Queen of Seduction: Chapter 24
Morgan Bradley
Nandito kami ngayon ni Lerissa sa hospital para magpa-check up. Gusto kong samahan siya, ngunit tinanggihan niya ang alok ko. Kasama kong nakapila sa labas ang mga babaeng buntis kasama ang kanilang mga asawa.
Nalilibang na ako, na pagmasdan ang mga buntis at inaaruga sila ng kanilang asawa. Guilt was creeping in my body. Iniwan ko na naman si Kristine, hindi ko kayang sabihin sa kanya na nakabuntis ako. Natatakot ako na bigla nalang siyang maglaho at hindi ko na siya makita pang ulit.
Mga ilang minuto lang ay lumabas na si Lerissa, at may hawak siyang mga papel.
"How did it go?" - kaswal kong tanong.
Malungkot siyang sumulyap sa'kin. "The baby was unhealthy. My personal obygne said, I should take my daily vitamins and also eat healthy foods for the sake of the baby." - malungkot pa'rin niyang sabi.
"Don't worry. I will buy your vitamins and also healthy foods. And I will also guide you."
Tumango lamang si Lerissa , inakbayan ko siya at inaalalayang maglakad. Dahan-dahan kaming naglalakad hanggang sa makalapit kami sa kotse.
I just drove in a near drug store, para mabili ko ang nireseta sa kanyang gamot. Pagkatapos kong mabili ang mga gamot ay, agad ko rin siyang iniuwi para makapagpahinga.
Nakahiga rin ako sa tabi niya nang tumunog ang aking cellphone.
"I'm going to be late. Don't worry about me, I will just hang out with my friends. I love you, I truly do Morgan." - laman ng mensahe na aking nabasa. It was Kristine, kahit wala na ang numero niya sa cellphone ko alam na alam ko parin na siya iyon.
Guilt was creeping in my body. Palihim ko siyang ginagago habang wala siyang alam, wala siyang ginawang masama sa'kin kundi tanggapin ako ulit. At ganun rin ako, paulit-ulit ko na siyang ginagago.
I composed a message. "Text me when you arrived in our home. I truly love you too." - even if it truly hurts.
Some things are just never meant to be, no matter how much we wish they were. I wish I could change my fate, the innocent Morgan not the sex-starved boy, how I wish that I shouldn't fuck all the girls that I want. But fuck Kristine instead.
Kristine Fernante
A black backless dress, a 6 inches heel, light make-up, and a sexy red lipstick. I'm ready to clubbing again.
"Let's go, Revor." - I said. And Revor rose in his feet.
"You didn't prepared that much. Huh?" - he said while smirking and flashed his white teeth.
"It's a bar, it's just my usual attire." - sabi ko at sinimangutan ko siya.
"I'm just jokin' at you, though you look blooming today." - sabi niya at inakbayan ako at iginiya papasok sa kanyang kotse.
Inismiran ko nalang siya at tinawanan lang niya ako. Ginulo rin niya ang buhok ko at sinampal ko paalis ang kamay niya. Ilang oras ko ring inayos ang buhok ko at basta-bastang guguluhin niya lang.
"Don't get fun at me." - nakasimangot ko paring sabi.
"I'm not Morgan, Kristine. I didn't make any fun, especially for you." - seryoso niyang sabi. Naging seryoso rin ang aking mukha.
"You know that -" - napatigil naman ako sa pagsasalita nang umalingawngaw ang malalakas niyang tawa.
"Y-you s-should see yourself in the mirror. It's freaking funny." - tumatawa parin niyang sabi. This asshole.
Binatukan ko siya ng malakas at napaigik naman siya. You deserve it.
"Amazona girl." - he whispered but I manage to hear it. Sinamaan ko ulit siya ng tingin at itinaas niya ang kanyang kamay bilang pagsuko
"I just want to say that, this pass few days. I manage to move on with my feeling for you. You liked I mean you loved Morgan that much. So I decided to give up my one-sided love for you. But I want to promise, if Morgan you. Just call me and I'll be there for you. I will gonna be your superman. You can be strong anytime but not all the time." - pampalubag loob niyang sabi.
Napangiti ako sa mga sinabi niya, siya lang ang nakakaalam sa mga nararamdaman ko. "The atmosphere is heavy shall we, change it in a lighter mood?" - I said and flashed my genuine smile.
Revor nodded and he drive fast until we reach the club.
Sometimes I wanna wake up not remembering about him. Morgan.
Ang malalakas na tugtog mula sa loob ng bar ang sumalubong sa amin. Mga nagsasayawan at nag-iinuman. Kumaway sa amin ang mga kakilala namin at iginiya ako ni Revor palapit sa sofa. Nakalatag na sa lamesa ang mga bote ng beer, at iba't-ibang klase pa ng alak.
"Guys, let's enjoy this night today. We have a broken hearted girl here today, she wants to get wasted." - sabi ni Revor at nagtawanan naman ang mga kasama namin.
"Whom?" - the other guy question. Agaran naman akong itinuro ni Revor at nakita kong bumilog ang mga mata nila.
"I t-thought she's capable of breaking every man's heart?" - patanong na sabi ng lalaki.
"I thought so too." - sabi ni Revor at nagkibit-balikat na lamang.
And that was I thought too. I'm Kristine Fernante definitely called playgirl, heartwrecker, makeupbitch, blacksheep, partygirl. But it wasn't the real me. It was just all a cover-up. I want to cover my ownself the fragile girl, the innocent one, the pliant shattered girl, and having a fragile heart.
It was the real me, I want to hide the true me. I want to veil the girl whose having a fragile heart. I want to hide all those. I want to get rid of that. I want to change, but I didn't make it up. I change for the better, but I guess even if I change myself. I will never be the better to be me enough. I will never be better for myself, for my family, for my friends, and for the one I love. And in the end of the day, it was just me. Nothings beside me, I want the guy who have the guts to stay beside me no matter how hard it is. And Morgan never succeed in that.
It sucks doesn't it? Feeling like you're not good enough. I'm not as strong as anyone thinks I am. I'm insecure and I have a lots of flaws. We all have.
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