Jake
One week
It's been one week since I've seen Alex
I couldn't talk to her on Monday
Even though I got to school because....
......
I don't fucking know
All I remember was, I got to school, I saw her and Daniel our team mate
And I just lost it
I couldn't tell left from right
I threw punch after punch until he was bleeding and I still didn't stop
But I don't blame myself though
I mean it's not my fault
It was his
The way he was touching her , holding her. Even the way he was looking at her
I mean even dickweed would have been able to tell she was uncomfortable
But you know that ain't even the worst part
The worst part was when they were finally able to pry me off him
I couldn't say anything to Alex
I just turned around and left the school
And on my drive home it all hit me
Like what the fuck did I do?
I was supposed to be with my dad all-day, so my plan was to Walk into school inform her about my absence and apologize for not being able to attend the Geo class and then leave
But instead I went there, fought with a teammate, didn't even speak to her and then left
I mean I don't even know why I did what I did
But the sight of him so close to her just had me seething
Since when did I care about the guys around her?
Since you fell in love with her dumbass
Nope
Not that again
And after everything all I could do was pull my phone out and send her a really confusing text 5mins to Geo class period
It said
Lexi
Do it alone
Can't make it
Dad came in
Later
Even I didn't understand what I meant when I reread the text
And after then I was so damn busy
Now it's been a week
And I think I'm losing it
I'm also starting to get the feeling that she's avoiding me
Of course she's avoiding you
You kissed her, without her permission
Well yeah I kissed her
But it wasn't just me, I mean she responded on her own
So what?
Ugh fucking hell !!!
This shit is Killin me
After that day I tried calling her a couple of times but she's always busy when I call
We'd text at night, but it's not the same
She says she's not big on texting
But the past few days I'm starting to think it's more than that
Maybe she doesn't want to be friends with you anymore cause you kissed her
Fuck, I can't even stop thinking about that night and the thought of her avoiding me is giving me sleepless nights
I can't stand the thought of not being close to her anymore
This week has given me time to think
And I think.... I like her
No, I like her
Like really really like her.
And it's more than just natural for a normal friendship
And No, this isn't just the kiss talking
I'm so fucking sure
Should I tell her?
Hell No, that will completely chase her away
But you've already scared her off, what's left?
Just tell her and get it off your chest
And get rejected
Fuck
How do you even say stuff like that?
'Um I like you girl, be my woman '
Hell No, that's just cringe
Damn this shit is messing with me
A girl, Jake
A girl who probably doesn't even give two fucks about you
Knowing Alex she might just be happy she finally got her space
Or not
Ugh I don't fucking know anymore
Whatever it is, I've made up my mind
I'll tell her, however way possible
And I'll just maybe accept her reaction, whatever it'll be
Yeah, whatever it takes,
I'll tell her
Alex
It's been one week, since I've seen Jake
We've texted but I dunno it just felt.... not quite the same
What were you expecting that after the kiss, things will still be the same. Plus you were probably even a bad kisser, I mean how many guys have you kissed, like three
And all bet a dollar none of them even liked it
Oh fuck me
I hadn't even brushed my teeth that day, or had I?
Ugh main problem, I think he's avoiding me
How's that a problem I thought you liked being alone
Yeah I actually did, since when did that change?
I finally make it to my locker after walking so slowly since I was lost in thought
Luckily Bella isn't here, coz I don't think I need her adding to my turmoil
I unlock my locker and then I hear noise
The halls have been so quiet lately, I mean it was like even the B's took a break
So I turn around and notice they aren't even girls but guys, The Wolves
But why are they being so lou-
Oh
It's him
Woah, he looks.... stressed
They don't seem to notice tho
They've really missed him
So did you
Shut up stupid subconscious
His eyes meet mine
And I look away
Fuck those grey orbs
He excuses himself and then makes his way towards me
" Hey Lexi"
" Hey" I say my body automatically turning to face him
" I missed you"
What the fuck?!
How could he say that and why so easily
"Aren't you gonna say you missed me too, or didn't you" he says the last part with frown
Um.... I'm so fucked
" Uh I guess so but we talked right" I say laughing awkwardly
Get it together Alex
" Like once or twice, just say you missed me Lexi"
" K I missed you"
Damn!!!!!!
" Okayyyyy, I got a couple of stuff to do with the guys but I'll make sure I'm lunch break, there's something we really need to talk about "
Huh?
" Um sure "
" So library, right "
" Yeah "
He steps forward staring at me a bit hesitant but then pecked me on the cheek then lips
And just smiled and walked away like it's completely normal
My insides are literally exploding right now
Fuck me!!!!
Gosh people are staring
I close my locker and begin to class with just one thought on my mind
Where the fuck is this shit taking me and what's so important that he wants to talk about
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This chapter is a bit uneventful but that's coz it's kind of a filler
But trust me the next ones gonna be epic 😵
Although Jake has finally accepted his feelings, I don't think Alex has.
So him telling her could be disastrous, maybe
I dunno, what do you guys think is she gonna go easy on Jake or should he be prepared for the worst kind of rejection?
Please 🥺 fill up the comments section and let me know your thoughts
Love y'all 😘🥰🌹