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(A/n I am so sorry for the long update. I have been really busy. I have also had a little bit of writers block. I feel like I am back on track to be able to at least post once a week now. Thanks for all the votes. I hope to continue this story with you. You guys are awesome. This will also be the last chapter in Matty or Sarah's POV. After this, they will still be mentioned but I am only going to show Reagan and Kenzie's POV )
Matty POV
Every since we all got that dreadful call that Reagan was in the hospital things have been haywire. Seeing your best friend in a coma and not knowing if she will ever come out of it really puts a damper on your emotions. I realize that the way I acted that night in the garden was really wrong. I am not like that. When I saw them I should have either made my presence known or snuck back out of there. Seeing them that night though showed me that what I feel for Kenzie is nothing compared to what Reagan feels for her. I had my chance with Kenzie and I blew it. I should have fought harder for them to be together. Down deep in my heart I knew that they were good together I just never wanted to believe it.
After Kenzie found out she was left in charge of Andre Estates, I hardly ever saw her. In a way all this distance between us has helped me come to all these thoughts. It doesn't help either that I have started to have feelings for Sarah. Sarah and I are at the hospital almost everyday together and have gotten really close. Neither one of us have crossed a line yet though. It's nice to have someone to talk to that actually listens. I still feel like I am betraying Reagan by having these feelings. Every time I look in Sarah's eyes I get lost in them. Some times I have to force myself to look away. I really hope that Reagan will wake up. Everyday we look for any sign that she is waking up and every night we go home disappointed. After six months of her being in that coma the doctors had even given up hope.
They wanted us to go on and decide to pull the plug. I knew that Kenzie was the one with the final say so and I wasn't sure she would ever be able to make that decision. Over time I could see the change that this wreck has put in her. She is no longer pushing her love for Reagan away. She has started embracing it. If only, she had the guts to do this before now. If Reagan hadn't of woken up yesterday I'm not so sure how much longer I could have sat in the hospital to watch my best friend rot away. As Reagan came awake, I knew she was extremely disoriented. She kept glancing around like she was trying to figure everything out at once. The doctors were amazed she was awake.
After giving her a few minutes, they started asking her a few questions. My heart fell when all she could remember was our teenage years. It fell even more when she started yelling at me after I told her who I was. After I went home, I sat up thinking about what we were going to do. Reagan really believes she is a teenager. Maybe, she remembered somethings over night. As I walked towards her room I was really anxious. A part of me kept saying turn around, don't go in there.
Why does bad stuff keep happening to Reagan? Since we were 16 years old anything that could have happened bad for her, it has. Losing her parents, losing Kenzie to me, then losing her totally for her to once again be lost to me, and now this wreck that took her memories away. I feel like such a douche for being the cause of Reagan's heartbreak. I can't believe that she could still put a smile on her face every day and make it seem like nothing has happened. I have so much respect for my best friend. I just wish that she once again had all her memories.
Before opening the door to Reagan's room, I stood there looking at her through the small glass window. She looks so deep in thought. I try to put myself in her shoes wondering how I would feel if I was being told that I lost track of so much time. Would I be doing the same thing she is? Would I have freaked out like she did? God, all this is too much to handle. Finally after taking a few minutes to calm my thoughts, I open the door and take cautious steps into the room. As Reagan looks towards me, I can't help but to feel scared of what to say. I didn't want to freak her out again. After running my hands through the back of my hair I stutter, "H-hey Reagan. How are you doing today?"
She looks at me with her eyebrow raised half way before saying, "When did you become so nervous to speak to me?" She gives me a mischievous smile before laughing. Seeing her laugh like that makes be join in with her breaking the nervousness I had before walking into the room. After I calmed my laughs down I was finally able to say, "I just didn't want you to freak out on me like you did yesterday." She gives me another smile before saying, "I'm really sorry about that. I have something to tell you though. I need you to please bare with me and try to understand what I am about to tell you." Looking Reagan in the eye, I can see how serious she is being. I walk over to the chair that is beside her bed before sitting in it and responding, "Okay, I'm all ears."
She turns to look me in the eye before saying, "After you left last night, Kenzie and me kissed. She didn't want to but I begged for it. Once the kiss ended, we both went to sleep. Over night all my memories came back to me." I leaned up in my chair upon hearing her tell me that to rejoice with her, but she holds her hand up and continues. "Hold on. I know I should be happy and wanting to tell everyone right now but I only want you to know. Kenzie must not find out. Can you promise me that?"
