The rain didn't know when it stopped.
When Jing Xun had time to look outside again, the whole sky cleared up.
A colorful rainbow hangs in front of the baptized clear blue sky, and the sunlight piercing through the clouds hits the floor and woolen carpet through the windows, and the indoor temperature rises and becomes warm again.
Jing Xun lay on Shen Yijin's body, unable to move at all.
A small part of it was Mr. Bite, tired.
Most of the reason is because... they did a lot of strange things later on...
such as this and that, chacha chacha.
I just went through this and that last night, but before, it was my husband who gave me more strength.
This time it was Jing Xun... just...
"I can't move, sir." Lying on the bed, Jing Xun's voice was hoarse: "I want to take a bath, but I'm still thirsty." "Okay."
Shen
Yijin's movements were crisper than before. After eating a lot, he first put on a pair of trousers, then went to fetch a glass of water for Jing Xun, and fed him a drink.
Finally, he picked up the young man wrapped in the quilt and brought him to the bathroom.
In the shower room, the two simply took a shower together.
Hot water sprayed down, filled with dense water vapor, Jing Xun wrapped around Shen Yijin's neck like a boneless one, his legs were still shaking and he couldn't stand up at all.
However, the situation of the husband seems to have improved a lot.
When the sir is well, Jing Xun is relieved.
He grabbed Shen Yijin's neck and let him clean it up for him.
During the process, Shen Yijin suddenly kissed the corner of his lips and said, "Thank you, Xiao Xun." "
...Don't thank me either." Jing Xun said a little uncomfortable.
Mr. has always treated him wholeheartedly as a lover, so he should treat each other wholeheartedly.
He expressed his thoughts for a while, and Shen Yijin said again: "Did I scare you just now?" "
No." Jing Xun shook his head decisively.
He does not discriminate against patients.
And don't dislike your partner even more.
In the moist and gentle water vapor, the young man's delicate and jade-like cheeks were tinged with peach rosy by the water vapor, his brows and eyes were slightly raised, with a warm smile, and the tears and moles at the corners of his eyes were far away, with a somewhat firm taste.
Looking at each other closely, Jing Xun said very seriously: "Mister is just sick, he will get better." "Yes." Shen Yijin, who watched
the
scene carefully, responded. It was even faster, he quickly washed Jing Xun, put on his clothes, and quickly cleaned himself up, and finally the two of them stood in front of the mirror and dried their hair together. The moment the hair dryer was turned off, Shen Yijin suddenly
said, "The reason why the previous house was demolished and rebuilt is because of me.
"
Yijin, Shen Yijin was also looking at the mirror, but didn't look at him, Mr. was just facing the mirror, as if he was looking at his own heart, or something deeper.
There was no expression on Shen Yijin's face.
The freshly blow-dried hair was scattered and drooped to cover the eyebrows. This hairstyle made the husband's appearance look younger.
But his expression is deep and obscure, his eyes are as deep as a dark bottomless hole, there are endless hesitation and storms surging in it, and it has absolutely nothing to do with youth or youth.
And Shen Yijin was like this, he was calm while struggling, and told him some things about that year.
It's those things that even the subsequent psychiatrists don't know...
Shen Yijin chose a very straightforward narrative method.
He said: "It's really not complicated. It's just that one day, my mother committed suicide by jumping off a building."
"..."
"In front of me."
...
This is the nightmare that has repeatedly plagued Shen Yijin for twenty years.
He said some more details, but what he said was really simple and his tone was flat.
Even when the narration was over, the husband had already returned to his usual appearance.
Jing Xun saw the light shining in his eyes when he was looking at him, and heard him explain: "It's not that I can't mention it, I just don't want to mention it." After a long period of psychological and spiritual treatment failed, he no longer wanted to mention it
. . Shen Yijin said: "But I think I should tell you this personally
. There is no secret between us. Is that right, Xiao Xun?
"
.
He didn't know how to comfort him. In fact, this kind of thing couldn't be comforted by just a few words.
