I'm going to try not to cry as I write this. This is the last official chapter of Diary of a Teenage Nerd. You know guys...I loved writing this book. I honestly did. I'm going to miss it so much. But don't worry. There will be an epilogue and possibly a sequel.
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Raines' POV
I stared at myself in the mirror. Tight skinny jeans, a loose white tank top, jean vest over it, my hair done up in a messy bun, my bangs French braided back into it. My makeup: smoky eye shadow, pink lipstick, eye liner, and a small amount of blush. My boots came a little below my knee and they were brown leather, with about a one inch heel, which is enough for me. My hands rested in the back pockets of my jeans and I continued to stare down myself in the mirror, trying to find something wrong with my makeup or my outfit, but I just couldn't find anything. Lou made sure I looked absolutely perfect for the last concert I would be performing in. I have to admit, I'm going to miss Lou like hell, along with Josh, Sandy, Andy, Jon, Liam, Louis, Niall, Harry, and Zayn; Liam the most, obviously. I don't know what I'm going to do without them with me.
"You ready?" Lou asked, placing her hands on my shoulders I smiled sadly and nodded, then turned and looked at her, we were eye level. Her eyes searched my face, pretty much doing the same thing I was just doing, making sure there were no imperfections. Finally, her eyes settled on my eyes and she gave me a small, sad smile back.
Lou pulled my into a hug and I hugged her back, blinking back tears from my blue eyes.
"No crying. No crying. You're going to ruin your makeup," She laughed. I laughed a little and pulled away, looking her in the eyes again. She wiped her thumb under my left eye, removing a tear that threatened to fall.
"You're going to kill it out there, and then we're all going to stay in Vegas for a month, and then you're going to fly back to your parents and I'll see you as soon as I can. You have to call us every day, and we'll find a day and time to Skype. Okay?" She pleaded, tears entering her eyes. I wiped under her eyes, like she did with me.
Lou kissed my forehead and pushed my towards Paul, who smiled sadly at me. I shrugged and gave him a sideways smile, taking the microphone from his hand. I looked over my shoulder at the guys, then walked out onto the stage, the crowd cheering as the spotlight flashed on me.
"Hello Los Angeles!" I said, walking onto center stage, placing the mic in its stand, waving at the crowd.
"As you know, tonight is the very last night of the U.S. leg of the Take Me Home tour, and I want to make it as special as I can, considering I'm heading back to the UK after this tour. I won't be going with the guys to Australia," The crowd booed. "Anyway, I want to start out the night with a happy song, so we'll all be happy and we'll all be in a good mood! How does that sound?" The crowd cheered.
I turned and nodded at the guys and they began playing the intro to the first song.
"Does he tell you he loves you when you least expect it?
Does he flutter your heart when he kisses your neck?
No scientist, or biology
It's obvious when he's holding me.
It's only natural, that I'm so affected.
Oh,
And my heart won't beat again, if I can't feel him in my veins.
No need to question, I already know...
It's in his DNA, D-D-D-DNA,
It's in his DNA.
And he just takes my breath away,
B-b-b-breath away, I feel it every day.
And that's what makes a man,
Not hard to understand.
Perfect in every way, I see it in his face.
Nothing more to say,
Its in his D-D-D-DNA.
It's the blue in his eyes that helps me see the future.
Fingerprints that leave me covered for days.
Now I don't have any first degree,
But I know what he does to me.
No need to work it out, it's so familiar.
Oh
And my heart won't beat again, if I can't feel him in my veins.
No need to question, I already know
It's in his DNA, D-D-D-DNA,
It's in his DNA.
And he just takes my breath away,
B-b-b-breath away.
I feel it every day.
And that's what makes a man, not hard to understand.
Perfect in every way, I see it in his face.
Nothing more to say,
Its in his D-D-D-DNA.
It's all about his kiss, contaminates my lips.
Our energy connects, it's simple genetics.
I'm the X to his Y, it's the colour of his eyes.
He can do no wrong, no he don't need to try.
Made from the best, he passes all the tests.
Got my heart beating fast, it's cardiac arrest.
He's from a different strain, that science can't explain.
I guess it's how he's made, in his D-D-D-DNA
Ahhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhh
It's in his DNA, D-D-D-DNA,
It's in his DNA.
And he just takes my breath away,
B-b-b-breath away.
I feel it every day.
And that's what makes a man, not hard to understand.
Perfect in every way, I see it in his face.
Nothing more to say,
Its in his D-D-D-DNA,"
The crowd cheered immensely, because it's a Little Mix song and everyone loves Little Mix. Especially the Directioners.
I walked over to the edge of the stage, grabbing the fans hands, smiling at them.