I jump up out of my seat angrily upon hearing her ask me that before yelling, "WHY NOT? DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED SHE HAS BEEN FOR YOU? Reagan, this is the stupidest thing you have ever asked me to do." I can't even look at her, I am so pissed. I start to pace back and forth trying to calm myself. I stop pacing and face the wall when I hear Reagan say, "Matty, it's not what you think. All this made me realize that I am in love with her more than anything. I can't keep pushing her away. I definitely can't keep stringing Sarah along anymore. After Kenzie left this morning, I sat here debating if I should tell her or not. I want her to be happy that I have my memories back but when she finds out you know as well as I do everything will go back to the way it was. I can't do that anymore. Right now, she is letting her emotions run her. That's the Kenzie I need right now."
She takes a moment to sip some water before continuing with, "I am going to tell her. I just need a few weeks to come up with a perfect plan that way I can finally have her. I don't want to go another day without being able to wake up beside her and call her my own." I hear what she is saying and it makes me happy that she is finally willing to fight, but I still think she is being unfair to Kenzie. She has been the one that has worried more for her. "I understand everything you are saying, Reagan, but why can't we go ahead and tell Kenzie you remember everything? I don't see why we have to keep that from her?"
I finally go sit back in the chair before she says, "If we tell her, Kenzie will go back to being her old self. I don't want that to happen right now. She will push me away and not give me a chance to be close to her. Keeping this away from her will ensure that she will continue to worry about me. I need her to be that way." I start to understand what she is saying hearing all that. The stress I had for the last 24 hours finally goes away knowing that I don't have to walk on eggshells anymore. Reagan is finally awake and she remembers everything.
When I think about Sarah, I start to feel guilty though? Which makes me ask, "So, What happens with the whole Sarah situation?" She bits her lip like she is in deep thought before responding, "I haven't really thought about that yet. I know I need to tell her as soon as possible. I don't want to hurt her though. She has been there for me when no one else was." Should I tell her about my feelings for Sarah or should I leave it alone for now? The guilt is eating away at me so I quickly say, "Reagan, I have something I need to tell you." She looks at me with a worried look before nodding her head for me to go ahead and tell her. "So while you were in your coma and Kenzie was running Andre Estates, Sarah and I stayed here at the hospital a lot with each other." I stop before barely whispering, "I have started to develop feelings for her." She leans over towards me before asking, "What was the last thing you said?" God, this is so hard to admit to her. I nervously run my hand on the back of my neck before saying, "I have started to develop feelings for her"
She sits up in the bed before she starts freaking out and saying, "Oh my gosh. Matty, this is big. Since Kenzie, you have never looked at anyone else. I definitely need to talk to Sarah as soon as possible. You need to explore these feelings you are having for her. I don't know how she is going to take our breakup or if she is having feeling for you as well but if she is this can be your chance for true happiness. I am so happy for you Matty." I never thought that hearing this would make Reagan happy. Wow, this day turned out so much different then I thought it was going to. After all the serious talk was over, me and Reagan just laughed and talked about the good old times we had growing up.
Sarah finally showed up a few hours later. She walked into the room nervously. When she looked at me, I couldn't help but to smile up at her. She is so beautiful. I can see why Reagan was with her. She just has this aura that pulls you right in. I knew that Reagan needed to have a talk with her so I got up before telling both of them that I needed to run home to check on some things for work. Sarah looks at me with a "You just going to leave me with someone who doesn't know me" look. I give her another smile before whispering, "It will be okay. Just go sit and talk with her. I will talk to you later." After, I walked out of the room. I watched Sarah walk to the chair beside the bed before I turned and walked out of the hospital. I wonder what things are about to change?
Sarah POV
Six months ago, I thought I was going to marry Reagan and we were going to live happily ever after. One dreadful car wreck has changed that life so much. The first month I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. The second month I started to lose hope in Reagan ever waking up. I wanted to stop coming to the hospital at that point. Matty talked me out of doing that though. I don't know what it is about Matty, but I am drawn to him now. Crying on his shoulder and having him close has done something to me.
When I think of Reagan now, I only think of her as a friend whose in a coma. She is supposed to be my fiancée and the feelings I had for her are slowly dwindling away. I beat myself up everyday because of this. It doesn't help that I have developed feeling for Matty either. His smell, his touch, and his voice are so comforting. I cannot believe that I have feelings for my fiancées best friend. What the hell is wrong with me? I know I can't do anything about these feelings. Everyday that Reagan doesn't wake up my feelings get stronger. Sometimes Matty will do and say things that makes me feel like he is feeling the same way.
