Lesssss gooooooo
Insecurity, guilt, overwhelm
All these emotions are resurfacing through my brain every now and then.
Two days back Aadya left for Manhattan and I came back home. The fact that these were the weekends didn't help much with my situation. Gio has been working alone and looking after the company in Adrian's absence. Adrian is busy with 'something important' due to which all the workload got on Gio's shoulders. I can't blame him for this but I can't help my thoughts either.
We didn't speak much after that day. I know he won't ignore me but I can't help but think
What if he is done with this relationship
What if he got bored of me
What if all those words were to fool me
What if he found someone better
All the questions and doubts were increasing day by day. I tried everything to keep myself busy. I worked online from home, I tried to dance, I tried to talk to my friends, in fact I even tried to go out somewhere.
But did anything work?
No
None of this helped even a bit. All my thoughts eventually blurred and the only person who stayed in the thoughts was Gio.
I don't know if he thinks of me as much as I think of him but even if he thinks a little, I hope it's good and it makes him smile.
I have never been a selfish person, even as a kid, I sacrificed the little things which I could if that made the people around me happy. But I can't do this when he is concerned. I hope he ain't seeing someone. I hope he didn't forget me.
I hope he ain't happy if he is with someone.
My thoughts don't seem to take a break any time soon and with each passing minute a strong and painful lump is forming at the end of my throat. It might look like overreacting but what can someone expect from a person who was never someone's first choice except for my parents and my best friend. Everyone else treated me like an option.
My ex always compared me with his ex or some other girl. He always made me feel like I have some problem, like I was not good enough, like I was a side option for him who he would kick out the moment someone better stepped in. And that's exactly what happened. He did exactly what I feared.
I know Giovanni is not like him but I can't help the thoughts that are emerging in my head. He said he will always stick around me like a tail. He said he will never abandon me. He said he will be there to clear all my misunderstandings and will explain my overthinking.
So, why am I still feeling like this?
I don't know the answers to my questions but there is one thing I know. In the past week, my heart registered one thing and that is...
I am hopelessly in love with Giovanni Valentino.
He came with Sunshine and took away my Darkness.
The mere thought of being in love with him removed the frown from my face and replaced it with a smile. Happy tears threatened to fall from my eyes. My surroundings started to blur and the days we spent together took over my head. His tall frame started to appear amidst the blurred surroundings. Cladded in a formal white shirt tucked in black formal pants he made his way towards me. He looks so fucking hot even in my imagination.
Wait, why is this feeling so real?
I rubbed my eyes and looked up but he was gone. Ofc, why would he be here? My imaginations are getting so strong that they nearly feel like reality.
Suddenly, the doorbell rang, bringing me out of my trance. I composed myself quickly and went to open the door. Outside stood a middle aged delivery man standing with a big box wrapped in ribbons. I recognised the man because he usually came here with couriers but the box looked unfamiliar this time. Unlike the usual boxes which contained work related items, this box seemed to be like a gift from someone.
"Advika beta, ye aapke liye hai. Sign kr dijiyega yaha pe", he gave me a paper and pointed at it for me to sign.
(Advika, this is for you. Please, sign here)
"Kaka aap bata skte hai ye kisne bheja hai aur isme kya hai?"
(Uncle, can you tell who sent it and what is inside?)
"Humko pata hota to hum bata dete lekin humein koi idea nhi hai. Sorry, beta"
(Had I known I would have)
I was confused by all of this and tried to examine the box to maybe get a hint of what was inside.
"Are beta jaldi sign kr dijiye. Hamari biwi hospital mein hai. Unki Aaj delivery thi aur unhone bataya ki humein ek nanhi si pari Hui hai. Jaldi aap sign kr dengi to hum jaldi Jaa payenge"
(Please sign fast. My wife is in the hospital. It was her delivery today and she called and informed me that we are blessed with an angel. If you sign fast, I will leave soon)
"Ji ek minute", I quickly signed the paper and took the box.
(Just a moment)
The man turned to leave, "Accha suniye, ek minute rukiyega please", I said and went inside.
(Wait a minute)
I reached my room, opened the drawer and quickly searched for something. I took the beautiful box which had a rose gold pendant and rushed downstairs. I went to the kitchen and spotted a sweet box. I took both the things and kept them in a cloth bag and went outside. The man was impatiently waiting there tapping his foot. The urge to rush to the hospital to his wife could be seen in his gesture.
"Ye lijiye kaka. Aapki nanhi rajkumari ke liye ek tohfa mere taraf se", I handed him the cloth bag and smiled at him.
(Take this uncle. This is a gift from me for the angel)
He examined the content in the bag and his eyes brimmed with tears.
