**** I found it hard to be in love. That's only because I didn't want to fall in love. I refused to lower my walls down. I was too afraid of getting hurt. Once you open yourself up to someone, theres a chance things won't go the way you intended, and you will be left broken. I wasn't ready to feel empty, just not yet - Megan Fox ****
STORY START****
I blinked about a thousand times, trying to see if it were my imagination. That he would disappear, but he never did.
Jacob Black was truly standing in front of me.
"Say something" He pleaded.
I gritted my teeth. "What are you doing here?"
Jacob frowned, obviously not the reaction he was hoping for. "I came to see you."
"Why? So you can yell at my face again?"
Jacob gulped. "No, I wanted to say I'm sorry."
"Okay, well you said you're sorry, now leave" I said with no emotion.
"Please, no" His eyes were watering. "I'm sorry, I-"
I cut him off. "I don't want to hear it. How did you even find out I was here?"
.....Embry !
That asshole told him, he broke his promise.
As if reading my mind, Jacob answered "Embry didn't break the promise he made with you. I asked him where you were and he told me."
I clenched my fists. "Jacob, just leave. It's over."
"Please Smiley Miley, let me explain myself" He begged.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
"Please?" He begged.
"Why should I? huh? Why the fuck should I let you explain? You didn't let me. You didn't let me explain anything ! You just assumed shit !" I yelled.
"I know and I'm sorry, but please Miley."
I was silent.
I guess he took that as a yes because he started rambling. "I'm so very sorry Miley. I should have never jumped to conclusions. I always do and I always mess up, but this time I went to far. All the things I said to you that day, were untrue. I love you Miley, with all my heart. I just said I didn't because, because I-I was hurt. I mean, I thought you chose Will over me. And I guess I didn't want to show that I was hurting. I wanted to cry Miley, but instead I replaced it with pure anger and it was wrong. If only I let you explain, maybe then we would have been together...." He trailed off.
"...But you didn't" I stated. "You called me a slut."
Jacob looked as if he wanted to kill himself. "I never meant it, and you know it. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I don't even know why I did what I did."
"I do" I said.
Jacob looked at me with a confused expression.
"You wanted this to happen because you wanted Bella in your love life."
Jacob looked at me with disbelief. "Whaat!?"
"You love Bella" I crossed my arms.
"That's what you think?" He exclaimed. "I have no feelings for Bella, I love you."
"Just stop it Jacob. I know everything. I know you kissed Bella when I was fucking attacked by Drane. I was out cold. I was dying Jacob and you were getting it on with Bella."
Jacob looked down, in guilt. He had nothing to say.
"You wouldn't have stopped if Bella didn't push you away !" I continued.
This time, Jacob whipped his head up. "What?"
"You heard me."
"Bella pushed me away? Are you fucking dumb? She was the one who kissed me" He yelled, in anger.
"She told me the truth Jacob. Don't put this act up !"
"Oh my fucking god, that lying bitch !" He yelled.
"Leave Jacob" I said.
He went back to being sad. "Smiley Miley, please forgive me. What I did was wrong. I need you."
Jacob walked closer to me, until we were very close. "I love you, Miley."
My heart pained. I obviously love Jacob. The way he says my name, turns me on.
He cupped my cheeks. "Babygirl."
I closed my eyes. Babygirl
How I longed to hear him call me that.
"I missed you."
My eyes started to water as I remembered what I've been through. I opened my eyes and saw Jacob staring at me with love.
I took his hands off of my face. "6 months Jacob. 6 fucking long months. I've been dying every fucking day without you. You don't know what I've been through. You have no fucking clue !" I yelled stepping away from him.
"I cried myself to sleep every fucking day. I didn't eat unless someone shoved it down my throat. I didn't talk, at all. All because of you. You killed me Jacob Black ! You killed me. You ripped my heart out of my chest and stomped on it. I fucking cut myself to make the pain away. I almost died. But I fucking survived. !"
Jacob was crying at this point, as I was. I looked away because I couldn't bear to see the love of my life cry.
"I-I made you cut youself? I made you committ suicide?" He asked, hurt.
"Y-yes and what hurt the most was, was that you said you didn't love me anymore" I looked down.
"I do love you Miley, I really truly do. I just-I don't know. I'm an idiot, but an idiot who will do anything for his imprint" He said.
"You're a fucking liar. You give imprint a bad name. I always thought that when a shapeshifter imprints, It'd be the strongest love ever, but I was wrong. If you thought I wanted Will, then you're wrong" I yelled.
"Please don't say my love for you isn't strong. Please" He begged with his eyes closed.
"That's how I felt Jacob. That's how I felt when you said I loved Will and not you. It hurts" I said.
He opened his eyes. "Miley-"
"Will is a nice guy. If it weren't for him, I swear I would have died. He loves me more than you Jacob !"
Jacob's face hardened and he looked as if he was about to shapeshift.
Instead of stopping, I continued. "You wanna know something Jacob? Will came here, he wanted to see me. I didn't want him to leave so I asked him to stay. He's living in my house, that's how much I want him here with me !"
He started to shake but I was nowhere near stopping. "You always thought I had something with Will when I never did, but guess what? Now I do. I love him. He cares about me. He makes me feel like I'm wanted. He doesn't just throw me away, or accuse me of fucking someone. You never did love me, did you Jacob?"
