[Felix]
The early morning was want the best time for any of us to wake up. But San was in a happy mood and he wanted to make breakfast for everyone. However we were all stuck in a surprised state when Heeseung came wondering into our kitchen. I shared a glance with Jeongin, who turn to Hyunjin. Who only shrugged.
Though the surprise visit didn't bother San at all, the more the merrier for him and HaeJin was never bothered by anything. It bothered me and Jeongin. Especially me, knowing the reaction he had to Hyunjin's truth yesterday. I was expecting a full blown explanation out of him after we all got through this breakfast.
We sat down at the kitchen table, including HaeJin which was another surprise because I assumed they would take their breakfast to-go straight back up to their room like I've seen them do every other time I've had breakfast over here on the weekends. Just as San finished humming and stacking the pancakes on the platter in the center of the table, Hongjoong came hopping down the stairs hair, wet from a shower practically glowing and I suddenly realized why my friend was in such a good mood.
That glow that Hongjoong was wearing matched the one San had... and that, was a Sex glow. I shook the image from my mind and started to stack my plate.
"I hadn't realized you stayed the night Hongjoong." Cheongsan teased and wiggling his eyebrows, obviously picking up in the same note I did. I couldn't help but stifle my laughter. It made the poor boy shy and dip his down to avoid eye contact as a bold red blush colored his cheeks.
I mean, it's always been obvious that the two were a serious couple. But personally, based on the reactions of Hongjoong, I'd say this was his first serious relationship. Though I can't expect any different from San, he's never been one to start things slow. He's all about the seriousness of a relationship. Gives all of himself in every single one. But I'm rooting for him and Joong. They've lasted longer than any of his previous ones. The whole damn school year.
"So Heeseung, what time did you get here last night? I'm afraid I don't remember seeing you?" San asked as he sat down with us.
"Oh that cause I got here at two in the morning, long train ride and all. Not like I catch a private helicopter. Hyunjin let me in."
"Oh, okay. Well Good morning then. You guys have any plans for today?" San asked looking between the two brothers. Hyunjin tensed up and Heeseung just shook his head with a shrug.
"Don't know yet, me coming here was kind of a last minute decision." Heeseung seem so calm and collected, but it was so very clear he wasn't telling the whole truth. Maybe it was only clear to me though, knowing what I know, cause San, Cheongsan and Hongjoong just smiled and continued the casual morning conversation over breakfast.
I noticed HaeJin looking between me and Heeseung, Jeongin and Hyunjin as if they could sense some kind of tension filling the air between the four of us. They noticed I was staring back and we locked eyes for a minute before they went back to eating and scrolling through their phone casually. Nothing really did seem to both them at all. So casual about everything they did.
After my brief distraction moment I looked over at Hyunjin who just glanced up at me without a word before stuffing his mouth with pancakes. I made a slight "what the fuck" at him and glanced at Heeseung, only to receive no response and I gave up. I pick of my plate, my movements loud with frustration as I dumped the food I wasn't going to it and harshly dropped the plate in the sink. Thankful it didn't break otherwise Cheongsan would have my ass. But I proceeded to storm out of the kitchen everyone watching me.
"And imma take that as my cue." HaeJin said as they followed suit in leaving the table, escaping to their room and plugging their headphones into their ears as if to block out whatever was about to go down here.
San abruptly soon from the table and followed me out into the living room, and of course Hongjoong followed thinking that we were about to fight, but based on my friend's expression, he was more worried about my random out burst than angry for disrupting a not-so-perfect breakfast between friends.
"What was that about Lix?" He asked quietly, making sure the other couldn't hear even though they were staring. Hongjoong beside him giving me that polite and ever so gentle look he always wears.
"Heeseung. He shouldn't fucking be here San." I harshly whispered through my teeth.
"That's Hyunjin's brother. It's expected he is here sometimes." San shrugged.
"You don't understand San, Heeseung said some pretty nasty fucking things to him yesterday. Me and Jeongin don't want him here. I don't understand why Hyunjin would just let him walk in like that after all the things that were said." I was riled up about it yes, but more confused than anything.
"Oh shit, Hyunjin told him about you guys didn't he?" Hongjoong asked. I think that may have been the first time I personally heard that man curse.
"Yea." I admitted and him and saw had a sudden look of realization. They shared a few whispers and San turned back to me.
"Look, I don't think anyone was expecting that conversation to end well between those two. Take Jungkook's and Huening Kai's reaction for example, and they are simple just friends. Heeseung's his brother. Now I'm not justifying whatever may have been said, but.. their reactions were because of your actions. Which are remotely justifiable, no offense."
