Tomoka stood in the kitchen and kept looking at me with cold eyes.
„Tomoka? Why are your eyes so cold?"
She looked frightened... like if something from that envelope drained all her life force.
„Tomoka, you make me worried."
I was shouting at her, but she was like a stone.
„Tomoka!"
Suddenly Tomoka moved and headed to her laptop and so I was following her. She put a flash disk into it and watched the screen, where a video started to play. I watched it too...
There was a scene with both of us sitting on a bed. Since we were there just a few days ago, I recognized that apartment immediately. Tomoka talked about kissing and then I sprang up and bit her lips.
(Oh!)
But me in the video didn't stop and kept kissing and biting Tomoka's lips... until she gave Tomoka one long kiss. It was not just longer than our standard kiss, her lips kept moving up and down like sucking fresh juice of...
(Eeeeh?)
I just remembered the dream I had in that apartment... Tomoka turned into a fruit and I wanted to eat it whole.
(So while I had that dream... this actually was happening in real world?)
I looked at Tomoka and she still looked like a statue made of ice.
(What happened next? There was also a dog... ahh... I am scared to continue watching it.)
Me in the video then put her head away from Tomoka, but she approached me again and started to lick my face and neck.
(And I thought about Pochi in that dream.)
(facepalm)
I continued watching... and then Pochi... I mean Tomoka lay on her back and I touched her belly and scratched her on many places... and she as well as Pochi in my dream laughed a lot.
(Unbelievable!)
Then she turned and knelt on the bed and pushed me down. Her face got close to mine and she again began to kiss and lick my face and the neck as dogs usually do and I laughed a lot too. After that she rolled aside and we turned to face each other. I patted her head and she did the same to me.
(Did I really do all of that?)
(We kissed many times and it was a pleasant feeling... but this was like having to drive a car when I just learned how to ride a bike.)
(Where Tomoka even found that video? It must be from that envelope.)
I left her standing there and moved into the kitchen, where she left the envelope. There lay several photos and a letter. First I looked at the photos and froze. Too of them were related to the events in another world, which that man in the receptionist then denied.
I grabbed the letter and started to read...
„(Hello. My name is Karex... that receptionist from the Onsen. If I guess right, it is you, who reads the letter now right, Arisa? Don't think about why I know that, I just know. The shop with plushies is just my cover... I am actually an alien.)"
(Alien? Wait... did Tomoka read the same letter before? It is weird.)
„(As I said, don't think about it. And no, Tomoka read different letter. I have such powers. I revealed it to Tomoka too, so I have to share the secret also with you... the world you were in before was real. You really visited another planet.)"
(Really?)
„(Really.)"
(Wait... does he answer my thoughts?)
„(Yes. I am an alien with such powers. And keep reading, you don't have much time.)"
As he wrote, I continued reading the letter.
„(It might be unbelievable, but I know, that you are strong and will manage to accept it. Before I made a mistake. There were two possible futures... one where Tomoka would accept it too and another one where the whole her inner world would collapse. Unfortunately the second one became reality. She may look strong, but her soul is very fragile and now it is up to you to decide your fate.
If you want to save her, there are only two options. Either erase her latest memories and keep yours intact or erase them for both of you. She will forget last three days and also related events from before, but she will be back to normal. If you decide to erase also your memories, than you can live like nothing happened. You will forget about me being an alien, another world and other stuff. If you decide to keep your memories intact then accept such a fate and fully enjoy it without limits. Now you know, that aliens and other worlds exist, so why to bind yourself with any rules? Decide fast... while you are reading this, Tomoka's soul is disappearing.)"
(This is insane! But how can I erase memories?)
„(Turn the letter to other side.)"
On its other side were two big rectangles.
„(If you want to erase both of your memories, kiss the paper here and then kiss also Tomoka that way like Rona did it.)"
„(If you want to erase only Tomoka's memories, kiss the paper here and then kiss also Tomoka that way like Rona did it.)"
(So it is like taking that blue or red pill.)
The decision was hard, but hopefully it's the right one.
I kissed the paper and then ran up to Tomoka and hugged her from behind. She turned and looked at me.
„Come here, you fool."
I told her and kissed her in the same way as I did it before in the video.
„I love you, Tomoka."
„I love you too, Arisa."
She replied me and seemed to be calmer than before.
„Arisa, let's play the game. We have a lot work to do."
„Sure, my boss."
Yes, she was back... the same as I knew her. We played for a while and then she left.
„Arisa! When did you buy these plushies?"
„I thought you bought them."
That was a lie. I decided to take the red pill and so I remembered everything. But I had to pretend to be clueless.
In the evening I kissed Tomoka as usually and we fell asleep.
The next day in the office was the same as several days before. Suddenly Hakuto entered her office and I stopped working.
(Others don't know about what happened. What if he reveals anything wrong to her.)
When Hakuto came out, Tomoka called me inside.
(I knew it... why didn't I think about it before. Her last 3 days were erased, so she surely thought, that this day is Monday and now she is confused.)
„Close the door and sit down please."
„Arisa, what happened yesterday? I can't remember it at all."