Just listening to Shen Yijin's simple account of those events back then, one would know that no matter who the husband's disease happened to, it would probably be difficult to treat it.
Fortunately, recalling the events of that year is really not a hurdle for Shen Yijin.
Everything was calm, they hugged quietly for a while, and then they were called downstairs to have breakfast with Grandpa Shen.
——After the rain, the sky clears up, and a new day begins.
Breakfast was served outside, and they ate a super-style breakfast on the green grass and musical fountains. Afterwards, Shen Yijin and Jing Xun were both called to Grandpa Shen's study, and Shen Yijin was talking to his grandfather After reporting the work, they had to go to a video conference, and Jing Xun was left behind by Grandpa Shen to play chess together.
"Mr. go to work first, and I'll go back later." Jing Xun said to Shen Yijin with a smile.
"Okay." Shen Yijin didn't have any objections, but Grandpa Shen smiled and said: "Xiao Xun is so reluctant to part with Ah Jin, Grandpa is too embarrassed to let you play chess."
"Grandpa, how can you say that!" Jing Xun said straightforwardly: "I'm not reluctant, Mr. is super boring at work, it's more interesting to play chess with grandpa." Grandpa Shen laughed with Shen Yijin who was complained about being super boring Yes, Jing Xun put on the chessboard with a smile, and sent Shen Yijin to the door, telling him to go to work quickly.
But almost at the moment when the door was closed and Shen Yijin's face disappeared before his eyes, Jing Xun's eyes suddenly turned red.
In the next second, tears welled up in his eyes uncontrollably.
Even if the husband described his past quite succinctly, even when he said those things, he was very calm. But after a long time, Jing Xun's mind was still thinking about the rainy night briefly described by his husband - it was raining, and
little Shen Yijin, who was only five years old, was lying in front of the window to watch the rain.
Like all children who are curious about everything, he simply looks at the wet world outside, knowing nothing about what will happen in the future.
Until a flash of lightning strikes.
Through the window, he saw his mother...
In the strong light, he saw her extremely distorted face.
I also saw her body passing by in an instant.
After lightning comes thunder.
But the rumbling thunder didn't overwhelm the sound coming from downstairs, there was a sudden "bang".
...
Jing Xun's mind was full of the gentleman standing on the second floor, and the cloud of blood that exploded when he desperately grabbed the closed window to look down.
……
"Xiao Xun? What's the matter?"
Jing Xun suddenly shook his shoulders so badly that he could hardly stand up, but he frightened Grandpa Shen who noticed the abnormality.
He hurriedly came out from behind the table, came to check the young man's condition, and saw that Jing Xun was still covering his mouth tightly, tears were falling down without any money, splashing on the ground.
"...What's the matter? Ah Jin bullied you?!"
Jing Xun shook his head desperately.
The excessive ups and downs of emotions made it very difficult for him to speak, and he was afraid of alarming the gentleman who hadn't gone far, so Jing Xun could only forcefully say: "No, no, it's not that the husband bullied me." He was about to die from crying, and he could
only Leaning against the door panel and grabbing Grandpa Shen's sleeve, Jing Xun was out of breath: "Grandpa, I... I love Mr. My heart. I... I love him." "..." After a long, long
time
, Jing Xun's tears stopped.
He sat face to face with Grandpa Shen in front of the chessboard, and did not play chess. Jing Xun apologized in embarrassment: "I'm sorry, Grandpa, for making you worry...I'm really sorry."
He didn't dare to cry in front of Shen Yijin.
The husband behaved very plainly, Jing Xun felt that he shouldn't be too emotional, and Shen Yijin would have to comfort him in turn.
He also wants to be his husband's reliance.
But I couldn't stop it.
——As long as I think about the suffering my husband has suffered in these years, I can't bear it.
So I can only drop two golden beans in front of Grandpa Shen... After all, Grandpa Shen will understand him, and the only thing that can separate me from my husband is now.
"Oh, you are a good boy, why would grandpa blame you." Mentioning this grandpa Shen also sighed.
