"I'm not going anywhere" you said to Jungkook as he hugged you instantly and very tightly. You both didn't have any fear of people watching as both of you cried holding each other.
"Thank you for coming" he said between his sobs as you tried to console him.
"How could I not? I'm not gonna leave you alone... don't worry." You say as he pulls apart from you and you cup his cheeks holding his face which has gone colorless. He smelled of sweat and his face was covered in stains of dried tears.
"Jungkook... the children need you" you tell him as he keeps wiping his tears but they don't stop flowing.
"What do I tell them? I still can't believe it... please tell me its not true. Please..." he says losing control over his emotions.
"I know its very hard... I know..." You said caressing his hair.
"I'd stopped imagining a life without her. Now not even imagining. I have to actually live in a reality where she doesn't exists. I can't...." his shoulders shake as you know his cries come from a very deep place inside. All the other people in the room slowly left leaving you both alone. Somehow they realised you were the only one who could help and understand Jungkook at this time.
"We gotta show Ria and Yejun how life has to go on. We don't have to tell them but show them how to deal with this loss. I know they're very little and Dahyun was the one who was always with them... it'll be very hard for them but now they've to grow up to know how to grow up without a mother. But not having their mother beside them doesn't means they're alone in this world. You're there and I'm here..."
"Please stay..." he begs you with helplessness indicated in his eyes. He was fearful as he had come to face his worst fears.
"I will stay here for as long as you need me..." You assure him that he's not alone. "For now let's go talk to them... they need you Jungkook. For them you've to be strong..." You tell him stroking his head very gently and affectionately. He walks with you to the room where Ria and Yejun were sleeping. He sat beside them when you brought him a sandwich. He refused to eat but you somehow managed to feed it to him and then gave him two to three glasses of water.
"You wanna take a shower. Clear your head while you do so?" You ask him when he nods in yes. You give him a towel and a pair of clothes when he goes in there.
"Do you think they're coping through sleep?" He asks.
"Whatever gets them through this let them do it..." You tell him when he lays down on the bed with his whole body aching.
"You want a painkiller?" He muttered a little "yes" as he closed his eyes for the first time in three days.
"It's all gonna be okay" you tell him as he tries to sleep. You went to the kitchen to make something and when you returned the kids slept on both sides of Jungkook clinging to him as if they're afraid of losing him.
"Is mom never going to come back?" Yejun asks when you walk inside the room and sit on the edge of the bed.
"Yes baby but..." You fall short of words as he stares at you with his innocent doe eyes. He hugs you feeling overwhelmed by his thoughts as he tries hard to conceive the situation as much as he possibly can.
Jungkook wakes up from his light sleep as he couldn't sleep deeply and held Yejun close to himself on his chest when Ria woke up from her light daze and hugged him too.
"Dad..." She whispers holding him as he caresses both of them trying to keep them both close to himself.
"I'm right here... right here.. you're not alone okay?"
"We know..." She says melting your heart once again with her wisdom beyond her age.
"From now its just us. Promise me you'll tell me everything. Anything you feel, anything you want to share, your fears and your worries tell me everything."
"I miss her daddy..." Yejun says and the three of them cried as they hugged each other. You couldn't help but break down.
Days passed and life went on. The children seemed to adjust into a life without their mother. Although it was hard you tried to help their family as much as you could. Jungkook took meds to put himself to sleep at night. There was a quietness looming over him but for his children he kept himself composed.
They started to build new routines and new practices. A whole new way of living started to develop for them. After all a mother can only know what her kids actually need but you tried your best to understand them and to cater accordingly.
The kids were put to bed when Jungkook sat on the sofa staring into the darkness of the night through the huge glass pane door which opened into the balcony.
"Hey... can we talk for a while or do you wanna go sleep?" You asked him looking at his face for a response.
"It's fine. I guess somehow its all falling back into place slowly but yeah it is... thanks for being here. Nobody else is cooperating with them. I couldn't have done it alone."
"Jungkook for as long as you need me..." You tell him putting a hand on his shoulder.
"Now tell me the truth. How did your marriage not work?"
You take a deep breath before starting to answer his question. Sitting on the seat on the side of the sofa you looked at him as you spoke.
"The inability to produce a child broke us apart. Of course there were many other factors but that was the biggest one..."
"I know you need someone too who listens to you. Tell me everything." He said as you continued.
"Remember when you were on a trip and me and Jaesung came here. When he met Ria he started asking for a baby. I was ready but I asked him to give me a few more months. I had just settled into a new job there so I couldn't take a break so early. Well then six months after that we started trying. At first it was just casual, we just stopped using contraceptives and nothing else. Then as months passed by and there was still nothing we started timing the fertile window and slowly stopped a lot of unhealthy habits. Jaesung used to feel irritated when each month I told him I had my period on the exact date.
When even after a year nothing happened we finally decided to meet a doctor but they couldn't detect a problem in any of us. That was when the struggle started. Jaesung... he desperately wanted a biological child.
We literally met every doctor there and got tests done I don't even know how many times but each of them said there was no problems. We still tried every damned treatment possible. Ivf, iui, donor sperms, donor eggs, chinese medicine, ayurveda, homeopathy, allopathy... you name it we did it. I tried every possible thing. We were literally having sex everyday no matter what. I don't know why but nothing worked for us. Nothing just got me pregnant.
I gave up any hopes of ever conceiving a child after going through it for five years. I wanted to adopt. I myself have only survived because I was adopted. Jaesung was against it... I don't know why. He started saying things then he started doing things. And then it all came out one night when we fought so badly that we hit each other. I wouldn't say it was completely his fault since I did too... but then he went ahead and falsely accused me of sexual abuse.
That took away from me what even being childless or a broken marriage didn't... my job was gone, my savings, I lost my health. Thankfully I had found a team who helped me and I did get justice, divorce and alimony.
He didn't used to pay for any of it... he started to not listen to me during sex. He used to come home drunk all the time. Most nights he didn't even came home. When he was home he would only insult me and just.... I don't wanna remember any of it now...
I've come a long way Jungkook"
"I had no idea at all..."
"You were lucky to have found peace with Dahyun. She was so happy with you..."
"I was happy too... After Ria I was really happy. There were ups and downs too but we were content with each other. I guess the world couldn't see us like that. I had come to love her and now she's gone. And..." he cried again as you held him with his head resting on your shoulder.
"I was content with just Ria but she wanted me to have a baby of my own so badly. She even suffered a miscarriage before Yejun but still she tried again after that. And... I haven't told this to anyone.." he pulled himself away as he looked away from you when you looked at him with questioning eyes.
"She was pregnant when she died. I found a test... she was going to show it to me later... I didn't only lose her I also lost a child..."
"Are you sure about that?"
"We didn't think it could happen anymore but we didn't use a condom a couple of times last month. So I guess it was true..." he tells you. If it were any other time when he would've mentioned his and his wife's sex life you would've been disgusted by the thought of it but right now this revelation only made you feel more pain. Dahyun's death wasn't something which should've happened but yet somehow her story was over.
In this moment you couldn't do anything but just offer him comfort in your arms as you both laid on the couch in the dark room. You both had been through a lot but now you had each other and could stay beside for the rest of your life.