After Reagan woke up, all hell broke loose. Everyone was bewildered. What broke everyone's heart was when she started asking for her parents. God, Matty was so torn apart. I just wanted to hold him and never let him go. I couldn't help but to wonder what the hell is wrong with me. Reagan was awake but I was only worried about him. I should have been worried about Reagan not remembering me. I wasn't though. Even on the way to the hospital the next day, I was only worried about Matty. As I walked into Reagan's room I couldn't help to be nervous. I didn't know what to expect.
I calmed down as soon as Matty smiled at me. His smile is so sexy. When he got up to leave I couldn't help but to give him a "you are leaving me with someone who doesn't remember me" look. He just smiles and reassures me before he leaves. I shake my head of any thoughts before walking and sitting in the chair beside Reagan's bed. After a few minutes of silence that is bugging me, I finally ask, "So, how are you feeling?" She gives me a smile before saying, "I'm actually doing a lot better today." I watch different emotions go across her face before I notice one that I could always pick up on.
She remembers everything, today. I don't know how I know but I just really can sense that she does. "You remember everything now, don't you?", I finally ask. She looks at me astounded before commenting, "You always could read me like no one else could. It stills catches me off guard. I could never lie to you even if I wanted to." She gives me a smile before saying, "I was always good at reading you too. Something has changed with you these last six months. You don't look at me like you used to. I see guilt in your eyes. What are you feeling guilty about?"
This woman knows me too well. I couldn't help but to laugh at her comment before answering, "I know we are engaged and I feel bad about everything. I gave up on you ever waking up. I tried to stop myself from feeling that way, but each day made it harder to ignore until I kind of forced myself to believe you never would wake up. With those feelings in me, I started to fall for Matty. God, I know this is so messed up. He is your best friend." I started crying at this point forcing myself to stop talking. I could hear Reagan shift in the bed before I felt her her hand underneath my chin forcing me to look up at her, "Sarah, I'm not upset. How can I be? I had an accident. I could have died. You had to take comfort from someone. You have always known that I had feelings for Kenzie yet you were okay with that. I should have never asked you to marry me in the first place. My heart has never been mine to give to you. I think in a way your heart knew this."
She pauses before continuing, "I thought that I could give you all the happiness in the world but all this proves that I would have never been enough for you. I am glad that Matty was there for you. I am also glad that you fell for him. I don't think there is anyone else out there in the world that will be able to take care of and love you like he can." As I took the time to process everything Reagan had just told me, I couldn't help but to jump up from my seat and hug her. She is so caring about everyone around her. I don't think I have ever seen her truly get upset about anything. She is always putting everyone else before her. She just held me and let me cry as I figured out what to say to her.
Finally I was able to respond, "Thank you Reagan. I have been so worried about what you would say it was sending be into a deep depression. I have always known Kenzie had your heart. I seriously thought that I could make you fall for me though. You were always pushing your love for her away. I figured that if I stayed and I gave you the love and attention you deserved that you would eventually develop feelings for me. I should have put a stop to this relationship when you cheated on me with her. That should have been my first clue that you would never love me like I wanted you to. Before the night of the wreck, I had never really been around Matty for long. That night I gave him a hug and I felt goosebumps and sparks. In a way it was like love at first touch. Since then, the feelings have only gotten stronger."
She gives me a big squeeze before saying, "You know before you came in here I was worried that I was fixing to break your heart. I was going to tell you I wanted to break off the wedding because I am fixing to fight for Kenzie. I am so glad that I am actually setting you free to follow your heart. It makes me happy. Just between me and you though Matty feels the same way. He was feeling so guilty about the way he was feeling about you. You need to go find him and y'all need to sit down and talk about your feelings for one another."
I immediately started smiling from her comment. He feels the same way. I feel so complete hearing all this. I could feel myself start to blush just thinking about finally being able to be with him. "Aww, are you thinking about him", Reagan teasingly replies. I couldn't help but to hide my face and playful slap her shoulder before saying, "Stop teasing me." I feel her body start to shake before she starts laughing. She finally calms down and starts running her hand up and down my back.
The silence and the rubbing gently starts to put me to sleep. Before I finally fall asleep, I hear Reagan say, "I will always love you Sarah. I know it wasn't the love that you wanted or needed but you have became my best friend. I will always be here for you." I fall asleep with a smile on my face from her words. When I woke up a couple hours later, I am still in her arms. She is still asleep. I lay back down and watch her sleep wondering if things had played out different would this had been the kind of relationship we would have had. I really want to say it would have been.