He was indeed taken aback by Jing Xun who burst into tears just now, thinking that Jing Xun had been wronged here.
He never thought that Jing Xun's sad crying was because he felt sorry for Ah Jin... "Ah Jin has a heart, and it's too late for grandpa to be happy. Grandpa is getting old, and the one who
worries most is Ah Jin. Don't worry about anything else. , I’m afraid that he will always be alone. Ah Jin is a miserable child..."
Grandpa Shen said, his voice was as usual, but there was a little more twinkle in his eyes.
Of course, Jing Xun didn't want Grandpa Shen to be sad or worried, he immediately wiped his face, cheered up and said, "Grandpa, don't worry, I will always be with you, sir, and I will always be with you. "
In Shen Yijin's simple description just now, he focused on matters related to the demolition and construction of the main house.
The reason why the old building was demolished and rebuilt was because his grandfather had been seeing him in a bad mood, and he was afraid that he would be emotional, so he asked someone to demolish the old house directly.
This matter has always been kept in mind by Mr.
He also remembered the care and protection that grandpa Shen had given him in those years.
Although he is not good at expressing, he has always known Grandpa Shen's licking and caring feelings.
This is also the reason why Shen Yijin chose to return to China two years ago to take over the management of the Shen family when Mingzhi was not here.
Just because it was his grandfather's life's hard work.
And Jing Xun also thanked Grandpa Shen in the gentleman's narration. Originally, he only regarded Grandpa Shen as an elder and a very important person to the gentleman.
But at this moment, he sincerely thanked his grandfather for never giving up on Mr.
"Ash is a good boy, Grandpa has always known it." Grandpa Shen murmured in a low voice, his tone was a bit vicissitudes.
Then, it seemed that he finally found someone to confide in, without Jing Xun asking, he directly narrated what happened back then, much more detailed than Shen Yijin.
The focus is on the condition of the husband after the death of the mother.
"The person who jumped down from the upstairs will have a distorted expression because of the fear of death at that moment... Normally, I can't imagine that scene, let alone Ah Jin's biological mother...!"
"At that time, Ah Jin burned for a full month. He was only five years old that year! Originally, five years old was still an age that could not fully remember things, but Ah Jin was smart since he was a child. He was a prodigy, with a good memory, quick response, and good understanding He is much stronger than other children of the same age. Other children may not know what happened, but Ah Jin knows everything...he understands everything! Ordinary people have said Hui Yiyao, and grandpa didn’t believe it at all before. Even if I don’t want to believe something like this, I have to believe it.”
Hearing Grandpa Shen’s sighs, Jing Xun wanted to go back to that time, and hugged Mr. tightly to comfort him.
But he couldn't go back to Shen Yijin's past.
I can only live with my husband now.
Although Jing Xun was still a little puzzled about the situation at that time.
"But why did Mr.'s mother jump off the building?"
"No one knows about this... Maybe it was because of Ah Jin's unruly father!"
Speaking of this, Grandpa Shen was also very annoyed.
How could a family that was once good suddenly be ruined?
The most irritating thing is that his eldest son, Ah Jin's father, brought back a woman within a few months and said he wanted to marry her, completely ignoring Ah Jin's life
... What I said was to find a stepmother for Ah Jin who could take care of him, I thought about it, and agreed after thinking it made sense. I didn’t expect that woman! And his father who didn’t work properly! Everything is not a good thing!”
Shen The woman my grandfather mentioned should be my stepmother, Ms. Yang.
Although it was a sequel, she was married into the Shen family by the Ming media, and Zha Gong was conceived later, so she belonged to the three generations of the Shen family with good roots and decent roots.
Jing Xun knew this setting from the very beginning.
Looking at it now, it should be that Ms. Yang put all her energy on her own son after the birth of the second young master. Even because the second generation of the Shen family was greedy for pleasure and was useless, when the two children had not fully grown up, she Then they began to plan how to attack Shen Yijin and seize the Shen family's future property.
