*SO, this is the update. I've thought about changing it dozens of times but I kept the original version. Sexual assault/ content ahead as you guys can probably guess. If you are triggered by these things skip this chapter PLEASE.
I heard the door opening...then close.
Nervously looking up...I saw him. He was wearing the same pants that Rowan gave him. He had a shirt on though. He was staring intensely at me. As if I were going to run at any moment. I said nothing to him as he walked into the bathroom and slammed the door shut. I jumped a bit.
Why did he seem so angry? I have done nothing. I am not trying to escape. I didn't argue with him. I could be arguing with him right now!
The bathroom door opened...and this time he had no shirt on. He was so large...compared to my small frame. His muscles shifted involuntarily with each simple stride he made. "How was your dinner?"
"Good," I said absent minded as he slowly made his way over to me.
"Esmerelda," he said as his large hand came under my chin to lift it up. "I do not want to fight with you tonight."
Pushing his hand from under my chin I stood up. I felt crowded by him. "We don't have to," I said while looking down.
"We don't?" He asked. A large hint of astonishment in his voice.
"No...because we do not have to consummate our marriage tonight!" I said even toned. If I raised my voice he would not hear me out. I had to tread lightly.
A growl ripped from his chest. "Yes, we do. It is tradition! Tradition in my kingdom as it is yours. Do your people not spend the night with each other after the marriage? Tell me I am wrong, Esmerelda," he snapped as I turned away from him. Hot tears trailing down my cheeks. I was so angered by him. "Esmerelda," he said again. "Tell me I am wrong."
"You're right," I croaked out as I wiped at my cheeks. "You are right...but you lied!"
"Yes, because I knew you would be happy. That is why I left you to have time for yourself," he said as he lightly touched my arm. "I do not want to have to force you..if you would just accept this. Us," he said gently.
My throat constricted. I pressed my lips together tightly. "Okay," I said just above a whisper.
His warm hands skimmed over my bare arms. He pushed my hair to one side. I felt his lips on my neck, suckling and kissing at a spot...that made me shiver.
The odd feeling that I was receiving made even more tears trail down my cheeks. I didn't understand and I didn't want to understand.
I was surprised as he picked me up and walked over to the bed...where he gently laid me down.
Confusion and anger...hurt all bawled into one as he got in the bed, and hovered over me. "Esmerelda please stop crying," he said as he wiped my tears with his hand.
I shook my head. His lips descended upon my own. My heart was beating to much...I needed more air and my closed mouth wasn't helping. The moment I opened my mouth, his tongue invaded.
I momentarily lost it. I pushed at his heavy frame, punching his chest. He stopped. "Please do not kiss me," I gulped as his eyes had flashed Crimson momentarily.
"Fine," he said as he began to pull at my gown. "Sit up," he said in a gravely tone. I pulled my gown off, and laid down.
I couldn't deal with his eyes staring down my naked body...so I closed my eyes. One hand covered my breast and the other my womanhood. He pushed both of them away...
"Please...just hurry."
I was exposed. Like a nerve. The smallest touch, I would flinch.
His lips ceased to kiss my own, on according to my wish...but that didn't stop him from placing them all over my body. His warm lips made a dangerous trail down my neck, kissing almost every inch of exposed skin it seemed like.
My eyes fluttered open, when I felt something wet on my chest. Looking down nervously, a pang of pleasure washed over my body. His tongue was swirling around my now taut nipples, making me squirm underneath him.
How could a murderer make me feel these...foreign feelings. An involuntary moan spilled from my lips as he switched to the neglected one, making me want to push him away. I didn't want him to know about the pleasure. It was shameful for me.
I closed my eyes once again, praying to God, that this would be over soon. His hands ran wild over my naked body. Not missing one inch, which alarmed me when I felt his large hands pulling my thighs apart. I attempted to close them which...didn't work.
His strength against mines...you could guess who won the battle. As I sat there exposed, I felt something warm...over my private parts. Slipping one eye open, I saw his mouth incredibly close to my....to my womanhood. "Wh-what are you doing?" I asked petrified, as his arms slipped around my thighs making it impossible for me to close them. "Sirus...please don't," I pleaded as I felt his tongue...began to taste...down there.
I gasped, "this...this isn't sanitary." He continued his assault, as my heart began to beat erratically. My body felt as if it were not my own.
The pleasure that his tongue was giving me, made me cry out. My mouth shut tightly and my hands gripping the soft sheets underneath me. The onslaught of pleasureful moans getting ready to spill from my lips.
Suddenly I felt something pushing, trying to enter me. The odd sensation barely registering within my body as his tongue continued to pleasure me. Soon, I felt a pleasureful sensation building up. It was...delicious...it wasn't right.
"Sirus," I panted, feeling myself getting ready to explode. "Sirus!" His name spilled from my lips before I could take it back as his ministrations pushed me off the cliff. I was falling into bliss.
"Beautiful," I could hear his deep voice rumble as I felt his lips skimming over my thighs while I put a hand over my face...trying to get myself together. I could then feel him pushing my legs open wider. That alarmed me.
I uncovered my face...and my heart began to beat wildly. He was hovering over me, his...his manhood incredibly to close to my womanhood. It was thick...and long...and nothing that I wanted inside of me.
"I...I," stuttered as I tried to sit up. He gently pushed me back down. His eyes were glowing. Challenging me to....to defy him.
"Relax, please," he said softly as he gripped himself in his hand, and then pushed into me with one large thrust.
I cried out. It felt as if he had ripped me in two. As if he had shoved a searing hot item into my delicate womanhood. "Please...please don't move," I whimpered as he growled, nuzzling my neck. "Sirus...please...I don't like this," I said as he began to move within me. His lips tried to find mine, and I refused him. "Sirus," I sobbed.
He stopped and pulled out of me. There was blood on his member. I looked at him in relief. "Thank you..." I said shakily as I tried to get up. He grabbed me. "What are you doing?" I yelled at him as he flipped me over. "Please... no...Sirus...no!" I cried as he opened my legs from behind.
He entered me gently, but it still hurt. "I hate you," I cried as he paused.
"I love you," he growled, in his gravelly voice. He began to pound into mercilessly. Every time my cries of pain got to loud...his fingers...claws would dig into my hips.
I closed my eyes, my body shaking with each horrible thrust he made. I had stopped crying out at one point, knowing it wouldn't affect him.
When he stopped...and spilled his seed into me, I collapsed, with him on top of me.
I was shaking. My body hurt. He was ontop of me. I was afraid he would do it again. I couldn't...go through that again.
"Are you alright?" He asked me as he rolled off of me , and turned me around. Facing him.
"No," I whimpered, as he pulled myself against him. I burst into tears, as he held me tighter, kissing my forehead.
"I had to claim you," he said gently kissing me again. " I tried to make it as quick as possible," he told me as he held me tightly against his body. He was trying to justify hurting me. That made even more angrier.
"I will never love you. I'll only feel hate," I whispered as he seemed to just kiss me more. He was insane.
"You will learn...I do care for you, Esme. I know you will learn to care for me."
"If I could kill you...I would. I would push the blade right here," I said softly, my fingers tracing over the taut flesh of his chest. Where his heart was.
"Go to sleep, Esmerelda."
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SO. I didn't necessarily want him to just completely dominate her and just not care about her body. Of course no means no so in my eyes he still did violate and assault her but I didn't want it to be so...I don't know.
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