"This next song...is definitely a favorite of mine. I have to admit. There's no denying this song. I'm pretty sure you all know it, and if you do, sing along, and if you don't...you'll catch on quickly," I laughed, walking to center stage as the music began playing. "It's also by Liam's man crush so I know he'll be jamming out backstage."
"Aren't you something to admire, 'cause your shine is something like a mirror
I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel lonely and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallel on the other side
'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'm here trying to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now, I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now and I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back here to you once I figured it out, you were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror, my mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger, with anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise that we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror, my mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Aren't you somethin', an original
'Cause it doesn't seem merely a sample
And I can't help but stare, 'cause I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you, you reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time
'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the past, I'm here trying to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now, I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now and I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along, stuck in my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me, and now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you looking back at me, keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me,"
I walked over to the mic stand and put the microphone back, and then put my hands above my head, clapping to the beat of the song, getting the crowd to do it as well.
"Sing with me everybody!" I yelled.
"'Cause I don't wanna lose you now, I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart, is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now, and I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back here to you once I figured it out, you were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror, my mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger, with anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise that we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me,"
I smiled as the crowd cheered, when I finished singing the song. I took a deep breath and turned around. Josh held up a water bottle and I nodded, he threw it. I caught it easily, then took a sip of it, setting it next to me.
"We're gonna slow it down a little bit with this next song. Not much, but just a little. This song is such a good song. You may not know it, but if you do, sing along," I told the crowd, as the guys started playing the intro to Royals by Lorde.
"I've never seen a diamond in the flesh
I cut my teeth on wedding rings in the movies
And I'm not proud of my address
In the torn up town, no post code envy
But every song's like:
Gold teeth, grey Goose
Tripping in the bathroom
Bloodstains, vall gowns
Trashing the hotel room
We don't care, we're driving Cadillac's in our dreams
But everybody's like:
Crystal, Maybach
Diamonds on your timepiece
Jet planes, islands
Tigers on a gold leash
We don't care, we aren't caught up in your love affair
And we'll never be royals, it don't run in our blood
That kind of lux just ain't for us, we crave a different kind of buzz
Let me be your ruler, you can call me queen bee
And baby I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule
Let me live that fantasy
My friends and I we've cracked the code
We count our dollars on the train to the party
And everyone who knows us knows
That we're fine with this, we didn't come from money
But every song's like:
Gold teeth, Grey Goose
Tripping in the bathroom
Bloodstains, ball gowns
Trashing the hotel room
We don't care, we're driving Cadillac's in our dreams
But everybody's like:
Crystal, Maybach
Diamonds on your timepiece
Jet planes, islands
Tigers on a gold leash
We don't care, we aren't caught up in your love affair
And we'll never be royals, it don't run in our blood
That kind of lux just ain't for us, we crave a different kind of buzz
Let me be your ruler, you can call me queen bee
And baby I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule
Let me live that fantasy
Ooh ooh oh ooh
We're better than we've every dreamed
And I'm in love with being queen
Ooh ooh oh ooh
Life is great without a care, we aren't caught up in your love affair
And we'll never be royals, it don't run in our blood
That kind of lux just ain't for us, we crave a different kind of buzz
Let me be your ruler, you can call me queen bee
And baby I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule, I'll rule
Let me live that fantasy,"
The song wasn't popular yet, but it was definitely on the rise, and I loved this song.
"I'm going to do about three more songs. I think I need to do the best songs ever, considering that this is the last concert for the American leg of the Take Me Home tour, don't you agree?" I asked the crowd, and they cheered as a response.
"So since I have to sing three of the best songs ever. And obviously, Ed Sheeran writes the best songs ever, don't you agree?" I heard a few boo's but mostly cheers, agreeing with me.
"Well, my favorite Ed Sheeran song is Give Me Love, but I also really, really love Lego House, so I'm going to need some help deciding which one we're going to sing. The guys know how to play both songs, so don't worry about that. So cheer if you want us to play Give Me Love," I instructed, the crowd got pretty loud, but I knew we most likely were going to go with Lego House.
"Now cheer if you want us to play Lego House," And that's when the crowd went absolutely crazy. I blinked and took a step back.
"So I think everyone wants us to do Lego House guys," I nodded to the band and they laughed, nodding back.
I waited as the guys began playing the short intro to Lego House.
"Now you all chose this, so you have to sing with me! Here we go!"
We sang Lego House, then we sang I Knew You Were Trouble, and last we sang Isn't She Lovely, so Harry would feel better, considering we sang a Taylor Swift song.
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I was watching the boys as they performed. They were currently on a platform, above the crowd, in the air, singing Change My Mind. I was standing next to Lou. She had her arm around my shoulders, and I had one arm around her waist. We were both watching the boys, singing along to every word, then laughing when the boys changed the words randomly, making everyone laugh.
"So baby if you say you want me to drive..
By KFC..."
Niall sang, with a straight face.
