— "And how long do you think it'll take you?"
— "I don't know, maybe 3-4 weeks."
— "A month?! Bella, that's too long..." — he sighed and looked down, he knew I needed to go, he knew it was a reasonable amount of time due to all the things I had to do.
— "Babe, I will do things the best I can, but I don't see how it can take me less than that. Just visiting my family will take me a week. I have to personally let my patients know... and that alone is another week. I have to make arrangements regarding my home, my bank accounts, my doctorate... Sweetie... please understand it's not that simple for me to..." — and he suddenly interrupted me
— "It's not the simple... it's not that simple!!!! You always say that!!! Sshibal!! Can't you come up with a better excuse?!!!" — his eyes turned dark and his face red.
I was speechless and afraid of his reaction, I didn't know how to respond.
— "A-are you serious Yoongi? Are you really going to throw that to me like that? After all we've... I'VE BEEN THROUGH, ALL I'VE DONE? Haven't I proven to you that I do want us? That even if I have been strong this can still be very hard on me?" — I started crying. — "All this time I've been thinking of us, of YOU, putting myself aside for the sake of trying to make this almost impossible relationship work! And you say THAT?!!! How could you???"
I left his room slamming the door behind me and went straight to my room, I heard him calling out my name asking me to wait, but I didn't fucking care, I was so pissed off at him, at me being 'weak'.
<brain talking>
"Oh, don't you dare Bella, don't you dare! WEAK?! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! You're the strong one in this mess, pleasing everybody but yourself, and complying with everything they ask you! DON'T YOU DARE turn this shit on you!" (Shut up! Stupid brain, shut up!)
Once in my room, I heard him calling at the door, but I ignored him, I didn't want to see him. He was calling my name, saying he was sorry, and I heard his voice break a couple of times obviously crying, but I didn't care, I was hurt, and I couldn't believe he was the one to hurt me that much. I just laid down in my bed in a fetal position, covered my ears with a pillow, and cried myself to sleep.