"Beta ye kya hai. Iski koi zrurat nhi hai"
(What is this, child? It wasn't needed)
"Kaka ye hamare taraf se hai. Aap tohfe ko inkaar nhi kr skte"
(Uncle this is from my side. You can't say no to gifts)
"Sukriya beta. Bhagwan tumhe khush rkhe", he said with teary eyes and left from there.
(Thanks, child. May God bless you)
I took the box and stepped back inside. I reached my room, locked the door and started to untie the ribbons on the box. I unwrapped it immediately and opened it to see the most beautiful Black dress I have ever laid eyes on. It was a floor length, deep necked gown which slits and cuts at the perfect places. The satin silk fabric was the softest I ran my hands over.
But who sent it for me?
I examined the box again to find some hint of the person who sent it. I spotted a small folded letter stuck on the inner side of the box. I removed it from there and unfolded it.
I know the dress is not even a percent as beautiful as you.
But Please bless my choice tonight, and be ready by seven,
Mio Fiore 💗
The moment I read the words, I knew who the sender behind this dress was. But why did he send me a dress? And what is the occasion tonight? I tried to find some other letter or clue so I could figure it out but there was nothing. I huffed in defeat and thought to call him. I picked up my phone and dialled his number.
The number you are trying to dial is currently switched off. Please try again later.
I dialled again but received the same response.
Arrrgggghhhhhhhhh
I looked at the wall clock behind me and saw that it was four in the evening. I have three more hours to get ready. Without thinking much, I quickly went to shower. I stripped off my clothes and turned on the faucet. Hot water fell on my bare body, relaxing my tensed posture. My mind wandered at all the possibilities that could be the reason for the dress. Thousand different scenarios, thousand different possibilities but none satisfied me.
I shaved myself properly because no one knows what we are getting ready for.
I turned off the faucet, dried myself and came out of the washroom in my robe. It was quarter to five that leaves me with two hours fifteen minutes to get ready. I think I can make it in time.
I sat in front of the mirror and dried my wet hair. I looked at my pale face which clearly showed how much I fucked my sleep in the past few days. Since, this date or dinner or party or whatever was gonna be a night event, I decided to do bold makeup. It took me around an hour to finish it. A dark red lip and little smokey eye, perfectly enhanced cheekbone and sharp jawline made me look enchanting.
After that I did my hair in loose curls which took me more than half an hour to curl and set. Now, it was time to change. I went towards my cupboard and took a pair of matching black lace lingerie. Ofc, I want to look my best and I have to be prepared for anything coming my way. The bra was very deep necked so it went well with the dress. I quickly changed into my lingerie and then picked up the dress. I looked at it one last time adoringly before finally wrapping myself in it. The way it fit my upper body curves perfectly and flowed all the way down from the waist with a high slit on the left side made me look at in awe.
I walked my way to the mirror and stood in front of it. I looked at myself and this new me didn't look pale, insecure or weak anymore. In fact, I looked strong, confident and Beautiful.For a moment, I couldn't believe that the person standing in the mirror was me. The hairstyle, makeup and the dress went so perfectly with each other that it made me feel pretty. But there was something missing and I knew exactly what I needed.
I went to my closet and picked up a beautiful diamond necklace. It was designed in a very simple but elegant way and it went just perfectly with the whole look. The matching diamond earrings did all the justice to the look. I took my favourite butterfly bracelet and wore it, the day when I lost it and he found it came to my mind and I smiled at the memory. I picked up matching black heels and completed the look.
Now, I look perfect.
I craned my neck behind my shoulder to see the time and it was a perfect seven. Suddenly, there was a knock on my door and I went to open it. My house help stood outside.
"Ma'am there is a car waiting for you outside"
"Okayyy, I am coming downstairs"
I took my phone and purse, checked myself for one last time and left the room.
I spotted a black Rolls Royce waiting for me with the chauffeur standing outside. I went near him and greeted him, he greeted me back and held open the door of the backseat. I stepped inside and made myself comfortable. He took the driving seat and started the engine.
After around half an hour we reached the airport. I looked around suspiciously and found no one there. It was a private area. I looked in front of me and saw a black jet. I turned towards the chauffeur who drove me here and asked him,
"Why did you bring me here? And what am I supposed to do?"
"Ma'am I was instructed to drop you here and inform you to get in the jet"
"May I talk to your boss?"
"I am sorry ma'am, but that's all I was supposed to do"
With that said he went inside the car and drove back.
I looked around confusedly when suddenly the door of the jet opened and stairs came down to the ground. I knew I had no other option, so I made my way inside the jet where I was greeted by a polite air hostess.