"I love fried chicken!!" Liam yelled, and then they all laughed, attempting to continue singing the song.
Lou and I were laughing hard as they came back onto the stage, sitting on the stairs. They were about to sing Last First Kiss.
"Baby I, I wanna know..." Liam sang.
"He wants to know," Niall said into his microphone, causing me to laugh. Liam smirked, bit his lip, and continued the song.
"What you think when you're alone
Is it me, yeah?
Are you thinking of me yeah?" Liam continued singing.
"Yeah baby," Niall said, making all the guys laugh as Liam bit his lip, trying his hardest not to mess up. Me and Lou were just laughing as hard as we could.
"We've been friends now for a while," Liam continued.
"About three years now," Niall said, messing with his ear.
Liam burst out laughing. He stopped singing and buried his head into his arm. Niall laughed, and so did the other guys.
"What the hell Niall?" Liam asked, laughing. Niall shrugged.
"As you can see Liam has forgotten the lyrics..." Niall explained to the crowd. I laughed again, shaking my head.
Liam playfully slapped Niall and motioned for the guys to start playing the intro of the song once again.
Surprisingly, they actually got through the song this time, without Niall, or anyone else, saying anything to make the one singing get distracted and start laughing in the middle of their line.
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The guys were singing their last song, and I had tears in my eyes. This meant the end of the last concert. No more concerts for me. I'm going home in about a month. And I won't see any of these guys for another couple months.
I wiped under my eyes, removing the tears, and stray mascara. I crossed my arms over my chest, watching the guys.
"So...we're going to sing one more song..." Harry said. My eyebrows furrowed together, watching them carefully.
"And we have a guest, who is going to sing the song with us..." Liam said, pulling the ear piece from his ear.
"Raines Tyler, can you please come to the stage?" Niall asked, turning to look at me.
My eyebrows raised and I leaned forward a little bit, looking at them with wide eyes.
"Don't give me that look, get out here!" Niall said. I blinked and looked at Paul who laughed, holding out my microphone.
I slowly reached out and took the microphone. When I looked up, Niall was standing in front of me, with an outstretched hand. I grabbed his hand as he pulled me on to the stage with the other guys. Liam, Louis, Zayn, and Harry all clapped as Niall pulled me to center stage.
"Give it up for Raines Tyler everyone!!" Liam yelled, holding his arm out as he gestured to me.
"Also, my lovely fiancé," Liam said, into his microphone. I smiled up at him, just as he leaned down and kissed me. On the lips. That's when the crowd went absolutely crazy. But they quickly disappeared, and I didn't hear anything. It was just me and Liam.
I pulled away and smiled at him, then waved at the crowd. Liam put an arm around me, kissed my head, and then turned his attention back to the crowd.
"Raines is going to sing the last song of the night with us," Louis said, turning to me. I shook my head and attempted to step away from Liam, but he had a tight grip on my waist, so I couldn't go anywhere.
"Yes! You know this song. You're going to sing it with us!" Louis explained. "Hit it guys!"
Then the beginning of a song I haven't heard in forever began to play. I looked around at the guys. Liam took my hand in his, and took a step forward.
"If time came to an end today, and we left too many things to say
If we could turn it back, what would we want to change?
And now's the time to take a chance
Come on, we gotta make a stand
What have we got to lose?
The choice is in our hands,"
Liam looked at me expectantly as he finished singing the first verse. I closed my eyes, and began singing the bridge.
"And we could find a way
To be anything, if we tried to,"
I sang, and then we all stepped forward, singing the chorus together.
"Live like there's no tomorrow, cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it's all that we know, the only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside, believe and it will never die
Don't never let this life pass us by, live like there's no tomorrow,"
Niall stepped up, and began singing the second verse.
"If there never was a night, a day
And memories could fade away
Then there'd be nothing left, but the dreams we made
Take a leap in faith and hope you fly, feel what it's like to be alive
Give it all that we've got, and lay it all on the line,"
I stepped up, once again, to sing the bridge.
"And we could find a way
To do anything, if we try to,"
Then we all began singing the chorus again.
"Live like there's no tomorrow, cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it's all that we know, the only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside, believe and it will never die
Don't never let this life pass us by
Live like there's no tomorrow,"
Now it's Zayn's solo.
"Be here by my side
We'll do this together
Just you and me
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible,"
Now was Louis.
"Live like there's no tomorrow
'Cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it's all that we know
The only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside
Believe and it will never die
Don't never let this life pass us by
Live like there's no tomorrow, oh,"
We all started clapping, and then we all sang the chorus once more.
"Live like there's no tomorrow
'Cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it's all the we know
The only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside
Believe and it will never die,"
Josh did a drum solo out of the song.
"Good night Los Angeles. This has been the Take Me Home tour. We love all of you. Goodnight!"