Since she did not fulfill her promise to treat Shen Yijin well when she entered the door, Grandpa Shen has always disliked her for so many years.
But she is still Shen Bohan's mother after all, and she has been in the Shen family for so many years, so even if the old man doesn't like it, he won't drive her out.
Jing Xun didn't want to criticize these things, so he inquired again: "Is the situation of the gentleman like it is now?" "It's not the same, at first
Ah Jin didn't know how to control his emotions, and every rainy day he made a lot of noise. A few times I had to send him directly to the hospital, and a few times I had to tie him up..."
Grandpa Shen recalled faintly, he still sighed at first, and then he became angry after talking about it: "Someone still said in this gap The sarcastic words, you want me to send Ah Jin to a mental hospital! Tell me, is this human words!" "
Grandpa, don't be angry, it's all over." Jing Xun was afraid that the old man would be angry, so he quickly comforted him, and then Changed the subject: "Then what do those gentlemen's doctors say?"
"Some people think that Ah Jin was frightened, and some people think that Ah Jin was sad because of his mother's death... Hey, it's one thing to know the reason. Going out is another matter."
Grandpa Shen said: "Ah Jin made a lot of noise at that time, I thought it was because he felt uncomfortable seeing the house, so I demolished the house and rebuilt the garden, but it was useless .Later, I persisted in the treatment, but it didn’t work. And then suddenly one day, Ah Jin suddenly calmed down. He didn’t cry or make noise when it was raining. ...that is what it looks like now."
Jing Xun: "..."
"But apart from this, Ah Jin looks like a normal person again... he is even more normal than a normal person, and his reading is better than before, and he has never Emotional. I know this is obviously an abnormal behavior, but no one can cure it, so it can only be so exhausting. After a long time, I also want to understand, as long as Ah Jin can feel better, grandpa doesn’t ask him for anything up.
Just grow up a little more, Ah Jin suddenly came to talk to me. He said that he wanted to leave here and study abroad. Although I was reluctant, I couldn't dissuade him. At that time, Ah Jin's father hadn't had any accidents, and the family of three was enjoying themselves happily all day long. Grandpa was also afraid that Ah Jin would feel uncomfortable staying here, so he agreed.
Jing Xun: "Hmm. " "
Grandpa Shen didn't speak according to the standard time and logic. It was completely like the chatter of an old man when he recalled the past, but Jing Xun still listened carefully. He echoed it occasionally. These past events should be rare for Grandpa Shen
. Mentioned to outsiders that he used to tell his grandfather about his husband's recent affairs, but now it is Grandpa Shen who tells him, and he wants to listen and is willing to listen carefully. Grandpa Shen said: "Later, I also began to wonder whether
this Ash's life. That time was too coincidental, if Ah Jin hadn’t seen the tragic state of his mother’s death, even if it was only a second away... Maybe Ah Jin would not have become what she was later..." Jing Xun: "Grandpa means Mr.
I happened to see his mother... Thinking about it this way, it does violate the principles of physics..."
Grandpa Shen sighed: "Hey, you didn't know that the lights were on in the room at that time, so it stands to reason that people can't see it when they are indoors." It was too clear outside, but at that time there was a flash of lightning..."
Jing Xun: "..."
The lightning illuminated everything outside, and it happened to illuminate the falling mother of the husband, so he could see it more clearly... ...
Jing Xun suddenly remembered the time when he met Mr. for the first time, and when he fell ill for the second time...the lights were turned off in the room. Not only had to draw the thick curtains, but Shen Yijin would
not Turn on the light
...
At that time, he felt strange, how could he sit alone in the dark even though he was in a bad mood... Wouldn't that be more depressing. Thinking about it now... Maybe the husband would be more afraid to do it than the darkness where
you can't see your fingers
The thing is actually to turn on the lights.
Subconsciously, I am afraid that there will be light in the room when it rains, I am afraid of thunder, and I am afraid of looking out of the window.
Because when the three are combined, it is the beginning of Mr.'s nightmare...
Sitting there, Jing Xun's whole body was stiff, and he remembered that there was actually a fourth element.