"Good evening, ma'am. Please take a seat"
"Good evening"
I took a seat and eventually the flight took off. The staff came in to check upon me every now and then and they made sure I was comfortable. After around four and a half hours the flight landed. The door opened again and I descended down the stairs. There was another black car waiting for me with a chauffeur standing outside.
I went near him and greeted him. Sitting in the backseat, I made myself comfortable again and the person started driving. I was so confused about how to process anything. After some time, I started looking outside the window, the city started to disappear and beautiful beaches came into view. We passed by some really beautiful beaches when finally the car started to slow down and an elegantly decorated setup on the beach came into view. I could spot fairy lights adoring the setup but from this far I couldn't see much. The car finally halted and the chauffeur opened the door for me.
I thanked him and stepped out.
"May you have an amazing night, ma'am"
I smiled at him and he left from there. I descended down towards the decoration and I could see a beautifully designed dinner setup, just like I always imagined. As I neared, a tall guy cladded in a formal white shirt tucked in black pants came into view, exactly howI thought of in the morning.
I moved my eyes up and saw it was Giovanni, making his way towards me. Suddenly, tears brimmed in my eyes as I neared him. Without wasting another moment, I rushed towards him and hugged him tightly. He hugged me back with the same anticipation.
"I missed you", I mumbled into him and he kissed my hair.
He finally broke the hug and I looked at him confusedly. He smiled at me and reached out to hold my palm.
"Well, I know it's just been three weeks of us staying away from each other but there wasn't a single moment when I didn't think of you. There was you in every little thing happening to me. While cooking my breakfast, I wondered if you ate or not. While working, I wondered if you were piled up with workload and didn't get time to relax. Everything I did, my thoughts somehow found themself landing on you. You always succeeded to make your way into my head. I knew it was over for me when the first time I looked at you, when the first time you smiled, when the first time you frowned and the first time you spoke to me. I knew I was a goner. You were like the missing air that I always needed to breathe in. I didn't know the strong impact you have on me till you were not there around me anymore. It was only your thoughts and those calls. Your smell lingered around me and always reminded me that I have to be with you for all my life. This life and all the others. I won't stretch this long, so....."
He went down on his knees and took out a velvet box from his pocket.
Is this what I am thinking it is?
He opened the box and a beautiful diamond ring came into view.
"One Yes from you is enough to make me the luckiest man in the world. So, will you give me the honour to call you my wife, Mio Fiore"
With that suddenly a big board saying, 'WILL YOU MARRY ME?' glowed behind him.
My eyes filled with happy tears and words left my mouth on their own.
"Yesss, yessss and a hundred times yess"
He took my hands and made me wear the ring before getting up. I held his neck and pulled him in a fierce kiss. I let all my love drown in the kiss and he did the same. Our tongues collided and he sucked on mine making a moan leave my mouth. I broke the kiss after sometime at the loss of air. I looked in his eyes and all I could see was pure love. The love for me.
He intertwined our fingers together and we made our way towards the dinner setup. Before that I looked over at the beach and realisation hit me hard.
We are in Seychelles. The place I dreamt for my wedding proposal. The beach where I wanted it to happen.
I remembered casually telling him about it once. I stopped in my tracks and kissed him again. This time it was slow and passionate.
We then reached the dinner table and he pulled a chair for me. I smiled at him and sat down. He himself sat in front of me and served us dinner. For starters we had Baby Corn chilli, my favourite with green chutney. Spinach and Ricotta Cannelloni was for the main course and Gulab Jamun for the dessert.
In short, the perfect meal.
We enjoyed dinner together but then I went and settled on his lap and started feasting on his lips. He picked me up and carried me somewhere. He then placed me down and I realised there was a cushion under me. I broke the kiss and looked around to see I was in a small wooden cabinet with a soft mattress spread on the ground and fire burning in the fireplace. Two wine glasses settled at some distance with rose petals around them.
He planned everything perfectly.
My eyes found his and he smirked at me, "Better be prepared for everything, shouldn't we, future wife"
Saying that his lips crashed on mine again and his hands went to the zip of the dress. He pulled it down and took off the dress without breaking the kiss. He then looked at me and his eyes went wide. It was my time to smirk.
"Better be prepared for everything, shouldn't we, future husband"
My smirk immediately disappeared when his eyes turned dark and his lips came back on mine but this time with desire, lust, love and hunger. The night consumed us and love spread in the whole cabinet with my uncontrollable moans and his deep and dark groans.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Baahon mein de bas jaane
Seene mein de chup jaane
Tujh bin main jau to kaha
Tujhse hai mujhko paane
Yaadon ke wo nazrane
Ek jinpe hak ho bas Mera
Teri yaadon mein rhu
Tere khwaabon mein jagu
Mujhe dhundhe jab koi
Teri aankhon mein milu 💗
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