over some shit August was doing. He was the one creating all the damn chaos. It's no wonder he left.
A lot of people aren't around anymore like that. Dre never came back after shooting Mon. Tania hasn't been heard from since a couple of months back. Tyler is out the game with a family of his own to support. My brothers are still running shit and that I don't think will ever change.
While things have may started off rocky, all was laid to rest when Christianna was born. They fell in love with her. She loves her Uncle Dom and Mon. She had three of the hardiest niggas on the south side in tears.
She brings so much joy and light to my life. I wasn't sure how well this being a mother thing was going to go. I didn't have a mother around so I wasn't sure how I was going to be one myself. She loves me despite all of that. Her love washes away my doubts and fears and she gives me a sense of purpose. Looking into her eyes I know no matter what happens she'll always be my little sunshine.
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"Chrissy go get your shoes." She smiles running off. I stand in the mirror and add some curls to my hair. I got so caught up in what I was doing I didn't hear Rock come inside the room. "You so beautiful."
"Thank you bae."
"Dom called me he wants us to come over this weekend."
"He ain't call me and tell me nothing."
"He likes me more." I laugh, "Please. Dom tried to kill you."
"Tried. Didn't work. He thought."
"I guess we can go over there. How this look?" I ask turning around. "You look fuckable." I cut my eyes at him, "Robert."
"Ou my government name." I laugh, I can't stand him. "You know you look beautiful. The prettiest woman in the world."
"You better had fixed it." He chuckles as I turn back to the mirror. "This what you do to me." He presses his hard member against my ass. I smirk. "I did that."
"You gone fix it?" He asks whispering in my ear. "I got you later."
"I need something now."
"Aw poor baby. You ain't getting nothing now." I laugh running off into Chrissy room to see what she's doing. "We just needed one pair Chrissy." All her shoes, out of her closet, are everywhere.
She says something to me in Baby talk. The only words she can say perfectly are mama, dada, gram, and uny- for Uncle. "Come here. Let's put these on." She lays down in front of me and lifts her feet up. I get her shoes on and walk back into my room to grab mine. Rock walks out the bathroom tacking me to the bed. "You're so annoying."
"You love it though."
"Just a lil bit. It's 4, we're late. Moveeee."
"Let me lick you from yo head to yo toes."
"Robert stop being freaky and get off me."
"You so cute." I kiss him and then he moves. "Ima marry yo fine ass one day. How many karats you want?"
"As many as you want go give me bae." I answer applying some gloss. "How far it go to like 20?"
"Ion know."
"We going ring shopping to find out."
"Alright."
We finally leave out and head to the cookout at his sister Lacy house.
"What's up sis?" Lacy says hugging me. "Hey girl."
"Ima get some hair this weekend."
"Okay sis."
"Hey NuNu." She picks up Chrissy. This child has ten different nicknames. Rock family called had NuNu. Rock family loves Christianna just as much as him. Rock grabs my hand as we walk to the backyard where everyone is.
"Damn this you cousin?" One of his family members yell. "Hell Yeah unk. She bad ain't she."
"If yo auntie looked like that I would've been home every night."
"Nigga You hell."
We get to the food and I chow down on the hamburgers and chicken. "Well hello Asia."
"Hey mama. Where were you?"
"In the house cooking. How are you? Where's my grand baby?" She hugs me. "I'm good and she around here somewhere. Lacy had her."
"Mama." Christianna says running to me. "There go my NuNu."
"Gram."
I see Rock reaching over into my plate. "You gone go get me some more."
"I might, if you nice bout it." He says biting my chicken. "You take my food but I'm suppose to be nice?"
"Ask daddy nicely."
"Robert."
"Stop using my government name." He mumbles into my neck. Giggling like a lil school girl, "Stop, Robert Simmons."
"I love you Asia Evans."
"I love you Robert Simmons."
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Just because I felt like doing this. Okay bye! See y'all in 2018 fr fr 😂 -A