-Connie-
It's been three months since Dad left. Everything was back to normal. Joey and Riley were still happy together, not that i minded anymore. I was pretty happy with Randall. Everything was great.
Except for one thing, Randall.
Randall have been avoiding me for the past month. Whenever i tried asking him out, he would just down right reject me, saying that he had plans and stuff. I do understand that he is busy since he takes rather content heavy modules that require a lot or memory work, but can't he spare just a minute to talk?
Thankfully, being a mentally strong woman (not), i still managed to distract myself by studying two times as hard for my finals. Good thing it paid off. My grades came out great. Although my examinations have ended, Randall's have not. Thus, my suffering continued.
But today was the 22 of October which marks the day of Randall's final paper. By the time i woke up, he had already left for school so i texted him an hour early before his paper to wish him luck and ask him if he would like to go out for dinner.
He didn't give me any reply though which was normal. He should be doing some last minute studying by now.
I laid on my bed and began to roll around due to boredom. I could call Joey but she told me she was going to have a date with Riley today.
Wouldn't want to butt in and interrupt anything now, do i?
Say....It's been a while since i went to Randall's room. Since I've been forcibly removed from his room every time i tried going in for the past 1 month, i deserve to take a little peep. We are a couple, he shouldn't have anything to hide from me anyways.
I jumped off my bed and opened my door. I took a few steps forward and stopped in front of his door.
Just a peep wouldn't hurt right?
I twisted his doorknob and opened his door. Immediately, my head turned to the huge pile of dirty clothes at the corner of the room.
Well, it was final's period and it is Randall.
I picked up some of the books that had been thrown all over the floor and gathered them in my arms. I placed them back on his shelf and on his table.
Jesus, does this boy not know how to use a bin?
I sighed and began picking up all the litter on the floor.
Hmm, crumpled up notes... Maybe he still needs them?
I picked up the crumpled paper and started opening them up to check if it was waste or notes. The mountain of notes on his desk proceeded to collapse and fall onto the floor.
Thank you for making this even harder.
I kneeled down and started to gather them. I put them back into a pile, lifted it back up and put it on his desk again.
Hey.. What is this?
A pink colour note was protruding out of his laptop. I opened his laptop carefully and pulled the note out.
"I, Blake Thompson, will give Randall $1000 if he is able to make the first girl he takes interest in his."
What the... hell?
The first girl he took interest in was me which means....I was toyed with. Randall was never serious about me. He knew i was an easy prey and came for me, just so that he could get the money?
I then felt knives stabbing my heart over and over again. I wanted to cry but i couldn't. Tears just wouldn't come out.
"Hey baby, what are you doing there?"
I turned around and saw the last person i wanted to see. I shoved the piece of paper into my back pocket swiftly before he could see it or question me about it.
"Nothing, there was a stench coming from your room so i had to come and pack up." I lied, clenching my fist and biting my lip down.
I was a coward, i couldn't bring myself to confront him about it.
"I called and texted you a couple of times but you didn't answer me. I got worried,"
Why would you be? Do you really care about me or is it some trick to make my heart melt?
"I saw your text about the date. What do you think we should have?" He put his bag down on his bed and sat down. "Come here," He patted the space next to him.
"I... have to go prepare since we are going out and all. And why don't you decide since it's your last paper... We should go celebrate or something." I made my way out and back to my room. "See you later at 7 then."
Coward.
I dropped to the floor the moment my door slammed shut. Everything felt so unreal. I should have known all these were too good to be true. This ain't a Cinderella story, neither was I Cinderella.
I took the paper out from my pocket and read it repeatedly. I wish this note was a lie but at the bottom was Randall's signature.
I could recognise it because i saw it on a detention slip before. It had a unique R in it.
No doubt in my mind, that was definitely his signature. If he really did sign it, does it mean it is still ongoing? And all his gestures and love were just lies?
Unbelievable. What a fool i have been.
I dragged my body over to my bed and got under the covers. This time, tears escaped the corner of my eyes slowly. They should have been tears of regret, regret that i have spend so much time and effort on him but instead, they were tears of genuine sadness.
Please, let it be a lie.
I really did love him and all the things i have done for him were out of love, from my heart.
Breathe.
I wiped my tears and placed my hand on my chest, breathing deeply due to my clogged nose. I kicked the covers off and sat up.
No, i should confront him. It might be just a prank.
I told myself as i got ready for perhaphs our final date. I slipped on a pair of jeggings and a simple black crop top. I looked at the note once more before shoving it into my back pocket.
"Hey, you're all dressed up tonight." Randall said the moment i stepped into the living room. My cheeks began to get redder. I immediately shook it off and took a seat next to him. He hooked his arm around my shoulder and snuggled his face at the nape of my neck. "You look really beautiful tonight."
"Don't you think we should be going by now?" I shifted away uncomfortablely, mainly because it felt so wrong but yet, i want more.
"We don't have to go out tonight, you know?" He pulled me closer again and kissed my neck, making me blush again.
"W-what about dinner?"
"I'll cook."
"But my mother will be home,"
I cannot give in to temptation.
"She said she's on a business trip remember?"
No. We can't do this. Stop. Stop.
"STOP!" I screamed, once again tears streaming down my cheeks uncontrollably. He let me go, surprised.
"Baby, I'm sorry if i rushed things and made you feel uncomfortable..." He reached for my hand but i pulled it away instantly. "Baby?"
"I'm not scared of you,"
I am scared that all this is going to be a lie.
"Say, tell me..." I fished the note out of my pocket. "What is this...?"
Please don't look surprised.
His eyes widened in utter shock.
No, so it is true.
"Where did you get that?" He snatched the paper from me and crumpled it. "Baby, look, i can explain."
"Is it true?"
Please. Tell me its not.
"Yes, but.." He got up and began approaching me but i backed away. Each time he took a step towards me, i took a step back.
"Why?" I cried, "Why must you play with me like that? Was everything we have done and been through just so that you could prove i loved you?"
I didn't want to hear what he had to say. It would just break my heart even more so i ran. I ran up to my room and locked my door behind me before Randall could get to me.
The moment i locked the door, my legs lost strength and i collapsed onto the floor, resting my back on the door. Randall started pounding on my door. The more he pounded, the more my heart broke.
"Please Connie. Hear me out, please."
Please go away.
I brought my knees to my chest and hugged them tightly.
"Connie, please. Open the door. I won't leave until you open this door."
Go away.
"I will wait till you come out,"
The pounding stop, so did my tears. I must have cried so much today that there weren't any left in my system.
I'm such an idiot. Someone like me don't deserved to be loved. I was naive, easily influenced and a love-virgin. Of course to him i would an easy target and yet i actually fell for it.
Great job, Connie. Great job.
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Well that kinda went downhill~