Sabrina
I'm two weeks overdue so now I have to be admitted to have my labor induced. I swear it feels like I never have my babies on time. Their either way too early, 2 weeks early or just late
I was so tired I could barely walk into this hospital.
Lisa: so is Chris supposed to meet you here
Sabrina: he said he would. I've been texting him but I haven't gotten a response
Lisa: ok...how you feeling
Sabrina: I'm drained my contractions are still far apart but their hitting me hard
Lisa: it'll be over soon
CJ: no more babies after this right
Sabrina: lol right...I'm surprised you wanted to come
CJ: yeah I wanna see why you cry so much and you say it hurts
Sabrina: oh no honey you can't see that until you have babies with your wife in the future
CJ: I'm not having any kids cause Chloe and Caylee are bad
Sabrina: lol oh just them?
CJ: yes I'm the good one
Sabrina: ok whatever you say Junior
Nurse: ok little we're going to get your mommy all set up and then you can come back in okay?
CJ; ok
He came and kissed my cheek
CJ; I love you ma
Sabrina: I love you too baby
Ever since his incident CJ makes sure he lets everyone know how much he loves them. It just makes me so happy
Later on
Nurse: ok here comes another contraction, hold your mummy's hand honey
CJ grabbed my hand
Sabrina: oh oh ouch ouch OMG shit!
CJ: it's ok ma just breathe
Look at my little man
He rubbed my face as my contraction passed
Nurse: ok it's over...you have a great coach
Sabrina: I do, I'm so lucky
Nurse: ok I'll be back to check on you. You just relax and you're almost there to get your epidural
Sabrina: ok thanks
She left out.
Mama Joyce is up here now and my Aunt flew in to keep the girls but still no Chris
Sabrina: thank you for being here for mommy while I go through this
CJ: is dad coming?
Sabrina: yeah, he should be here soon
CJ: I never really said sorry for being mad at you the other day. I just want you and dad together so bad but it seems like daddy is always hurting you or making you sad.
Here comes the water works
CJ: I don't want to see you crying anymore and if you and dad not being together makes you not cry then I'm ok with you raising us by yourself
Sabrina: come here
I pulled him in my arms and hugged him tight
Sabrina: I love you so so so much!
CJ: I love you too
He wiped my tears
Sabrina: you wanna take a nap with me
CJ: yes
Sabrina: come on
He laid on the bed and I just held onto my baby.
Chris
I was in Vegas getting ready for my performance at Drais. I said I wasn't gonna leave my kids but it's money to be made and plus Sabrina is still there.
Speaking of Sabrina we're back to butting heads. I was excited about going to Vegas. I needed a break from her.
It got so bad I blocked her number while I'm here. I don't need her blowing my high
I heard Trey and Tyga was in town too so they decided to stop by and see what kinda trouble we can get into
Speaking of them niggas.
I answered the door
Chris: what up
We did our handshake
Trey: nigga I thought we would never get yo ass out of VA
Chris: shit I wasn't planning on leaving but I need to clear my head and add onto this bank account!
Tyga: Sabrina cool with this
Chris: she really don't know
Trey: she past her due date and you snuck to Vegas
Chris: it ain't sneaking she ain't my girl
They both shook they head
Trey: lol nigga really
Chris: I'm for real, when everything happened with CJ we decided to just take a break
Tyga: y'all need to get y'all shit together
Chris: you could never in your life tell me anything about my relationship when you dated a 17 year old
Tyga: how long ago was that?
Trey: don't matter she was still a kid nigga lol
Chris: exactly
Tyga: well what you gone do if her water break
Chris: it's not she has to get induced and I'll be back before that don't worry I got this
Tyga: whatever nigga and she can still go into labor
Chris: she 2 weeks past her due date. He ain't coming no time soon
Trey: I can't believe yo ass got 4 kids
Chris: shit who you telling!
Tyga: you need to have some damn kids you knocking on 40
Trey: everybody ain't meant to have kids
Chris: it'll happen one day
Trey: aye did you hear from August
Chris: why the fuck would I?
Trey: I've been hearing he tryna come squash some shit
Chris: that fool ain't got shit to say to me. He a fucking joke
Tyga: you and Trey hashed shit out why you can't do it with him that was years ago
Chris: cause he was too fucking disrespectful. He kept running his mouth like a bitch and it ain't like he fucked Sabrina once it was multiple times
Trey: damn
Tyga: I ain't know that
Chris: fuck August man
Tyga: but Sabrina ain't yo girl so why do it matter now
Chris: come on now y'all know even when she ain't mine she really is mine
Tyga: y'all give me a headache with all this damn breaking up
Chris: anyway y'all ready to hit these streets.
