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Eros Nyebe Haspen's P.O.V.
"Ares, warrior, listen to pére, its not like im not coming back, pére just need to work okay? And you..." i tap his nose gently with a smile on my lips as he scrunch his nose cutely.
"...you will be with uncle erhi muna" i ruffle his hair before cupping his cute little face bago ko siya halikan sa noo.
Alam ko naman mga flaminggo na nagtatampo na siya but i have to work for him.
He's my son...
I know nakakagulat ba? Not much naman siguro.
Not biologically mine pero inadopt ko na siya simula pagkapanganak sakanya ng kapatid ko.
Yes pi anak siya ni aphrodite.
But aphri doesn't wanna do anything with him which is horrible. Pano niya yun nagawa sa sarili niyang anak? To not care and just carelessly throw him away like he's nothing.
So i adopted him and cut all ties i have with aphrodite. Kahit anong pilit nila mommy for me to reconcile with her i would never agree.
She's a horrible person.
I named him ares ember haspen.
My baby.
Alam ko nagtatampo na siya cause ilang days na, na hindi ko siya natatabihan sa pagtulog
But its just....mommy who's also my manager always books my sched up kahit na i always told her na ayoko muna cause i wanna spend time with ares sana but she wouldn't budge.
She always tell me that it would be a waste if i turn down a offer for prestigious people and events.
Ares is a smart kid and he understand the situation ofcourse pero syempre like adults do may mga times talaga na his patience will run out and like a kid that he is syempre he'll sulk and cry about it.
I sigh as i hug his tiny body inside my arms when his eyes watered, i wanted badly to stay with him but i cant, people are expecting me.
Last na to.
Im gonna put my foot down and ask mom to stop taking works for me.
"Listen..listen to pére ares" i lean back a little to cup his face, his lips wobbling already, he also keeps sniffing na din, pinipigilan niya lagi wag magcry ayaw nya din kasing nasasad ako.
I smile at him in pure adoration, im so lucky that he's my son "after this night pére will come home and we'll go on a vacation okay?" I softly and slowly said to him.
His eyes immediately lit up and i knew i got him on that "promise pére?!" I giggle and nod
"promise pi" pag sagot ko sa kanya, i cant help but to copy his beam.
Ang cute ng anak ko.
And yes maybe i still use pi and sometimes words na ginagamit ko noon pero sa harap nalang ni erhi and ares.
Not infront of others ayoko na masabihan pa nila na weird and immature specially now that i have ares.
"You two done? Malalate ka na e-be" i look up and smile as i see erhi by the kitchen door.
I grab ares under his armpit and lift him up as i stood up from crouching down.
Agad naman pi syang kumapit sakin.
I rub his back as he burried his face on my neck, na para bang ayaw nya akong pakawalan.
Ayaw ko din naman syang pakawalan but i need to.
Erhi walk closer to us and carefully grab ares slowly peeling him away from me while giving me an amuse look.
Im holding ares kasi as tight as he's holding me huhu mamimiss na naman isang night na di katabi anak ko sa pagtulog.
I slowly let him go when someone knock on the door. For sure si mommy yan.
With a sigh i willingly gave him to erhi, i look at him reassuringly with a smile before pressing my lips on his forehead "see you at breakfast alright? I love you my little warrior" i pat his cheeks softly.
He have pout as he nod his head in understanding "i love you too pére" mahinang sagot niya which breaks my heart.
I know he's dishearted with me leaving again.
Promise my little warrior uwi agad si pére, sambit ko inside my heaf before looking at erhi with a sad smile.
I lean closer and kiss his cheeks goodbye "thank you erhi not ko alam gagawin ko if its not for you" sambit ko.
He chuckle softly "lahat naman gagawin ko para sainyo e-be you know that" i nodded with a small smile.
My heart beating a little faster because kinabahan me bigla sa reminder nya.
Im thankful kay erhi pero im not sure if i can love him the way na mahal nya ako.
After saying goodbye sa kanila lumabas na ko ng bahay, mom is waiting for me inside the car like i assumed.
Pag pasok ko palang sa car ay nakasimangot na siya "we are going to be late eros! How can you be this unprofessional!" She hiss at me as soon as the car started.
Hindi nalang me umimik instead i apologize ayoko na kasi humaba pa ang sermon niya.
"Sorry mommy" mahina kong sambit with my head held high.
I used to curl up to myself pero i slowly live to walk with chin up as i learn how i already written my name down in history.
