THANK YOU TO YANNA FOR COLLABING WITH ME ON THIS CHAPTER, IM SORRY WE TOOK SO LONG AND NOW I FINALLY UPDATE... BUT ENJOY THIS HI QUALITY CHAPTER BROUGHT TO YOU
BY: @AlohaaAyanna show her some loooove<3
read the part I wrote on her book, "Source!"
"Okay so Ash your gonna go to LA no problems, everything's gonna be good." I sigh, "Yuuup, everything's.. gonna be, fuck." I say leaving the hospital.
I hear my phone buzz. It's Ellie.
I sigh, "Yeah El what's up?"
"Ash where are you? I called Colby and he said you left the hospital."
"I-I'm, uh, heading back to LA for a meeting why?"
Ash, what'd you just say?
D-did, wait, is my self conscious trying to say something to me? I'm going to LA for the sole purpose of me, wanting to be by myself.
"Oh. Well I thought maybe we could I don't know, stop and get lunch or something."
"Shit sorry Ellie, I'm busy all day, but I can drop you off and maybe you and Colby could go?" I heard her mumble something.
"Uh yeah, I guess, but if you're going back, you better get me my favorite sushi."
I giggle, "Sure El."
I hear as she squeals over the phone. "Thank youuuu!! You're the best."
"Hey I try. Okay I'll be at the hotel in 2 minutes, be ready."
"I'm out front now. See ya."
"Bye."
Little does she know, I'm heading back to get away,
Away from everything.
The drama.
The lawsuit.
Sam. Ellie. Him.
I need to get away from it all. My life is a complete mess right now. And I have no idea what to do.
So for now, I drive.
Just for one day, to get away from it all.
I turn into the hotel entry.
I take the back way this time, pulling up right in front of the casino. Ellie waves at me before hopping in.
"Hey," I greet.
"Hi. You smeeell GOOODDDD." El giggles.
"Is that your boy's cologne?" I joke, singing.
"What?" She murmurs, confused.
"Look it up, it's Tessa Brook's part in Jake Paul's, It's Everyday Bro song," as I drive off.
We continue to have a early jam sesh in the car, because like Beyonce is perfect morning music to belt.
What a queen.
Bless.
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"Here we goooo."
"Okay thanks Ash, don't forget the sushi!" Ellie gets out of the car.
"Of course," I playfully roll my eyes.
"Oh and uh your meeting to! Good luck with, that."
I smile. "Thanks El."
"No probs! K byeee!" She waves and heads into the hospital.
I wave back before driving off. You know, she's my favorite person ever.. but like other times I want to rip her head off and place it in Colby's hands, then take a bat and swing ya know?
A/N: HAHAHAHA"(DAMN YANNA AGRESSIVEE)"
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After about two hours of driving, my patience is running out.
There was been nothing but traffic.
And I'm nearly a quarter way there.
I was wanna die in this car right now.
Not really, chill.
But C'MON PEOPLE.
Stahp driving like fucking turtles and go!
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Hour 3.
Three words.
K
M
S.
Or three letters I don't know.
But man this car ride is brutal. I look at the time.
11:34
Okay, I still have the whole day pretty much.
Shit Ash you think way too much.
Bad habit.
Especially when I'm fucking bored as shit in this car ride.
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Hour 4.5
Almost there.
No more traffic, which is good.
I swear I was about to shoot myself in this car about 29 times, why'd I say I'm going back to LA? Cambria is like six hours away.
But thank the Lord for music.
Without, I shall be nothing.. and nothing shall not be music.
Heh.
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Hour 6.
Location, Hollywood California.
Home.
I pull into the garage parking and park in my spot. I quickly hop and out and stretch.
"Jesus that was a long ass car ride."
Oh but Neil, the fun has only begun.
Let's get started shall we?
I unlock my apartment door, closing it and running straight to my couch.
I plop face down, "Oh couch, how I've missed you."
I finger traced the pattern of the fabric. I get up and enter my room. After a ten minute emotional reunion with my apartment, I finally decide to figure out what the hell I'm gonna do today.
"What to do first?" I thought. Well I'll get El's sushi at Target last. So for now I guess food is a must right now.
"To Dunkin we go!"
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I pull into the Westfield mall in Culver City, stopping at a small plaza before the actual mall.
And get this.
As I see Dunkin donuts, there's a freaking McDonald's next to it.
My life, is so good right now. And this brunch, is about to be even better.
I decide to just walk down to the center of the Westfield mall, happily eating my hashbrown.
