I find myself missing you with such intensity that I feel sick inside. Listening to the music you used to love, I feel you in every song. Every verse, every note, every second...
I keep asking myself as time keeps moving forward...
How am I supposed to get through my next birthday without you?
How am I supposed to celebrate, knowing you died on that day? Feeling that it was my fault that you're gone?
It's such a heavy feeling.
I don't want to be another year older,knowing my age surpassed yours. I don't want it at all. I don't want to remember.
I'm scared.I'm really scared.
If this is what I'm feeling now... what will I feel when the time actually comes?
All I know is that I miss you.