Isaac's POV
It's been almost a month; this has undeniably been the longest month of my life.
All I need right now is some time alone- away from Derek, away from Scott, away from everybody. A walk in the park sounds pleasant enough and exactly what I need right now.
I'm in no hurry to leave the house, but as soon as I hear the front door unlock, I hurry out the back afraid that it was Scott or Mrs McCall. I didn't want to speak to anyone right now.
I climb into the car and drive to the only park I can think of. It's the one furthest away, but it is also Y/N's favorite.
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As I arrive I am hit with waves of emotion; a whole lot of unwanted emotions. I should have known that coming here would only make me feel even worse than how I already felt, but this way I feel closer to her.
I open the car door, get out and shove the car keys into my pocket. I almost walked over to the other side to open the door for Y/N, but I was suddenly reminded that I had come alone. I also had to remind myself that even if I didn't come alone, it wouldn't be her that was with me.
I let out a long sigh before beginning my walk through the park. The weather is quite cold and I wish that I could be at home in bed cuddling with Y/N. I mentally slap myself; I am only making myself feel worse with all of these thoughts. But I can't deny that I would do anything to have her by my side.
I keep my gaze locked with my shoes as my feet kick small rocks out of the way as I walk. My heart isn't just broken, it literally feels broken. It feels shattered. But it is when I look up, that those shattered pieces break even more. I didn't think it could be possible.
I see Y/N. The thought of seeing my ex-girlfriend is enough to break me, but seeing her with somebody else- that tears my world apart.
She is sitting on a bench beside a slightly taller guy with straight, dark hair. The smile painted on her lips makes my knees weak; it's so big, so bright. I hate to admit that I'd never seen that smile before. Her eyes shine brightly as she turns to face the boy. He takes ahold of her hand and it takes all of the strength that I have within me to not go over there and pull him away from her.
She looks so happy. I watch as he says something that causes her to burst out laughing. She laughs so much that I am sure she is struggling to catch her breath. She looks ten times more beautiful.
I exhale a long breath and avert my eyes away from the two of them for a moment. I miss her so much. A couple of weeks ago I was sitting with her on that exact same bench, laughing, kissing and enjoying her company. I wish that it was still me over there with her.
There is no doubt that she looks happier. She looks much happier than when she was with me. I don't blame her though, I know that I hurt her. I hurt her badly. I kept secrets from her, I put her in dangerous situations, I lied to her. I know exactly why she felt the way she did.
I don't blame her for walking away from me, from us like that.
But the truth is, I still love her. I always will and whether she believes me or not, I know that nobody could ever love her the way I do. I may not have displayed the love I have for her the way I should have and I regret not doing so.
I still need her. She is my anchor. The thought of her gives me sanity. The past few weeks have been agonizing without her.
I still want her to be happy. I want her to have all the happiness in the world; she deserves everything.
She looks like she has all the happiness in the world now. I can see it in the way she looks at her new boyfriend; how she just stares at him as he speaks, how she admires him.
I've been staring at them for at least a minute now without looking away. That's when she looks away from him and sees me. Her eyes widen and so do mine. She doesn't do anything, she just looks at me.
I force a small smile and nod my head slightly. I bury my hands in my pockets and turn away from them as I continue my walk through the park.
She is happier. That's all that matters right now.
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based on ed sheeran's Happier
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