Don't worry I saved my sandwich for later.
For about 3 hours I shop. I spend until I can't spend anymore.
But not really, again chill damn. I don't know why I felt this sudden boost to spend all my money on shit I don't need, especially for a day like this.
Call me selfish I know, but I guess this is my day.
An Ashlyn Neil day.
A time to get away, and think about myself for once.
I haven't truly had that since Kansas.
Being able to be carefree without so much, drama.
I miss it.
I miss being free ya know?
With Colby, Ellie, Sam. I don't know what it do anymore.
I like my rival.
My rival likes me.
But my rival has a girlfriend.
And that girlfriend is my best friend.
And my rivals best friend likes me.
But I don't feel the same way.
My rivals best friend knows I like my rival.
And yet after years, my rival and I are friends.
My life's a fucking roller-coaster right now.
And I start school soon.
I have no fucking clue how tomorrow is gonna plan out, right now I'm just going through my life.
One day at a time.
It's so overwhelming, and I don't know how much more I can really take. I just don't know anymore.
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I finish all the shopping I can take, and head back to my car to put the bags in my trunk. Oh shit that's right!
Ellie's sushi.
Okay then, time to go to Target.
I close my trunk and head back to the mall. I spot Target and start walking.
Then my phone buzzes.
E: hey bb could u maybe pick up some tampons too? unexpected emergency sryzzz
I laugh to myself. Typical Ellie Parker. That's why I love her.
A: ya ofcccc. da extra small onezz?
E: yazzzz. tyyyyyy
A: npppp see ya soon
E: bye bitch
I put my phone away as I grab a basket. First stop, tampons. I make my way, you know what skip the details.
I grab what I need and head to the frozen aisle. I get waffles, chicken nuggets for Colby, dollar Mac and cheese, and El's sushi.
I put the sushi in my basket, backing up. I feel myself trip and bump into someone.
"Oh goodness! I'm so sorry!" I hear someone stutter, as she helped me up.
I smile, "It's fine! I'm clumsy anyways."
I look up and I see her eyes get wide. I get a good look at her and recognize her almost immediately.
Malia Mai!
"Hey, I think I follow you on instagram!" I cheer.
"Woah, you're Ashlyn Neil! I watch you on Youtube!" She exclaims.
"Really?" I say with wide eyes, "-That's pretty awesome, holy crap! You're... Malia? Right?" I ask.
She gasps, "Yeah!"
"Cool! I'm here shopping for my friends and I's lunch, but like I still don't really know my way around here yet."
"OH!" She jumps, "I can always show you around to some of my favorite places! I mean, I just moved here too, but I've always wanted to adventure around Cali some more."
I think about it for a second and instantly smile, "Ya know what, lets do it. I'm down, honestly I just need to have some fun right now. I kinda need it."
She nods, "You've come to the right place."
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"So, what made you move to California?" Malia asks me.
"Well, I'm going to UCLA this fall," I say.
"Seriously? Damn, your family rich?" She jokes.
I laugh, "I mean, it was a scholarship so they didn't have to pay."
"Woah, you're smart," I smile.
"Enough about me, what about you?" I ask, driving down Vine Street. Too soon.
"Well, my friends flew me out here to stay with them. But I'm thinking of getting into the social media business... I've already gotten about a million followers on Instagram," She explains.
My mouth gapes open but then I shrug, "Damn, well I'm not surprised. You're fucking gorgeous."
We both giggle, "You're too kind, Ash."
"You're too hot, Lia," I retort.
Like, have you not seen this girl's finsta? She's fucking beautiful.
Like, goals as fuck.
I pull up to a parking spot and we were on Hollywood Boulevard.
"Lit, I love Hollywood!" She exclaims as we get out the car.
"I've barely been here, and that means I've literally just have driven by," I say stretching.
"Excuse my tiredness, I kinda woke up early for the first time."
"It's chill, I live with like five other guys. Noise is always happening," I scoff.
"I live next to two weirdos, so I kinda lowkey feel your pain?" She laughs.
We walk down Hollywood talking about our experience living in LA.
"Dude, it's Marilyn Monroe!" I point, stepping over her star.
Malia gasps, handing her phone over to me. "Take a picture of me, girl!"
I aim the lens at Malia for it to focus on her Marilyn Monroe with the dress pose, since she's wearing one right now. Sadly, there was no wind flowing above.
"Work it," I coo, doing a bunch of random angles.
She giggles as I hand her back the phone.
