I woke up at dawn, deciding to make breakfast for everyone and get a head start on cleaning up the rest of the house. I wanted to make their last day in Australia special, I even managed to talk my way out of going to practice this morning, so I can send everyone off at the airport.
At seven o'clock everyone's alarms went off at the same time, Daniel and Heidi walked out of their room with a surprised look on their face. If anything I'm the one surprised that she's still here, "Daniel is this your way of soft launching Heidi?" They looked at each other as if they've been caught doing something wrong. Both rushed to say no at the same time, but I wasn't buying it, they had some real chemistry going on. Not to mention this was the longest I've seen Daniel have a girl at the house.
Lando reasonably so was the last one to come to the kitchen, he sat down on a bar stool and looked absolutely miserable. "Bad headache?" "Yes" "Ya you absolutely got knocked up last night, here have this" I handed him an advil and a bottle of water "that should help your hangover" "Thanks, you're the best" "It's just an advil, maybe next time don't drink so much" "Hey you can't be one to scold me for it, you're the one that proposed we played that game in the first place" "And you could have always said no" I gave him a quick wink and went to go check on the cinnamon rolls I had baking in the oven.
I served everyone's food and went to take my long needed shower, giving them enough time to finish eating their food and get ready for the airport, since I was going to be the one dropping them off. But I wasn't the one that was going to drive to there, either Lando or Daniel would, I'd only drive myself back so they don't need to take a cab.
When we were getting ready to head out the door for the airport, I found out that apparently Heidi was coming with us too. Then Acting like toddlers, Daniel and Lando played rock paper scissors to figure out who would drive, new ick unlocked.
Daniel ended up being the one to drive, so Heidi sat in the front, meanwhile Lando and I sat in the back. The drive to the airport was only 20 minutes so we weren't in the car for long. When we got there, the guys went to go check their luggage in, waiting in the long lines. Heidi and I sat down and waited for them. "So you and Daniel are kinda serious ya?" "I mean I wouldn't say so" "Be so for real, you're literally at the airport sending him off, and you met him like two days ago" "I wouldn't say two days ago exactly" "Wait...What?!" "Omg have y'all been in a secret relationship?" Just then Lando and Daniel walked over, the look of relief washed over her face, my suspicions were right!
The guys then said "Our flight leaves in an hour, so we'll head through tsa soon" Daniel and Heidi started to kiss goodbye, so Lando and I moved away from them, not wanting to see that. "I'll see you in two days" "Two days" "You better throw the best birthday party ever!" "You bet I will" we hugged goodbye, unlike the other two basically sucking each others face off, talk about pda.
Heidi and I stood back and watched them go through tsa and then left. I ended up dropping Heidi off at her house. Now I'm back to being home alone, with nothing to do.
I ended up cleaning every inch of the house again, did a workout, watched a movie, baked some cookies, but I couldn't take it any longer. I called Eric up, after all he's one of my only friends in Australia. "Bri what's up?" "Do you wanna hang out I'm dying of boredom over here?" "I'm afraid I can't, I promised to go to one of Emily's dance recitals, sorry" "Oh alright, wish her good luck from me, and tell everyone I say hi" "Will do, bye"
With no one to go out with, I ended up going through my closet. Then I finally reached my suitcase full of McLaren stuff, it was in the corner hidden behind a whole bunch of other stuff, I had completely forgot about it. I opened it up feeling anxious, I wasn't sure why maybe it's because it reminded me of what once was, then there it was right in front of me, Lando's hoodie. I pulled it out, still smelling like his perfume, I put it aside. I should probably give it back if I'm not going to wear it. I mean I have no reason to keep it, I doubt he'd want me to keep it anyways. We weren't together anymore, so why would I wear it. I wanted to convince myself of everything I had just said but I couldn't, I wanted to have a reason to wear it. I wanted to be seen in it.
There really was no choice, there never was. I'm realizing now that Eric was just a distraction. This hoodie only proves it, it reminded me of everything the dinner, playing chess on the airplane, the many car rides, it made me feel ecstatic, I was flustered just by holding his hoodie.I was so blind before, I mean I like Eric I do but I don't like him like I love Lando. Eric was just something I didn't have to think about, it was well known, familiar, unproblematic. It was the exact opposite of Lando. Lando was new, exciting, unpredictable, risky even. When we broke up I just fled to Eric because that's what I thought I needed.
I've made up my mind, I mean there's nothing more to say, I'm telling Lando that it's him, I'm in love with him, I choose him. As soon as I land in England, and I see him, I'm telling him. I don't want to waste more time without him in my life.
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Hey guys, I've really been forcing myself to post lately I've just lost my motivation for this, please bear with me
(Also 13k reads is crazy 😱)