Trey: yeah let's go
Tyga; so what we hitting up first
We all looked at each other
Chris/Trey/Tyga: strip club
Sabrina
Dr: ok push, push
Sabrina: what is going on? Why isn't he coming down its been hours!
I was in so much pain and Caleb wasn't budging. I've been at 5 centimeters for 5 hours.
Dr: I'm thinking we might have to do a c-section on you sweetie. He's just not coming down
Sabrina: no can I try walking, doing jumping jacks, something! I do not want a c-section
Dr: well you have to do something to get him up and out of there. Maybe a few laps around might help
Sabrina: ok
Dr: if not we're gonna schedule you for a c-section
Sabrina: ok
Dr: I'll be back...CJ you ready to help mommy walk
CJ: yes
Dr: ok let me grab the nurse
She left out
I just started crying
Lisa: don't cry he's going to come out
Joyce: where the hell is Chris?
Lisa: right! He should've been here it's been hours
Sabrina: I don't know and really don't care anymore. I just want my son to come out
Lisa: ok come on let's go for a walk
Everybody helped me up and we started walking.
Sabrina: I see he's gonna be the most stubborn of them all
CJ: like you
Sabrina: excuse me? I am not stubborn
CJ: dad always says you're stubborn
Sabrina: don't listen to your dad! He's stupid
Lisa: don't bash his dad in front of him
Sabrina: where is he? I don't understand why he isn't here already
Joyce: I don't know where he is, I've text him and called and no response.
Lisa: I think we should be worried. He's not answering anybody's calls or texts. We need to find out what's going on
Joyce: let me call his manager. I'll be back
Lisa: ok she's gonna handle that, let's worry about getting Caleb out.
We kept walking then my phone started ringing
Sabrina: that better be your dad
CJ: nope Jhene
He handed me my phone
Sabrina: hello
Jhene: hey bitch, is my god son here yet
Sabrina: no I'm walking him down so I can avoid a damn c-section
Jhene: have you tried squats
Sabrina: no but that's my next option if walking doesn't help
Jhene: why haven't they brought you in to induce your labor
Sabrina: bitch I am in the hospital lol. I told you the other day they were bringing me in
Jhene: oh you know I got bad memory and plus Chris is in Vegas so that's why I thought you were still at home
Sabrina: excuse me?
Jhene: yeah he's performing at Drais. Everybody's In Vegas right now
Sabrina: oh my fucking gosh! I could kill him!
Lisa: what's wrong?
Sabrina: that stupid son of a bitch
Lisa: SABRINA....CJ!
Sabrina: I'm sorry CJ but I fucking hate your dad....why would he go to Vegas! I told him that I had to go into the hospital and this is why we aren't together! I can't believe he's so stupid.
Next thing I know something popped and I grabbed my moms arm
Lisa: well that helped
Sabrina: Jhene I'll call you back
Nurse: ok let me grab you a wheelchair
Sabrina; and now these contractions are beating my ass too!
Joyce: I see your water broke
Sabrina: finally!
Joyce: so I spoke to Chris's manager and
Sabrina: he's in Vegas...I know
Joyce: why would he take his ass to Vegas!
Sabrina: you know what I don't even care! I don't care
I was lying, I cared and I was pissed! I tried to control my emotions but when you're pregnant that so impossible.
I just broke down crying. I cried so hard I ended up having to go on a breathing machine.
I was finally able to get my epidural and was able to relax and I ended up crying myself to sleep.
Later on
Joyce: sweetie
I opened my eyes
Joyce: how you feeling
Sabrina: I think I'll be pushing soon. I feel a lot of pressure
Joyce: Chris's manager is trying to get a hold of him so he can get here before you have him
Sabrina: it's too late for him to make it on time. He knew I could have him at any time but he decided to pull this stunt.
She rubbed my hair
Joyce: I'm so sorry. I don't know where I went wrong with Chris.
Sabrina: oh no please do not apologize. Chris is a grown ass man. He knows what he's supposed to do and what he shouldn't
Joyce: I can't believe he's gone miss out on his own son being born.
Sabrina: mmmm shit!!
Joyce: you ok?
Sabrina: I think he's crowning!