We then continue to walk down the sidewalk, watching the hectic environment of a typical mid-day in Hollywood. We gazed upon shop after shop, and Malia ended up buying a few bags of clothes.
Oh yeah, I totally didn't buy any more clothes.. Totally.
We even then stopped and bought some sweet treats from a random bakery.
It was amazing, time just flew by.
After a couple hours, managed to somehow travel to the grove. I called Colby saying I had another last minute meeting with my other manager, but I really just wanted to continue hanging out with Malia.
She's truly great.
She is exactly like how she is online.
Just so goofy and fun in the snapchats.
I love her for that.
Today it's hard to be real, especially on social media.
People like her are truly refreshing.
Malia and I continued to talk and explore, after a while taking a break.
And now, we sit, eating doughnuts at Krispy Kreme.
Bless.
"Yo, these are such heavenly doughnuts," She mumbles as I take a giant bite of my coconut cream doughnut.
"Right? My friends and I love coming to eat here, just for the doughnuts," I laugh.
"Where are your friends anyway?" Malia asks me.
"They're in Cambria, but it's fine. I rather get away from them for some time..." I sigh.
She glances down, "I don't want to intrude but can I ask, why you're okay without them?"
I wipe my forehead, "Gee, that's okay it's just... I feel like I'm torn when I'm with them sometimes."
"I'm a great listener, cuz girl.. it sounds like you're stressed as hell," She says, tapping her hand on the table.
I smile, "You wouldn't mind?"
"Course not!" She cheers.
"Okay, well I have these guys... and they're both amazing."
"One actually likes me, and he's so motherfucking sweet, and I hate myself that he does. You see... I lead him on. I'm a major douche-bag for doing it but I didn't mean to! Honestly!" I defend.
"Chill, you could never be a douche."
I half smile, "Thanks."
"Course, now, continue!"
"Right, so I don't like him in the way he likes me... now the other guy, I like him. Alot..."
I sigh again, "And it's a big fucking problem. He's the best friend to the boy who likes me, but I don't like back. This boy, he's so sweet and kind but a real dick to me. You see, we're rivals and just recently, we became friends. But at the same time, I hate him. Shit happened between us and he even has a girlfriend."
I feel my face fluster as I say, "Who happens to be my best fucking friend! I love her, her name's Ellie. She's been my best friend since, who knows? That's why she deserves to still be with him, so I can't get in the way. And she doesn't know I like her boyfriend."
"She's my favorite person in the world but she's dating a cheater. And her cheater is cheating... with me. We called it off, I'm moving on, but it just sucks so much ass to see them. I'm losing my mind. That's why I made no second thought on going back to see them today. I mean, I still have to go back and see them tonight, but not yet. Nope," I finally breathe.
Shit.
I got it all out.
And it felt, good.
Like a fucking giant was lifted off me.
"So, how are you holding up?" She asks.
"To be honest, not too well. But today, I feel so stress free. I'm ready to just go back to my apartment in LA and crash on my couch, alone, and take a long, refreshing nap,"
I slouch into my seat as I take a slow bite out of my doughnut, chewing it slower than a sloth chews bamboo.
She laughs, "Well, if it makes you feel any better, I have had my heartbroken, had an abusive boyfriend, and was stupid from hundreds of miles away."
"Jesus Christ, are YOU okay?"
"Yeah, I'm perfectly fine, now! But I'm going to tell you a little story now. It gets better," Malia says.
It was like she became a wise elder.
Cringey, but so fucking cute on her.
Goals.
"I was in the position where I was in love with a boy who was my only want and need, and jeez, it hurt like hell when he moved here."
"He and I lost contact for a year after four years of friendship. He saved me from getting raped, he and his best friend. I owe them still to this day. But that year we lost contact made me lose my fucking mind."
"I longed for him, and it sucked more than a long distance relationship because, hell, we weren't even in a relationship! He didn't know I liked him, and damn that broke my heart when I'd see him posting pictures from his new life in LA."
"But things got better, I don't know exactly what was going on in his mind but he and his best friend flew me out here. Here I am, and I'm staying with him in this big ass house he and his roommates are in. Things got better. You see Ash, if things are meant to be, they'll happen. This boy is like my source, of everything ya know?" she finishes.
I smile in awe, "That was beautiful, that story just moved me to tears."
She giggles, "That felt good to say. Did your rant make you feel relieved?"
"Yeah, and it calms me down more now that you've just told your story. Jesus, I'm a mess compared to you, though," I chuckle.
"Nahhh, you're literal perfection, stop."
I scoff, "If you think that, I think you're stupid."