"None taken, I was a sick. I know." I nodded.
"And that little fit you just threw probably doesn't help Heeseung's opinion. So do us all a favor, especially Hyunjin and yourself. Remain calm. And if you do fight, please take it outside. I mopped those floors last night. I don't want blood on them." He gave me a look and I could help but laugh at how his priorities were a clean floor over everything else. Though I knew he was mostly joking. Mostly.
"I get it. Okay? I do, just hun being here makes me uncomfortable." I admitted and noticed Jeongin leaving the kitchen to join the three of us. Cheongsan leaving the kitchen as well and giving me a supportive look from afar as if he knew something I didn't.
"Yes baby?" I looked at Jeongin who just sighed and held onto my arm.
"We have to talk, the four of us. That's why he is here." Jeongin informed me and I felt even more uncomfortable knowing that I was probably about to walk into a conversation with the guy and be utterly infuriated by every damn thing he says. But I simply nodded and allowed myself to be pulled away back into the kitchen, which everyone one else now knew to stay clear of.
We all stood their leaning against the counters in awkward and uncomfortable silence for too long before Jeongin spoke up.
"So are we gonna fucking talk or not?" He was just as pissed off by Heeseung's presence as I was.
"Yea, we are. I'm just waiting for Heeseung to say what he came here for." Hyunjin said turning to face his brother with his arms crossed.
"I already apologized Hyunjin! What more can I-" Heeseung vegan and was cut off by his brother.
"Oh no, not to me. I heard your apology, you next apology goes to them." His voice was harsh and firm, but what surprised me even more was that Hyunjin was pointing at Jeongin and me. And apparently so what Heeseung.
"Okay Jeongin I understand, but Why the fuck should I apologize to him?" Heeseung's brows furrowed in disgust at me.
"Because, you disrespected me and my relationship. A relationship that includes him, so you wanna start your amends. Fucking apologize."
Okay, so Angry Hyunjin is no bueno. Do not want to end up on that side of him ever in my life, but I also couldn't help but silently admit how fucking attractive this was.
"Look, I am sorry okay! I shouldn't have said the things I did! But you know how I feel about Felix! You know how half of us feel!"
"Actually it's only 3 out of the 12 people in our friend group. Last I checked that's a fourth, not half." I laughed at Hyunjin sarcasm, earning a glare and immediately backing down. Yea. Angry Hyunjin equals Scary Hyunjin. Got it.
"You know what I meant, Jinnie." Heeseung frowned. "I don't like the idea of this, it's scares me for you and for Jeongin. I literally watched what Felix put you through." He gestured to me and I frowned, it dawned on my that the biggest mistake of my life was gonna be used against me for the rest of of my life. "I apologize for being an asshole and being disrespectful, and saying all those hurtful things. But you can not stand their and ask me to apologize to the man who broke my brother in half when he hasn't even earned my fucking forgiveness."
"He doesn't need your forgiveness." Hyunjin said. "He only needs mine and Jeongin's."
"You think that but let me put it like this. Sunni is Felix in this situation. She broke me into fucking pieces. You'd hate her too right?" Heeseung began.
"Of course I would, but this isn't hypothetical."
"No but I need you to understand why I feel this way about this. I need you to all understand." He continued. "So Sunni, broke my heart and yet I get back with her after the worst heartbreak of my life. You'd be pretty pissed about it too."
"No, it's your decision to make."
"Hyunjin don't lie to me! You would be pissed at me too for going back to someone who heart me so detrimentally!"
"Okay yes! I'd be pissed! But I wouldn't fucking treat you the way you treated me!" Hyunjin screamed at him. Screw me and Heeseung fighting, if anything those two are about to fucking throw down right here in this kitchen. I looked at Jeongin, who just stood there watching with anger and worry. Hyunjin aaa in tears now and it took everything in me not to push Jeongin's arm out of the way and pull him away from the whole thing.
"You acted like my fucking mother, Heeseung." Hyunjin said with a cracked voice. "Thats the same shit I heard from her every day of my fucking life! And you knew that! Yet you said it so fucking carelessly! Yes, Felix fucking hurt me, but that all. His actions only hurt me. But you... you're my brother and your words fucking broke me."
Heeseung was in shock and looked like he was about to join Hyunjin in those tears and that's when Jeongin moved his arm and we both stepped forward at the same time to console them both. Jeongin let me have Hyunjin, and despite being angry at Heeseung he still comforted him. Hyunjin held onto me tightly and I walked out the door to the small side porch expanding from the kitchen, letting him breath the air outside.