(Ah, it is here... just as I thought. What should I tell her? The truth - sorry Tomoka, but I had to erase your memories as that alien told me... or a lie?)
The truth was of course of limits and so I made up another story. I am not sure if Tomoka drinks alcohol and how much... I never saw her drinking, but she keeps a bottle of Sake in the fridge... so...
„Umm... you drank a lot after that event."
„What event?"
„Umm... I did something crazy and also told you something."
„What did you do, Arisa?"
I thought about two things, that could make her drinking. Either something very sad or something very happy. Making her sad was again of limits... and so there wasn't any other option.
Since her memories were erased, she forgot even that one kiss, that caused it, but I had to do it... I wanted to do it.
„Umm... it would be better if you could sit at my place."
Tomoka obeyed me and sat at my normal chair.
„So what happened yesterday?"
„This."
I sat astride on her lap and while imagining the scene with the fruit, I gave her one long steamy kiss.
„And then I said... I love you, Tomoka. You were very happy and drank to celebrate it. But you drank too much."
As I said it, I got up and kept staring at her. She was stunned.
She wanted to celebrate it again, but I resolutely rejected it. I am not sure if it could erase her memories again, but I didn't want to risk it. She looked stunned again and so I left.
I returned to my place and kept thinking about recent events.
(How should I behave before her now? What if I accidentally reveal anything? It is not fair, that I am the only one, who remembers the last events... I know... it was me, who decided it to be this way. I could easily take that blue pill and forget everything too. Now we both would be confused about it, but soon it would get back on usual rails. But I would forget our precious memories from that date...)
I didn't want to forget them... to forget how Tomoka looked, how she smiled, how she tried to protect me... I didn't want to forget any of that. But there was also that stuff with aliens. It was not possible to forget just that and keep other memories intact and so I had to choose to keep both.
Now I knew the truth. If anyone would ask whether aliens exist or not, I can say: yes! I even met one... or he at least said that... but no one would believe me. They might even lock me down into some dark place and keep doing various experiments on my body.
(I don't want anything like that! I just want to stay with Tomoka and live happily together with her!)
But it is not fair... she can smile like nothing happened and I have to roll that boulder up the hill alone and hope, that it will not break me into pieces when it rolls back down.
When we got back home, I didn't feel well. My thoughts were still dark. I took a shower, but it didn't help. So I suggested Tomoka to play the game and she agreed. While exploring the dungeon she wanted to kiss, but I had no mood for that... and not even for playing... so I got up and headed to my room.
„I need to take a rest, don't follow me."
The bed was soft and so I fell asleep fast. I am not sure what brought me back to the world of the living, probably the smell of food Tomoka prepared for us. I realized, that what happened is not her fault... she is the same caring person as she used to be and now it's up to me to protect her. My dark thoughts will not help anything.
I got up and headed to the main room.
„Sorry, Tomoka... I was not feeling well."
I told her and hugged her from behind just when she was putting plates on the table.
„Let's eat now and then play the game again."
„Mmm."
After a bit of gaming, Tomoka asked me whether I am on my period.
(Ah... I had to make her worried.)
And then also about the bikini we bought together a few days ago for the date. All the related memories were erased from her brain and so I had to find another reason for buying it. Maybe we could go to a beach for our third date... I mean the fourth.
„I am kinda tired... so I'll go to bed."
„Me too."
I headed to my bedroom to change into pajamas and then walked to Tomoka's room. When I opened the door, she was just changing and wore only her underwear. I quickly turned away and wanted to wait outside, but she stopped me.
„We are still girlfriends, right?"
(Sure we are. Why does she ask that? Or did my mood made her uncertain?)
„Sure."
„So you shouldn't feel shy when seeing me like this... there is even nothing on my body, that you would not be familiar with. So..."
„So?"
„You don't need to ran away just because I am changing. Turn and look at me. Or you don't like my body?"
(Don't I? I never thought about liking her body or not. I like her soul, her kisses, she is pretty...)
„I know, that you are not the same as me... lesbian. But we are girlfriends and you said, that you love me... and you even gave me that steamy kiss in the office. So what happened these last days? Why do I feel, that a ravine appeared between us? How can I jump over it to get back to your side?"
(As I thought, my dark mood made her worried. I am not... lesbian as she just said. I just love Tomoka, because she is Tomoka, not because she is a girl. I am not sure if I could like any other girl. I am happy to be with her and love her and our kisses. They always cheer me up.
But I never thought about far future. If I want to stay with Tomoka, she will surely want to move our relationship on higher level. And... can I give her what she expects? I am adult and so I know what it means to love someone... it is not only about kisses... there are also other things. Would I be capable of doing something like that with her?)
I turned around and looked at her body. It kept me calm.
(What if she was a man?)
Suddenly I got weird thoughts again and imagined a man staying before me. But I didn't feel anything special either.
I looked into her eyes and kept staring for a while.
(What if I get a bit closer?)
I got close to her and looked into her eyes again. Suddenly my heart began to beat fast and I rather ran away and hid in the bed.
„Good night."