She places her hand over her heart, "Oof, ouch."
We laugh, and leave Krispy Kreme.
Yo when we left this place,
It was fucking night time.
Malia and I spent the whole day together.
And right when I remember I have to get back to reality.
"OH shit!" I mutter.
"What? What's up?" Malia asks.
"I really gotta go..." I sigh.
She sighs as well, "That's okay, it was so fun hanging out with you today."
"Yeah, same. We really really gotta do this again sometime," I pull out my phone, hitting the contacts icon.
"Right, so did I ever get your number?" I ask, holding out her phone for me.
She smirks at me, "Why didn't you just slide into my DMs first?"
I laugh, "Girl, you know I'd tap that."
She burst out laughing, "Honey you gotta double tap for all of this."
I start laughing along as I put my number in her phone.
"I'll text you soon!" I say.
Wait, does she even have a ride?
"Oh, how rude of me to not ask but do you need a ride?"
"No, it's fine!" She makes a call. "I got this cute kid coming to pick me up."
I wink before walking away, "Don't have too much fun!"
"I won't!" She starts to walk away.
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I get into the car, placing the small box of donuts and stuff from Target in the passenger seat.
OH shit!
My sandwich.
Hold up lemme tear this shit up right quick.
I hold my sandwich in my mouth as I use my hands to drive out of the parking lot.
What a fun day.
I should have Ashlyn Neil day more often. But then again how many more famous people am I gonna meet?
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I get to my apartment and lock the door, putting all the bags in the floor.
I sigh, putting my keys on its hook, and turning to see someone on my couch.
It was Colby.
I gasp. "Colby? What are you doing here?"
"Eh. I'm here to see you." I raise my eyebrow.
If he tries anything..
"So how long have you been here? Wait, how did you even get here?"
He chuckles, "Ellie gave me her key."
"Okay, and who have you a ride?" I ask.
"Believe it or not, I ubered."
"No you didn't."
He nodded, "Yep. 176 dollars because you FUCKING took MY car, remember?"
I wince, "Yikes. Welp, you're a dumbass."
He rolls his eyes as I sit on the couch.
"So what's up? Why'd you leave Ellie and Sam?" I ask.
He sighs, "Because, I guess I wanted to get away, and think."
"Mhm. I feel you."
He looked at me, "Ash."
"Hm?"
He stayed silent, looking into my eyes.
"Nothing."
I get confused.
"Okay stop fucking with me Colby, what's up?"
"Nothing! It's nothing Ashlyn, it's just... I don't know."
I squint my eyes.
"Sir Cole Robert Brock. If you don't tell me what's on your mind.."
"Well, I guess I was thinking about us."
I look away.
"Colby– we've talked about this.."
"I know, just forget it." I sit back.
We both stay quiet.
I don't know what to think right now.
And I'm way too tired at this point to want to think.
It's just too much.
"You know what–" Colby grabbed me and immediately started tickling me.
"COLBY WHAT THE FU– ahh STAHP! It HURTS!" I laugh as he hovers over me.
"See this, is nice," He goes harder.
"NOOO. Cole If you– DONT. AHHH AHAHHAHA!!"
Why is this guy so fucking random at the weirdest times?
The world will never know.
"You want me to stop?" He asks me.
"YES PLEASE!"
I hear him laugh. He then stops and I take the time to learn how to breath again.
"The fuck was that for?!" I exclaim.
"Uhh, I was bored?" He gets from on top of me.
"Fuck you, Brock," I flip him off.
"Love you too, Neil."
I freeze in my place.
I hate liking my rival.
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YANNA UOANDIWEFO THIS WAS SUCH A CUTE CHAPTER EHHEHE. She's literally one of the only people I trust to write with me tbh, sorry;) Okay, so the song above, is bts, and there music is so beautiful, and fun to dance to and just so good tf is wrong with me, i never thought I'd like kpop but.... HERE I AM. THANKS MADDIE SHE GOT ME HOOKED. And what's not to love, it's a group of really hot asian guys who can sing AND dance. with rows of abs... like 9. < if you got that reference, i love you. But anyways, the song inserted is SAVE ME and im learning to play it on the piano and it's so pretty, and next chapter im putting another kpop song with my story at the end because it got personal. i only listen to bts omg k im done, i still stan colby with a burning passion DUH, IM SO SORRY FOR THIS DESCRIPT IT WAS SO FANGIRLY BAD ABT THE WRONG FANDOM AHAHAHAH. but bts has great music right thx bye.
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