As the night wore on, Percy's bad mood lingered, casting a shadow over his thoughts. He couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy and possessiveness towards Nico. He knew it was irrational, but he couldn't shake the feeling that he wanted Nico all to himself, away from the prying eyes and distractions of others.
The room was quiet, the only sound being the soft breaths of the two boys. Percy turned to face Nico, who was peacefully asleep, his features relaxed and angelic. The sight softened Percy's heart, reminding him of the deep affection he felt for the younger demigod.
Percy's thoughts shifted from his frustration to a more introspective state. He realized that his insecurities were getting in the way of his happiness. He understood that Nico had his own life and friendships, and it was unfair of Percy to expect him to revolve solely around him.
Gently, Percy reached out and brushed a strand of hair away from Nico's face, his touch light and tender. He couldn't help but smile at the peaceful expression on Nico's sleeping face.
"I'm being an idiot," Percy murmured to himself, his voice barely audible in the quiet room. "Nico deserves to have other people in his life, and I should be happy for him."
He leaned in and secretly pressed a soft kiss on Nico's forehead, his lips lingering for a moment before pulling away. Percy knew he needed to let go of his possessiveness and let Nico have his own life, heck even though he greatly yearned for a relationship with Nico, the two weren't even together, but he just couldn't. This unnerving want just didn't let him out of its clutches.
Percy then closed his eyes, focusing on his breathing, and finally, after quite some time he slowly successfully drifted off to sleep.
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As Percy woke up the next morning, his feelings of jealousy persisted, weighing heavily on his mind. He couldn't shake the negativity that lurked in his mind, even though he knew it was irrational.
Percy forced a smile as he greeted Nico, pretending everything was fine. He didn't want to burden his beloved with his internal struggles. Throughout the day, he maintained a facade of normalcy, engaging in conversations and activities as if nothing troubled him. But inside, it was eating him alive.
Nightfall brought no relief. As Percy lay in bed, his mind raced with thoughts of Nico being close to someone else, someone who might understand him better or make him happier. Jealousy and other negative emotions grew like a storm, tormenting his thoughts and hindering his ability to sleep. He scolded himself internally, berating his own irrationality and possessiveness.
Percy tossed and turned, his mind filled with imagined scenarios and fears of losing Nico and himself along the way. He felt the weight of the burden he carried, unable to find solace or peace of mind. The sleepless nights only worsened his mood and deepened his frustration.
Despite his internal scolding, Percy found himself unable to let go of his weird thoughts and sudden changes in his personality. He felt like he was slowly losing himself to something.
Day after day, Percy continued to put on a brave face, hiding his internal struggle from Nico and their friends. He grew increasingly isolated, trapped in his own emotional turmoil. The burden of his concern and fear became an overwhelming force that he couldn't escape.
Nico quickly noticed Percy's haggard appearance and sensed that something was deeply troubling him. Concerned, he approached Percy and gently asked if everything was alright. Percy hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to express his internal torment.
Finally, Percy mustered the courage to open up to Nico, albeit with some hesitation. He admitted that he had been tormented by his own thoughts, overwhelmed by a mix of emotions that he couldn't fully understand or express. He didn't delve into the specifics, but he made it clear that it was eating away at him.
Nico listened attentively, his expression softening with empathy. Recognizing the gravity of Percy's struggle, he knew that words alone might not be enough to provide solace. Instead, Nico had an idea to help ease Percy's troubled mind.
Understanding Percy's love for the beach and its calming effect on him, Nico suggested they go there together. Without saying much, they made their way to the shoreline, the sound of crashing waves enveloping them as they walked in silence.
As they reached a quiet spot on the beach, Nico sat down next to Percy, both of them gazing out at the vast expanse of the ocean. The rhythmic sound of the waves and the vastness of the sea seemed to momentarily quiet Percy's restless thoughts.
In the tranquility of the moment, Percy felt a sense of comfort and connection. The silent presence of Nico beside him served as a balm to his troubled soul. They didn't need to speak; their bond and understanding transcended words.
For hours, they remained in peaceful silence, allowing the ebb and flow of the ocean to soothe their troubled hearts. The weight of Percy's burden gradually lifted, replaced by a sense of companionship and the reminder that he wasn't alone in his struggles.
In this moment of stillness and quiet, Percy found solace, even if temporary, from his torment. Nico's support and their shared presence on the beach served as a temporary respite from his restless thoughts. It was a small step towards healing, a reminder that there was someone who cared and was willing to be there for him.
As Percy and Nico sat on the beach, the sound of the crashing waves creating a soothing backdrop, Percy's troubled thoughts weighed heavily on his mind. He gazed out at the vast expanse of the ocean, a reflection of the turmoil within him.
"Nico," Percy finally spoke, his voice tinged with concern. "Lately, I've been feeling like a completely different person. It's like there's this darkness inside me that I can't shake off."
Nico turned to face Percy, his expression filled with compassion and understanding. He reached out, offering his hand as a gesture of support. "Tell me what's been going on, Percy. I'm here to listen."
Percy took a deep breath, the weight of his words hanging in the air. "I've been struggling with my own thoughts, my emotions running wild. I've been acting possessive, and so much more negative, and it's not who I am. It scares me, Nico."
Nico squeezed Percy's hand gently, reassuring him of his presence. "We all go through challenging times, Percy. It's part of being human. But it doesn't define who you are. You're strong, and you have the power to overcome this."
Percy nodded, his eyes searching Nico's for validation. "I don't want to lose myself, Nico. I don't want this darkness to consume me and hurt the people I care about, especially you."
Nico's voice was soft but unwavering. "You won't lose yourself, Percy. You're aware of the changes, and that's the first step toward regaining control. We'll figure this out together."
Percy's gratitude swelled within him, knowing he had someone like Nico by his side. He leaned closer, seeking solace in their shared presence. At that moment, his concerns and fears seemed a little more manageable.
"I'm grateful for you, Nico," Percy whispered, his voice filled with sincerity. "Your understanding and support mean the world to me."
Nico smiled, his eyes reflecting warmth and encouragement. "And I'm grateful for you too, Percy. You're not alone in this. We'll find a way to navigate through the darkness together."
Percy's eyes met Nico's, gratitude shining through the depths of his gaze. A smile formed on his lips, a mixture of relief and appreciation for Nico's unwavering support. At that moment, he felt an overwhelming surge of affection for the boy, a love that had long been silently harbored within him.
Without thinking, guided purely by the depth of his emotions, Percy leaned in and pressed his lips against Nico's. The kiss was brief yet filled with longing and tenderness, a silent confession of the feelings that had grown in his heart. But just as quickly as it happened, Percy pulled away, his eyes widening with realization.
A wave of panic washed over him as he realized that he had never explicitly confessed his feelings to Nico. The weight of his unspoken words and the fear of potentially ruining their friendship hung heavily in the air. Percy's mind raced, unsure of how to navigate this delicate situation.
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YO PERCY U GOOD? (Also sorry I published this chapter and deleted it right after but there were some things I needed to fix that I hadn't noticed before posting the chapter.)
Okay, I kinda feel this chapter has that rushed and unclear feeling but what do you guys think? Did you enjoy this chapter?
Also two chapters in one day?? Dam
Bye! <333