He remembered that Shen Yijin said that the reason why he lived in a nightclub before was because he didn't like living at home.
So what's not to like?
...It was reflected on the window at that moment, the various decorations that can only be found in a warm and sweet home. In Shen Yijin's residence, there are many books in the study room, but there are almost no other personal items, and it is cleaner than the model room... This is
actually all due to the fact that I don't like the similar feeling of home reflected on the glass.
.
...
Jing Xun suddenly felt a pain in his heart, it was a real colic, a feeling he was no stranger to before.
It's just that this time it's not because of a bad heart disease.
It's acquired. Simply because of Shen Yijin, he felt pain uncontrollably.
"Actually, Ah Jin is already much better." This time it was Grandpa Shen's turn to comfort Jing Xun in reverse: "I heard from Xiao Tang that there are already a lot of things in your home." "...I don't know." Jing
Xun Staring blankly, he said in a daze, "Grandpa, I don't know..."
He would throw the unfinished books in the bedroom, afraid that he would be thirsty when he went to sleep, and every night he would put a glass full of it by the bedside. water cup.
In addition, when I see the small things I like, I will buy them back and put them in the room. The unfinished work materials will be spread casually on the coffee table or the small bar. Sometimes the clothes and the like are too lazy to put them away when they are tired. ...
He thought it was adding life to the family.
But he never thought that these things might make Shen Yijin...
"But Ah Jin didn't say anything, did he?" Grandpa Shen put on a smile again, and his appearance became quite comfortable, "He didn't feel Uncomfortable. I think Ah Jin's spirit is getting better and better recently, and this is all thanks to Xiao Xun." "...
"
Grandpa Shen said mysteriously again: "There was also thunder and rain this morning. Jin, he..." Jing Xun: "...
"
Thinking of what he did to my husband this morning, and the pain on his neck The extra bright marks...Jing Xun really wanted to burrow into the ground.
Fortunately, what Grandpa Shen asked was: "Did Ah Jin draw the curtains this morning?" "
Uh." Jing Xun was stunned.
I really don't think so.
Because the husband has been getting better during this period of time, and he doesn't often cover the curtains tightly, so Jing Xun didn't realize the abnormality before.
But after being reminded by Grandpa Shen, he suddenly remembered that Mr. Ming obviously felt uncomfortable, but he didn't close the curtains.
Is it because it's already daylight?
Or for some other reason...?
In the end, Grandpa Shen said with a smile: "Although he doesn't rely on medical treatment in the later stage, this child, Ah Jin, is not willing to admit defeat in his bones." "?" There is nothing wrong with what Grandpa said
. But what does this have to do with not admitting defeat... Jing Xun didn't understand for a while. Grandpa Shen said: "Grandpa guesses, he is forcing himself to look out of the window." Jing Xun:! This time he understood. "...Mister, do you want to fight poison with fire?" Because after returning to the house, it is easy to think about the past, and it is easy to get sick. So I took advantage of the illness to force myself to overcome my inner demons... "Well, he has done this before, although he didn't succeed." Grandpa Shen has already picked up a chess piece, planning to return to playing chess. As he spoke, he raised his eyelids again, "Before, he couldn't hold on for even half a minute. How long did he hold on this time?" Jing Xun: "...!!"
It took at least two minutes from when he woke up to when he walked in front of Shen Yijin.
Not to mention that he had no idea how long Shen Yijin had stood in front of the window before.
And... until the end, the curtain of that window was not closed...
Although the bed was still far away from that window, this also broke the old law of Mr.
Jing Xun was also shocked.
"Haha." Hearing that Shen Yijin had broken the record, Grandpa Shen laughed even louder.
He is a character who has seen all kinds of storms, no matter how much he loves his grandson, he can still be calm.
"I watched Ah Jin grow up, and I know what he's thinking. He wants to get well soon and be a normal person."
Grandpa Shen dropped his son as he said that.
"He must think that only in this way can he be worthy of Xiao Xun."