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Chapter 4
So finding one friend proved to be harder than I thought. Seriously I thought that it would be a piece of cake! I’m practically a walking bottle full of sunshine, who wouldn’t want to be friends with me?
Obviously no one, that’s why you haven’t got any, The annoying voice in my head said to me.
‘Oh who are you to talk? No one likes you anyway!’ I rudely thought back. Oh god, I’m talking to myself, maybe there is a reason I can’t find any friends. I shook my head, and headed to my locker.
For some reason I felt a pair of eyes on me, and I turned around to see a girl in glasses staring at me. I gave her a confused look, to which she said to me, “You were just, talking to yourself. I wanted to see if you were okay…” she began. She looked nervous, scared even.
Oh come on, who’s afraid of the big bad wolf?
I just love that expression! I have a thing for werewolf stories and movies, I always have. I suppose everyone has a fairy tale and legend thing they like. Mine just happened to be wolves.
“I said that out loud?” I replied to her after having another inner conversation with myself. Maybe I was crazy.
That’s what I’m trying to tell you! The voice in my head taunted.
“WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP?” I screamed back.
The girls eyes widened and she shrunk away from me.
I said that out loud again didn't I?
“Y-Yes…you did.” She stuttered.
“Oh god sorry, sometimes my thoughts get away from me.” I tried to reason with her, remembering the promise I made to Noah.
One friend.
The girl was still standing there, much to my surprise. If I was talking to some wacko who talks to herself and then randomly screams at me, I would have backed out immediately.
“It’s okay.” She said, still unsure of herself.
“I’m Nova.” Introducing yourself was the best way to start a friendship, right? It’s been forever since I made friends, and I doubt the third grade methods would work in high school.
“I’m Hanna.” She said to me, look insecure. I wasn’t sure why though; she was beautiful just like everyone else in this school. She had dark brown hair and vivid blue eyes, and her tan skin matched her angelic face. I was kind of jealous of her beauty.
I was the only one who didn’t fit in that beautiful category.
“So here’s the thing, Hanna. My brother, Noah, is worried about me and said I have to make a friend in this hell hole that you people call a school. So, would you do me the honor?” I seriously had to work on being approachable. One week of being a loner and I sound like a complete, bitch. As much as I didn’t want to admit that, it was true.
“Sure, we could be friends. I don’t have very many friends either…” She said unsurely. Then her face lit up, like she just realized something I said, “Your brother is Noah? As in Noah West? The new hottie with a body?”
“Yeah, that’s him all right. Why? Do you have a crush on him or something?” I asked skeptically.
She blushed, not needing to give me an answer.
“Well stick with me Hans, and I can help you win over my brother.” I said as she lit up with hope.
“Yay!” she screamed and hugged me. “I have to get to math now...” she began.
“I have math to, let’s go Hans.” I gave her a nickname. She didn’t seem to mind. I also didn't know how I hadn't noticed her in my math class. Was I really that spacey?
Yes. My inner voice replied.
Man I hate her, she's such a bitch.
Back to my other thoughts on Hanna, she looked like my brothers type; smart and beautiful. I wondered what made her so insecure.
As I went about my day, getting to know Hanna some more I found out why. In a school full of beautiful people, someone was going to be less beautiful than the other, and with no one to make that decision, Amber made the decision for everyone, picking Hanna as her victim. Nothing was wrong with Hanna, she was smart, funny, outgoing, and she even dated the most popular boy at school, Nick Spears. Yes, Derek’s older brother Nick. But whatever Amber wants, she gets. She wanted Nick, so she spread horrid rumors around about Hanna. Rumors so horrid, that I wasn’t even going to repeat them after she told me. So Nick, being a boy who believes anything he is told, left Hanna for Amber. They didn’t last long though, rumor has it Amber’s family and Nick’s have been rivals for ages, so they broke it off. But that didn't stop Amber from taunting Hanna, in fact, she only got worse. So Hanna decided to suck it up and take it, saving herself from fighting daily.
Hanna also informed me that Derek hates Amber, but Amber has something on him. So Derek is pretty much Amber’s lapdog. “So you might want to watch out, Nova, Derek could be doing dirty work for Amber, whether he wants to or not.” She warned me at lunch. We sat alone at a table together, and I could see Noah looking at me with a smug look on his face; happy that I had made my one friend.
I shrugged at his looks, thinking of Derek, who I hadn’t seen all week, and I hadn’t planned on seeing him either, at least that’s what I told myself. “I don’t think I will have a problem with Derek, Hanna.” She looked at me doubting that, “He only talked to me Monday, and has been M.I.A. ever since.” I further explained. She nodded her head, as she took another bite of her pizza. Did I forget to mention that Ravenwood High has like the best foods? I was going to gain a few pounds this year.
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Derek’s P.O.V.
No matter what I did I found myself thinking about Nova. She just wouldn’t get out of my head! I couldn’t even figure out why. She wasn’t like every other girl, that’s for sure. She didn’t swoon for me, like all the others did. It kind of hurt my ego. I mean, every girl likes me, loves me even. I wasn’t afraid to show any of them a good time. I couldn’t risk having a girlfriend, not with my secret. But I could have a one night stand here or there. I sighed, Nick got everything he wanted, he had a girlfriend, plenty of friends, and no one messed with him. I, on the other hand, chose to be selective with my friends, only keeping a handful. I couldn’t risk getting close to people, and not being able to tell them the truth. The whole truth about who I am, it was enough to make them not want to be friends with me anyway.
That’s why I couldn’t get close to Nova, as much as I wanted to.
Wait.
She was just a stupid girl! Why am I trying to get to know her? I even stayed home all week just to clear my head, and to stay away. This is so frustrating… I don’t know who I am anymore. What happened to staying away from people, for their own good? I was feared around school, and only slutty girls got through my barrier, but only for sex; nothing more, nothing less. But Nova wasn’t a slut, in fact, she turned down my charm, no girl ever did that. But I had some effect on her; I could hear her heart beat speed up when I was around her. So I either scared her, or she thought I was good looking.
I was good looking though. I was downright sexy, and not afraid to admit it! But why didn’t Nova say that to me? God, I need a smoke, I’m starting to sound like a girl!
I walked outside of my house and pulled a pack of cigarettes out of my back pocket, lighting one up. I knew it didn’t affect me that much, but it slightly calmed me, and added to my ‘not to be messed with’ aura. I took a deep breath, inhaling the vicious but sweet smoke, letting it roll down my throat, and into my lungs. It wasn’t helping as much as it should. Damn. That’s when I heard footsteps behind me. I sighed, turning around. My eyes grew wide with shock.
“What, are you not happy to see me?” the all too familiar voice laced with venom, said to me.
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