I didn't know what to say. What was I suppose to? We both knew Cody wasn't ready for this.
"It's this girl I slept with a few times. She came to the stadium today and told me." His voice was low and I could tell he was trying to stop himself from crying more.
"Is she keeping it?"
"I don't know yet. We're suppose to meet up to talk about it tomorrow before the game."
I nodded slowly, trying to process it all. "Cody," I tried to make my voice sound as comforting as possible because I didn't know what else I could do in this moment. "You can't be a dad. You're not ready for that."
"I know I'm not. I don't know what to do Cloe, I can't raise a kid- I'm still a kid!"
"Cody I don't care what you do but I'm not letting you give this baby up for adoption. Don't let that baby grow up thinking their parents didn't care about them enough to want them in their lives."
"I know, and that's exactly what I told her. But what difference is it even gonna be if I can't be a good dad."
"Cody I'll help you with this. The boys will help you and I'm sure Dad would come down to help you out too. You're not gonna be alone during this."
"I feel like I just ruined my whole life. My whole future is gone Cloe." His voice broke and at this point I didn't know if it was the beers he had drank or the actual him speaking.
"Don't say that Cody." I scolded him. "Why the hell would you say that?" His comment really pissed me off. We had a mom who left because she thought we weren't enough, she thought we were life ruiners. And I know he's probably just saying it without meaning it 'cause he's not really in the right state of mind, but still.
"It's true. My baseball career can't keep going if I have a kid I need to be with 24/7 and that's my job! It's my whole life and it's gonna be over!"
"How do you think Dad felt when our mom left him alone with two kids. He could've easily quit baseball and found something else but he didn't. He wasn't cowardly like you're acting right now. He took us with him and raised us while he played and made a name for himself." I tried keeping my voice calm because I know I shouldn't yell at him but it was taking all my self control to keep myself from doing so.
"Dad's 10x the man I am. Fuck that hes 10x the person I am. He always has been. I've never been a good person and now it's starting to show." Cody said with a frown like he didn't see what everyone else did.
"How could you say that? You are not a bad person."
"Then what the hell am I cause I know I'm not a good one."
"You're my big brother, and you've always been there to watch out for me and protect me and help me with everything. You're the best person I know."
I saw something in his face change. His looks of anger and fear disappeared and he looked down and gave me a small smile. "You really think I can do this?" He asked hesitantly.
I nodded and returned his smile. "I do."
He wrapped me in a tight hug and thanked me before apologizing again.
"It's fine. I know you didn't mean to snap."
"You're not selfish Clo, and you're not a bitch. I should've never used those words with you, I didn't mean any of them."
I gave him a small smile before standing up. I took the 6 pack out of his room and put them in the fridge.
"I'm going to get ready for the game. You should probably take a nap and rest." I suggested. He nodded and turned on the tv before getting under the covers.
I walked to my bathroom and turned the shower on. I washed my hair and face then shaved my arms and legs.
When I got out, I towel dried my hair and put a robe on before walking back into my room to figure out everything else.
For my outfit, I put on my personalized jersey Cody had gotten me when he first came to the Dodgers. It had #7 since that's my softball number and then Bellinger where the name goes. I paired it with a pair of workout leggings and my white converse. I grabbed my LA hat to shade me from the daylight rays but since it was still May, I threw a long sleeve under my jersey since it would get colder later tonight.
Once I was dressed, I sat down at my desk to do my makeup. I decided on only doing eye makeup today because I didn't want to deal with caking my face. I used my go-to shades which were gold, pink, and a tanish brown because those colors always make my green eyes pop which I love.
For my hair, I did nothing special. I left it natural and untamed because my hat was going to cover it anyways so what's the use.
When I was finished with everything, I checked the time. Cody had to be at the stadium at 5 and it was only 3:30, so I called Corey and asked him if he wanted to come back over. I felt kind of bad since he had basically just left but I was bored and needed someone to hang out with.
When he arrived, we sat on the couch and turned on a random movie channel. He held both my hands and pulled me into his lap before pulling a blanket over the two of us.
"Did Cody tell you?" He asked after a few minutes of silence.
I nodded. "Who else knows?"
"Joc and Trayce. We were all walking to out of the stadium when she walked towards us and told him. She was all bitchy and came up to him blaming him for her being knocked up and Cody had no idea who she even was." He said with a chuckle.
I couldn't help but laugh at this. Of course Cody would be the one to get a girl pregnant and not even remember who she was. "He's pretty distraught about it though. The first thing he did after he went to his room was drink. He drank, then he cried, then he talked about how his life's over and how he's not gonna be able to be a good dad."
"I'd be scared too, especially if it was just some random girl I met a bar one night that's going to be the mother of my child. He has a right to be terrified."
I nodded. It was still a lot to take in. Cody was going to be a dad.
"Did you guys talk about if she's keep it or not?" He asked.
"Yea. He said he doesn't know yet. But I know Cody, he wouldn't let her get an abortion, and he says adoptions not an option either so I don't really know what the plan is. He doesn't even know this girl so it's not like he's gonna move in with her and raise their kid together." Just thinking of all this overwhelmed me and I couldn't imagine what Cody was feeling just thinking about it all.
"They'll figure it out I guess." He said, giving me an unsure smile.
I shrugged in return. "I sure hope so."