Bera couldn't even feel better knowing Coin would pardon the victors who would be saved from the Capitol.
It was monochromes of reds, fury coursing through her veins.
She didn't cry herself to sleep with screams of agony like Cecelia did in their shared room to 'not waste space' as 13 said.
She didn't feel to shock and simple anger of Finnick or Johanna as they watched the footage of the destruction and the promises to destroy all in their paths.
She didn't feel pity of Haymitch or Beetee for knowing only ten districts would be left after this war reaches its end.
She didn't feel V's helplessness in face of the destruction of the district she came to see as her own.
Everything stayed inside.
A pressurized bottle of hate that was consuming her from the inside like an infection, seeping through the pores and the air she breathed.
The monster that would be at the head of this war would show her fangs by biting them through Snow's jugular. (you know... I almost made Bera kill Brutus by taking a bite out of his throat?)
She barely gave a damn about the time Peeta was screaming his head off on TV about a bombing.
She was just stewing in her hate even as she watched the headcam footage of the volunteer soldier heading to the tribute center to save the victors... She couldn't even be happy for that... Blood just so heated that no one would be surprised if she'd start throwing that red stuff up because of the pressure building up inside.
She was so lost in hate that all she could do about Katniss' desperate attempt to talk to Snow through the cameras was watch his face with intense fury... Well at least until...
"Did you like my little gift?"
Gift? His last two gifts have been bombings. Oooh he didn't just...
"You think you so special?!"
"Oh I wasn't aware miss Helfir is with you."
Coin waved at Beetee to face the camera on Bera even if she was looking at the screen and he'd see the back/side of her head.
"Those were fucking injured people you lopsided donkey!"
"All who associate with the mockingjay symbol are traitors, you know that miss Helfir."
"And all those that stand with the Capitol shall be hung by their guts that I'll rip out myself. Don't think yourself all might. I am coming for you and will get to you even if it takes walking through ten more arenas."
"Yes, yes, we are aware of your inability to die but how long will it be before your spirit is broken? I think I have someone here to help me with that."
"If you touched a hair of her head I will bring collective might down on you!!"
"Oh but miss Helfir, as I might have told your little friends, it is only those that we love that can hurt us, maybe I'll just bomb the tribute center for a nice show." And the transmission cut out.
(There is just so much animosity here that Snow is outright being evil, not the hidden manipulation evil, just full on wanting Bera to be nuked out of the history books and actually smile at hurting her.)
Bera literally ripped the flimsy handrail from the ground and threw it at the projection screen, shattering it with a scream as Katniss started sobbing. Snow tells half truths and twisted ones but he keeps his promise. And so Katniss sobbed about losing Peeta and Gale while Bera was just about to strangle Coin if she was not going to offer up the idea to nuke the Capitol into a crater so big that if the 200th hunger games ever were to happen that it would be on a remote island with only one district.
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(So I know I am mix and matching the events of the bombing of 13 and victor rescue but I realized it now so we are going with it!)
Not sooner then Peeta had said the bombing would happen, it did.
The sirens loud and bellowing through the place.
Bera basically dragging Cecelia after her and V running behind them down the spiral staircase.
Savior complex, Bera was always fighting to save people, and it was not going to stop her now.
"STOP!!" She grabbed Katniss out of the air almost, she was moving so fast. "What are you doing?!"
"She's not here!! I need to get her!!" Katniss shoved in Gale's arms as Bera let her go.
Yeah, savior complex.
"Grab her and take her inside the vault!!" There was no way she wouldn't run back up for anyone after having failed to reach anyone in 8.
"Wait!!" Gale called, reaching a hand out as she grabbed the railing and jumped over the side to not be blocked back the masses.
"I am less important then the mockingjay!!" Was her only reasoning and not her deep guilt and need to save someone else.
And damn... She didn't have a damned idea who she was looking for and at which level but Bera would not leave them behind.
Shoving passed people, mind going at the speed of a raise horse.
"Primer!!" Having no idea what the sister's name was, not having heard it in a while but only she was someone Katniss would run out to get. "Where are you?!"
Scaling the now empty staircase, looking frantically at each level.
Luck seemed to have pity on her.
"What are you doing up here?!" Screaming at the child hunched over and reaching under the bed, Bera seeing straight into the room from the stairs or she would have passed her.
"Let go!! I can't leave him!!"
But she didn't listen, throwing Primer-or-what's-her-name towards the door, looking under the bed at the stupid cat so scared it didn't want to come out.
"MOVE IT!!" She ordered the cat, grabbing the side of the head and neck in a firm grip, having a longer reach then the girl and since there was no carpet but slide-y material, the cat was yoinked from under the bed, uncomfortable yes but out.
Running out before the cat could put more claws in her arm and she literally dropped him over the railing and let him fall down to the bunker. It wouldn't lacerate her arm more and it would run towards what it sees at the exit aka the bunker doors.
"BUTTERCUP!!" The girl was yanked as she screamed.
"He'll be fine!! Cats can survive bigger falls then this!!" (Cats have a better chance of surviving a 10~ story drop then a 1 story drop... And Bera is in a hurry.) Bera reassured, yanking the girl down the stairs, almost slipping down the metal of it with the flashing lights being worse going down then climbing up.
And of course people didn't listen to her, running into Katniss half ways down.
"OH YOU LITTLE FUCK!!!" Pushing both girls in front of each other, luck ran out it seemed.
And even went into the negatives as stepping on the last of the steps, she saw a mass under them, nope this cat is stupid, so scared it hid again.
Stumbling, hitting her ribs into the railing and grab the cat by its tail to yank it up, other hand under his tummy before throwing him at the closing door, the cat bouncing in on his little agile legs to not fall over as Bera did the tree: Lost her supports and went down with a loud crack against the ground.
It was Gale grabbing her leg and yanking on it that saved her head from being crushed by the door locking.
"A cat Prim?! You went back for him?!" Katniss rightfully was angry as Prim since it almost cost so many lived.
"I couldn't leave him behind!!" She said, cradling the cat with roughed up fur and probably a sore tail from Bera's action.
Bera groaned, rubbing her face with her hands.
Valerius was right, her need to save others and fight was what was going to get her killed...
But if that means Snow dies? So be it.