I caught a small glimpse of Hongjoong in the living room, struggling not to come running in here like a concerned and supportive mother but he stayed. And I'm sure it's only because San was there to stop him.
Jeongin and Heeseung shortly followed us and once that screen door clicked shut, Heeseung was on his knees in front of his brother sharing his sadness and tears. I looked at Jeongin and knew we shared the same though.
This was no longer about us, this was between them. So we both kissed Hyunjin's shoulder and took our leave.
"It'll be okay. When everything's settled." Jeongin whispered and I chose to believe him. We joined the couple in the living room and Hongjoong didn't hesitate to ask if Hyunjin was okay.
"He will be when they both calm down." I said, going off my faith in Jeongin's words. Joong only nodded but kept clutching his necklace tightly and his gaze forever searching the kitchen and his ear listening for that screen door to open.
I leaned over to Jeongin, Joong's behavior peaking my interest. "What's that about?" I whispered quietly.
"After you broke things off, it obviously hurt us a lot. Hongjoong was there the whole first couple nights with us. He has a mothering soul, after that. Hyunjin basically became his child."
"You didn't?"
"Yes and no, I was able to hold myself together a lot better than Hyunjin could. So I only needed checked up in occasionally, while Hyunjin needed everything."
I turned my head towards the kitchen, only able to see a small part of that door. So Hyunjin partly lied and Heeseung was right. I didn't only just hurt him... I broke him. I guess Heeseung and I have something in common now.
We all sat in silence waiting to hear the creak of the door. And once we did Jeongin and I hair up, heading for the kitchen. Hongjoong almost followed but San had a firm grip on his thigh. I watched as Hongjoong tried to fight him in it but all he received was the shake of SAN's head in a firm 'no.'
Sorry, Joong that no means no.
Hyunjin and Heeseung came in quietly, instantly Heeseung bowed his head to me and began apologizing.
"I'm sorry, to the both of you. Not only just for the reason this all happened but because you had to witness that. Though I still don't like you Felix, my brothers happiness isn't my place to decide. If it's you, that's his choice and I am going to try my best to be supportive of all of you. It'll just be difficult as I know you know why." He said and I nodded.
"I accept your apology." I looked at Hyunjin and Jeongin. "Can I speak to him alone? Please?"
Hyunjin just looked between us as if that wasn't the best idea but I only just stayed silent and Jeongin pulled him away. Which was good because I'm sure Hongjoong's mama bear instincts were becoming overwhelming for him.
"Outside?" I asked and he nodded, following back to where he come from.
"Look, I understand why you hate me. Trust me, because I hate myself for it too. And I'm sorry." I said as I leaned against the side of the house, arms crossed over my chest. "I put him in a ridiculous amount of pain, which not only hurt him but hurt you all to watch. So I'm sorry, but just know that I do love him Heeseung, I love them both so fucking much."
He nodded. "I know. And I appreciate the apology, but I won't accept it until you've proven it worth it. So continue to love him that's all I can ask of you." He said. "But just know, if you hurt him again, I will personally dig your grave."
For some reason, those words pissed me off. Though it was an understandable statement, I was livid. So I just glanced at me and pushed myself off the house. I locked my gaze with his and he took a step back as if he was unsure of whether or not to be terrified.
"If you're scared, you should be. Cause yea, if I hurt him, I'll help you dig my own grave. But if you are to ever speak to him they way you have again. It won't be my grave that needs digging. It will be yours. Got that?" I hissed at him and he gulped with a hasty nod.
After I was sure he understand, my whole demeanor changed and I calm down. "Now, let's get back inside. Let Hyunjin know we haven't killed each other, yea?" I said and entered the house. He entered after me by the time I had already reached the threshold of the kitchen.
We joined everyone in the living room and Hyunjin immediately cuddled into my lap and I tried to pick up on whatever conversation was going on that drew such adorable laughter from him and Jeongin.
However I kept noticing Heeseung glance at me occasionally out of the corner of his eye as if he was trying to find whatever part of me had surfaced outside. But it wasn't anywhere to me found and I gave him a smile before zoning into the conversation.
Just mark my words Heeseung, that wasn't a threat... it was a promise.
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[A/N]
Another chapter completed!!!
Tell me what you thought! I wanna hear opinions! I couldn't help but let it get a little dramatic, it was a hefty chapter I'll admit.
But I think it fits after the last chapter and how you all felt about that one!
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~ Cece 🤍