I tried rolling out of her arms without waking her up to look at the time. As soon as I moved, she woke up. She always was a light sleeper. I give her a smile which she returns. As I reach in my purse to pull out my phone, she says, "So I have told Matty and you that I have my memory back but I need you to promise me something? I need y'all to go along with me still not having it. Also, I need you to pretend for a few more weeks that we are still engaged. I know it's a lot to ask for. I have been coming up with a plan to fight for Kenzie." It startles me that she wants to keep this from Kenzie. I guess I can go along with the plan though. She said it's just a couple more weeks. Plus, even if Matty and I do feel the same way he is still engaged to Kenzie.
I nod my head at her before saying, "I can do that but what's your plans?" She gives me a smile before saying, "I will tell both you and Matty after you guys have talked. You need to go get all these feelings off your chest. Afterwards both of you guys come talk with me and we will plan how to do this together." I lean over and give her another hug before rushing out of the hospital. I pick up my phone and look for Matty's name before calling him. When he picks up I say, "Hey. We need to talk. Where are you?" After he tells me he is at home, I jump in my car.
Smut Scene (GirlxGuy scene if you don't want to read please skip)
I am currently standing in front of his door. I am so nervous what if he rejects me. I have never worried about this. I take a deep breathe before finally ringing the doorbell. I watch the door slowly open. As our eyes meet, I couldn't help but to jump into his arms before finally connecting our lips in a slow kiss. He immediately starts kissing me back. My whole body feels like it is on fire. He pushes me back against the door before kissing me more passionately. My whole body erupts with goosebumps. I don't ever want this kiss to end. I wrap my legs around his waist. I can feel how hard he is through our clothes. It makes me moan into his mouth. God, he is so delicious. I feel his hands start to run up my sides. The touch sends chills down my whole body.
His touch sends me into overdrive. I know we should be talking but I don't want to stop. I take my hands from around his neck. I slowly start to unbutton his shirt. I let out another moan as my hand comes into contact with his skin. He grabs me by the waist and carries me to his couch. He quickly takes my shirt and bra off before laying me down on the couch. He stops kissing me only to resume kissing down my neck. When he finally makes his way to my nipples, he takes one into his mouth slowly teasing it with is tongue. My breathing is so sporadic now. I finally can't take anymore torture. I grab at his pants before quickly unbuttoning and pushing them out of the way. As his member falls out I can't help, but to run my hand along the whole length of him. He lets out a groan before ripping my pants off of me.
He immediately puts his hand in between my legs. When he feels how wet I am, he lets out a moan himself. I finally pull him towards me and kiss him again. Now that we are both naked I can feel his member rubbing against me making me want him even more. I finally whisper in his ear, "Stop teasing me. I am ready to feel you inside of me." He lets out a low groan before positioning himself at my entrance. He slowly starts to push inside of me. I feel so complete with him inside of me. He slowly starts to pull out of me before quickly pushing back into me. I wrap my legs around his waist to pull him closer to me. As he picks up his pace I can't help but to start moaning more. He feels so good inside of me.
I thought I was loving the pace he had set until he change up his thrust. With each thrust, he took he was hitting my g-spot. "Oh god, Baby, please don't stop", I was finally able to moan out. My words must have turned him on because his pace picked up. Before long, I could feel myself starting to tighten up down there, "Baby, I am so close." I felt his fingers start to brush against my clit. The tightening in my stomach got stronger. My toes started to curl and my whole body started to jerk as I came. I felt him let go inside of me at the same moment. We laid in the same position not speaking trying to calm our beating hearts. As he slowly pulled himself out of me, I let out another moan.
(Scene over with. Please don't hate me but I had to do this. If it's not good I'm sorry. I am a lesbian. It will be the only one for Sarah and Matty I write.)
After fifteen minutes, I was finally able to control my breathing enough to say, "Matty, these last few months have been hard on all of us. In that time, me and you became close. Everyday I started to fall more and more in love with you. I love you." I looked over to Matty to see him sporting a smile before he said, "I love you too. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life showing you how much." We knew we couldn't tell anyone right this moment. We also knew that we needed to help Reagan out. Right now, we were just rejoicing in the love we had found. I will never be able to regret the fact I had met Reagan because she led me to the love of my life. Thanks, Reagan.
Matty POV
Laying with Sarah in my arms, I couldn't help but to thank Reagan for being my best friend. She had every reason not to talk me into giving Sarah a chance, but she's not that type of person. I will do everything in my power to help her win Kenzie. I don't want to see her go through life lonely anymore. Only Kenzie will ever be able to take that loneliness away. She will get her happily ever after like she has given me one. Things have changed. A lot more will change. In the end, everyone will be happily were they should be.