Narrator
Ever since Haerin left, Y/n had be quieter than ever. Y/n wouldn't eat or sleep and spent all their time boxing and studying.
Every so often, when Y/n felt lost or extremely lonely, they listened to Newjeans' songs or watch their showcase videos.
It was rough but Y/n wanted to respect Haerin's decision.
- Minji POV -
Y/n's state seemed to have gotten worse. I didn't know why until this morning when I was at the high school trying to make sure that the girls were getting ready for our next performance.
Haerin had arrived to school in a blackout car, being driven by Yoongi Oppa's driver. I didn't really think much of it until I asked if Y/n would be attending our performance.
Haerin just coldly answered, "Y/n-ssi and I broke up weeks ago."
She then explained that she had moved back on her own with Bangle and was now seeing a doctor to help her with her spectrum diagnosis. Yoongi Oppa would check up on her at least twice a week... but when it came to Y/n... she had completely cut them out.
Haerin's explanation for the break up made sense and seemed for the best.... but now I was afraid that Y/n wouldn't survive without the care of someone.
"Wanna come over to my place?" I asked Y/n-ssi as we finished our last class of the day.
"Still on that?" Y/n responded in an annoyed tone.
"No, I'm not. Plus why would it matter if you and Haerin are broken up now," I answered back in the same tone.
"I'm sorry but a dog is forever loyal to it's owner," Y/n coldly replied before walking away from me.
I rolled my eyes in annoyance before yelling, "I was just trying to be nice!"
"Yeah, right!" Y/n yelled back as they continue to be on their way.
- Y/N POV -
I kept holding on to the hope that Haerin just needed time. That maybe she was going through something that she didn't wanna share with me or that she felt like she needed to handle it on her own.
I had almost made it home when it suddenly started to rain.
Out of instinct, I grabbed my umbrella out of my backpack and ran down to the high school.
When I arrived, I realized I was soaking wet.
I hadn't used my umbrella at all or even paid attention to the rain. All I wanted was to make sure Haerin was okay..... but she was.
When I arrived to the front gate of the school, I saw Haerin walking across the street with an umbrella.... unafraid and confident to be in the rain.
I couldn't help but stare down on at my feet and began to cry.
Haerin seemed more than okay without me.
And it's not that I didn't think that she wasn't capable of being on her own.... it's that I loved taking care of her.
My love language was taking care of her.
But she didn't need me anymore.
And that's why she had dumped me.
I stood in rain without consciousness of it. I was just crying as if the raindrops falling were my own.
Suddenly, I felt the rain stop but I could still hear the sound it made.
"Here to make sure I'm okay?" I suddenly heard someone say.
I looked up to find a smiling Haerin looking up at me with her umbrella over the both of us.
I couldn't help but look back down in shame.
I had been told to not go looking for her and to respect her decision... and I had failed to do so.
"Are you not afraid of the rain anymore or are you just not feeling like yourself?" Haerin whispered as she placed her hand on my cheek.
I began to sob even harder.
"You know, even if we didn't end up together. I am extremely glad you were a part of my life," Haerin said as she caressed my cheek.
It hurt so much.
It hurt so much to have her act as if she was never going to come back. As if my hopes were in vain.
"I'll walk you home," Haerin offered.
"I'm okay," I sniffled as I propped my umbrella open.
I began to walk away when Haerin suddenly reached my pace and began to walk next to me.
"We have a showcase coming up. It's to get contracted into Kazuha-ssi's company to become an official idol group," She began to speak.
I sniffled and continued to look down at the floor.
I wanted to runaway and hide. I wanted to act as if seeing her didn't hurt.... because it didn't seem like it hurt her.
"I want you to come and su-"
Haerin was about to invite me to the showcase when I decided to interrupt.
Seeing her up on stage, smiling and being happy....
I didn't want to see that.
Not because I wasn't proud of her... but because I didn't want to think that she got over me so fast.
"Your shoelace is untied," I interrupted her before kneeling down to tie her shoe.
"'My socks are wet," Haerin suddenly said as I tied her shoe.
I ignored her remark.
"Do you still carry spare socks in your backpack?" She asked.
"Yes," I whispered... hoping she didn't hear me.
But... she did.
"Can you help me with a spare pair?" She asked softly.
I stayed on my knees hoping she would get the hint that this was too much for me, but instead she sat on a nearby bench.
I sighed and took out a pair of fresh socks out of my backpack. I always made sure I carried a brand new pair for Haerin... but ever since the break up.. I had taken them out... so all I had was my clean pair of extra plush socks for after boxing.
I got up to take off Haerin's shoes and help her with a change of socks... but as soon as I got down to help her.... she kicked me.
I couldn't help but think back to when I first started to fall for her.
I began to sob again and quickly got up from the wet floor.
"Here just take the socks, I need to go" I sniffled as I handed her the pair of socks.
I then started walking off to head to the boxing gym.
I needed to release my emotions in the only way I knew how.
- Haerin POV -
It wasn't a surprise that Y/n-ssi had come to find me during a rainy day... but I was still as surprised as always.
Even after the break up, Y/n-ssi never failed to come running to my aid.
I knew immediately Y/n wasn't okay when they stood in the rain crying. Y/n-ssi didn't cry much. It was an easy queue for me to learn.
But a reaction I had recently learned of when people are crying was to try make them laugh or remind them of things that make them happy.
I also learned it was good to comfort them but I didn't know how to comfort Y/n-ssi.... without touching them.
Y/n-ssi always seemed to get better with a hug or a kiss... but we were broken up... so I couldn't do that anymore.
I realized my socks were wet all of a sudden and remembered how much Y/n-ssi smiled whenever they took good care of me when it rained.
I specially remembered how special it made me feel on the first day Y/n-ssi tried to take care of me.
I was using the umbrella I took from Y/n-ssi that day and I knew Y/n-ssi always carried spared socks. So, I tried to recreate one of the most special moments we ever had... but Y/n-ssi didn't seem to like it.
Y/n-ssi started to cry again and tried to run off but not before handing me their best pair of socks.
I watched as Y/n-ssi ran off, tossing their umbrella to side in the process before starting to sprint away.
I sighed in sadness... feeling bad that I had hurt Y/n-ssi.
I really wanted to invite Y/n-ssi to our next showcase but I didn't even really get the chance to.
"I bet you know Y/n-ssi more than you think," I remember The doctor said to me.
"It doesn't have to be anything emotional. It's just a logical thing or a behavior that people do all the time when they're acting a specific way. That's how you can tell how they might be feeling," I remember The doctor teaching me.
I did my best to think of Y/n-ssi' behavior. All of it, specially when Y/n was upset and told me they were upset.
I smiled to myself and felt proud when I realized that Y/n-ssi always did the same thing when they felt sad or angry.
It was boxing.
I walked across the street to grab the umbrella Y/n-ssi had abandoned then began to walk to the boxing gym.
"I want you to know that I'm trying for you," I whispered to myself.
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Author's Note: Who do you think is hurting more right now, Y/n or Haerin? >.<