Matagal ko ng narealize how controlling my parents are pero i let them hoping that they will change pero after this night? Im removing the chains they have on me, bayad naman na siguro ako sa utang na loob ko sa kanila.
Im not gonna let them dictate my whole life, not when i have my own baby already.
Its alright if they are just hurting me with their actions pero nadadamay na baby ko and im not gonna stand by it.
I need to be strong for ares and for myself. 24 years of my life was enough.
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"EROS NYEBE! YOU WILL NOT DO THIS! YOU CAN'T FIRE ME IM YOUR MOTHER!" Its 4 am and as soon as we made our way home sinabi ko na kay mommy ang matagal ko na dapat ginawa.
Lumabas ako ng kotse as soon as it stop infront of my house.
My heart pounding loud against my chest as i took wide strides towards the door while saying "i can mommy! Im an adult and i just fired you as my manager and its final!" i answer just loud enough for her to her, i was breathing heavily in anger, my blood pumping fast againts my veins and i can almost hear it rushing inside my head.
"AT BAKIT!? BECAUSE YOU ALREADY HAVE A NAME? NAGMAMAYABANG KA NA? IF ITS NOT FOR ME AND YOUR DAD HINDI KA MAKAKARATING SA KINALALAGYAN MO NGAYON EROS! WALA KANG UTANG NA LOOB!" Sigaw niya pabalik and thats when i snap.
Agad ko syang hinarap, my fist clench tightly in anger. Its always gonna go down to that. Sa utang na loob na pinagbayaraan ko na, i always follows what they want and for the twenty six years of my life sila ang may hawak ng buhay ko, how can she say that to me "no!" I hiss at her for the first time in my life i hiss at my mommy.
She look shock. Her eyes widen and her mouth slacked open.
"No mommy. I spend my life paying for the dept i shouldn't be paying cause it was your duty as my parents to support me. I spend my life trying to live up to your expectationsa mom." i pointed at her, my whole body shaking with all the bottled up emotions i have kept "and what i have?..." pagak akong tumawa kasabay ng pagpatak ng luha mula sa mata ko, im angry, im so angry at her and at myself for letting this happen
"what i have is because i earned it mommy. Ako yung nag aral ako yung nagpakahirap sa kung anong meron ako while you live your life in luxury and glory of what i have achieve mommy of what my name gives you. Hindi ko to pangarap but i did it because i love you. I did it because i want to make you proud and to fullfill your dreams through me and i did!" I harshly wipe my tears away, pausing as i look at her horrified face as if di sya makapaniwala sa bawat salitang sinasambit ko.
"I did it mommy but not once have you said you were proud of me you wanna know what you told me the day i had marked my name in the industry of music?" i smile at her sadly "ang sabi mo you are so proud that i made it because of your talent, kasi namana ko galing sayo" my voice shaking and rough as i remind her of how cruel she had been to me kahit nung araw na dapat masaya ako.
She cover her mouth with shaking hand as tears slowly falls from her eyes while she's shaking her head as if she cant believe na ganon ang trato niya sakin.
A trophy for her to flaunt around.
I wasn't her son, maybe by blood i am pero hindi naging ganun ang trato niya sakin.
"Now if you'll excuse me i have a son who's waiting for me, i think we're done here mommy" i took a deep breath before calmly saying these words.
Once i was inside my house, i lock the door behind me.
My knees are so week i almost collapse on the floor if its not for the wall the i immediately lean into and for erhi who appeared out of nowhere.
He have his arms around me holding me upright.
Feeling his familiar warmth agad ko siyang niyakap before crying and sobbing on his shoulder.
I feel relief realizing im finally free from.the shackle that mommy had on me yet at the same time ambigat ng dibdib ko.
I did the right thing naman pero i still hate myself for making my mommy cry.
I feel bad.
I didnt say anything, i just cried until i exhaust myself.
Tinulungan ako ni erhi makarating sa kwarto ng anak ko. Seeing him sleeping in his bed makes my heart feel lighter immediately.
Dahan dahan ko siyang tinabihan, he immediately scooch closer to me making me smile at his unconcious action.
My eyes feels heavy, so i let sleep take but not before i kiss my sons forehead and i said a small "goodnight erhi, thank you" it was almost me slurring but atleast i tried.
Tomorrow will be better. This are my last thoughts as darkness slowly surrounds me and leads me to lalaland of flamingos.