Jacob stopped shaking. "Y-you love him?"
I nodded, not leaving eye contact.
"You want to be with-with him?" He was crying and it hurt to see him like that.
I looked down, blinking away my tear. "I love you Jacob."
"I-I love you too Smiley Miley, please forgive me" He said.
I looked up and looked him hard in the eyes. forgive me? "Just leave me the fuck alone. I'm serious Jacob Black. I don't want to see your face again, just like you didn't want to see mine."
I started walking away but he stopped me by saying "I thought you'd greet me with a kiss if I came knocking on your door."
I stopped in my tracks and turned around.
I remember saying that after the fail dinner with my parents. I meant every word, I still do, but...
Jacob was looking at me with every hope.
I sighed. "Technically, you're not knocking on my door, so it doesn't count. Just-just leave Jacob Black."
With that, I ran back into my house.
I was wiping my tears as I bumped into a shirtless Will.
"Miley, what's wrong?" He asked.
I shook my head and ran past him.
"What happened?" George asked.
I glared at him. "Adam's here, my ass !"
I ran into my room and locked the door.
Greaat, I was back to how I was before.
*
"C'mon Miley, open the door" Will said for the billionth time. I've been locked up in my room for an hour and a half and all throughout the time, Will's been knocking on my door, trying to get me to open it.
"Nooo, leave me here to diee" I wiped my tears.
"Would you rather be alone, or with me?"
"Alonee."
"Ouch, that hurts" Will said.
I rolled my eyes. "You're such a loser."
"Miley, I'm dead serious. Let me in, or I will break this damn door" Will threatened.
"I don't care, I'm not opening it up" I crossed my arms.
"Fine, but don't say I didn't warn you" Will said. "1...2...."
I sighed and got up to opened the door.
"3......!!!" Will yelled.
As soon as I opened the door, Will came flying in. He banged against the wall.
I bursted out laughing. He actually wanted to break the door !
I was holding on to my stomach, literally laughing my ass off.
Will groaned and held on to his temple. When he released his grip, I saw blood.
I immediately stopped laughing. "Fuck, Will. Are you okay?" I ran to him.
"Not reaally. My head is hurting" He admitted honestly.
"Sit on the bed, I'll bring in the first aid kit."
I helped him cleaned his cut. After I was done, I stared at him. "You really are an idiotic loser."
"Thanks" Will rolled his eyes.
"Did you really think you could break the door?"
He shrugged. "I needed to know that you're okay."
Awww.
I looked down. "I'm really not. Jacob's here. He just made everything bad again."
Will sighed and hugged me tightly. "Don't worry, I'm here for you."
"That's what I'm afraid of" I said quietly.
He pulled away and looked at me. "What do you mean?"
"I know that your here for me and I don't want that because you love me so much and I know I won't love you the same. Since I was away from Jacob for a long time, I gained feelings for you. Those feelings were always there, but I didn't realize until you made me. But now Jacob's back, which means all my love for him is back. Everything that happened between us since we were 6, is baack. I can't forget it now that it hit me the second time. I'm so sorry, Will."
Will stared at me with soft eyes. "It's okay Miley. I know you love Jacob and I know it's always going to be him. When I gained strong feelings for you and started to love you, I didn't expect you to love me back. But you do, and you don't know how much that means to me. As much as I want you to be with me, I know you make a better match with Jacob. You two are literally meant for each other and I don't want to come in between you guys."
I stared at him with awe. "You are the sweetest person alive."
He smiled.
"No seriously, why are you so nice?"
He shrugged. "Comes with the looks."
I grinned. "Sure does."
"You should forgive Jacob" Will said.
I shook my head. "I can't. I can't risk getting hurt. I rather just be alone."
Will reached over and wiped my tear. I took his hand and kissed it. I smiled weakily.
Will looked at me straight in the eyes. "Can- I-kiss you for the last time?"
I sighed. "I don't think it would help the situation."
"It will. When you kiss me you'll realize how much more Jacob means to you and how you feel something for him. You'd want to be with him."
"How will it help you though?"
He shrugged. "I just want to kiss you for the last time."
Before I could say anything else, Will kissed me. Like he said, Jacob's kisses mean more to me. I didn't feel any spark or electricity like I would with Jacob. But I still felt love and passion. I kissed him back as I tangled my hands in his hair.
I pulled away sooner or later. He rested his forehead to mine.
"Wow, I feel like a dirty player" I admitted. "Jacob was right. I am a slut."
"What?" Will pulled away. "He called you a slut?"
I shrugged.
"That bastard" He was mad.
"It's okay. I am."
"No you're not. You're not just randomly kissing me, you said you love me" Will said. "You are the nicest person ever."
"Thankyou" I mumbled. I grabbed on to my head. "My head hurts and I'm tired."
"You should take a nap" Will suggested.
I nodded and lay down. "Are you going to stay?"
Will smirked. "I think I'm feeling a little tired as well."
I smiled and scooted over so that Will would have space.
"Thanks for being here with me" I softly said.
"Thanks for letting me" Will answered, gently kissing my head.
*
::.:: Awwww, so sweet right? Don't you just love Will now? OH, and how do you feel about Jacob being baaack? ::.::