Joyce: ok I'll grab the doctor
They ran and got her.
Dr: Ok let's get everything ready. Here comes Caleb
Chris
Chris: 3 in the morning, you know I'm horny
I put the mic out to the crowd as they sung along
Chris: if you leaving the club, shawty hurry up. So we can get this party started and take off our clothes noooow
I danced around the stage.
I'm getting older but I still got it
Chris: we can do it all, all night girl, we can do it all, all night girl
I swear I feel so complete whenever I perform. I'm the happiest when my music is involved. I wish everything in my life made me felt like this. I would really be the happiest man on earth
After performing I went up to VIP and grabbed a bottle
Tyga: nigga you bet not get drunk tonight
Chris: you already know I'm bouta get fucked up
Trey; you on yo own then cause I ain't dragging yo ass out of here
Chris: y'all ain't no real niggas then
Trey: you just gotta control yo liquor
Chris: I'm a grown ass man I don't need y'all no way
Trey: alright cool
I popped open the bottle and started drinking that shit like it was water and in no time I was drunk and having to be helped out the club
Trey: man nigga we told you
Chris: shit a nigga stressed! My kids on my nerve, my baby momma on my nerves. Let me drink damn!
Tyga: hold up this Sabrina calling me
Chris: man fuck her and if she asked you ain't seen me
He shook his head
Tyga: hello.....wassup sis....shit chilling, just left Chris's show....it was cool....you good?.....wait a minute, you did what?....why you ain't call nobody....man, I can't believe this.....yeah hurry up and send it....alright, I'll hit you up when I get to my hotel....alright, love you....ok bye
Chris: what happened
He just looked at me
Chris: what the fuck she say nigga?
He was about to say something but he got a text
He opened it
Tyga: congrats my nigga he look just like you
Trey: oh shit
Chris: what the fuck you talking about
He passed me the phone
Chris: who baby
Tyga: yours fool
Chris; hell no! NO MAN! I didn't miss my son being born
Trey: why she ain't call
I swear it felt like I got sober so fucking fast and the guilt took straight over
Chris: I blocked her number while I was here. We been arguing and I just couldn't take it
Trey: I thought she told you when she was going to have him
Chris: yeah the 28th
Tyga: nigga!
Trey: man it is the 28th!
Chris: man fuck!
Tyga: I can't fucking believe you nigga! Why the fuck would you block her number knowing she was going into labor. You constantly doing dumb shit and I see why she don't want nothing to do with yo pathetic ass! This shit done pissed me off bro! You my brother for life Chris but you need to get yo shit together cause one day she gone leave and she ain't ever gone come back! Get yo shit together nigga!
He jumped out the truck and headed in the hotel
Trey: he right my nigga. Now you might wanna get packed fast hell and head to VA.
Chris: I am
Trey; congrats on the baby boy man
Chris: thanks.
We did our handshake then he got out.
I was so hurt. I ain't miss not one of my babies being born. How could I be so dumb man. I wanted to fucking Cry
I went up to my room and got all my shit as fast as I could.
Then I headed back home.
Sabrina
The next day
My baby is gorgeous. He looks exactly like his dad and he was so big
Sabrina: my Caleb. I can't believe I got another little boy. Your dad wanted you so bad lol and CJ finally has another boy to play with. Wait until your daddy gets here he's gonna fall in love he was so excited when he found out you were a boy
Chris: man tell me about it
I looked up and he was standing there with a bunch of stuff
Sabrina: Caleb say hi to daddy
He put the stuff down and washed his hands then came over to us. He got in bed next to me and I passed the baby to him
Chris: wassup lil man, wassup
I just watched them together. I saw a tear roll down Chris's cheek
Chris: I fucked up once again. I should've been here.
Sabrina: you know what let's not even talk about it. Our son is here, let's just focus on that
Chris: ok
Sabrina: ok
He kissed my cheek
Chris: I love you
Sabrina: I love you too
He grabbed my chin and we kissed.
It felt so weird. That was something we haven't done in a while.
I was shocked that I didn't wanna argue I'm always up for a good fight. I swear once a baby is out of you, you turn into a different person because they aren't controlling your emotions.
I was prepared to cuss him out but now I just feel like he isn't even worth my time. I'm tired of yelling about stuff that he should already know!
Ain't no more fussing and cussing. I'm done with that
And you know what they say about a girl that stops arguing with you...
I guess my love is slowly but surely fading away from Chris