Lingering Thoughts : Ebullient sorrow

Dream

  I've been rather lonely lately. My heart aches so much, that every day I have to push thoughts of you away.

Because not a single day goes by where you're not on my mind. You consume my world.

Even so I wish to see you in my dreams. 

I've never had a nightmare in my life. Even when I do dream of you... all it can be considered is a haunting memory. 

It only seems to be when im at my lowest that I see you as I sleep. You're always so gentle, so sweet. Almost like its a memory. You never speak, but I can feel you. I can feel your warmth.

These dreams are always the worst. 

When I wake up... all I want is you. I miss you more than words can describe. I miss your presence in this world. Even if I had never spoken to you again... if only you were still out there... I would have been happy just to know you still lived.

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.  Words that repeat without rest. I miss you.