I want to grow up I say.
I want to grow up and be free, be my own person
I want to grow up and escape my adolescence
Experience things through my own eyes
And do everything my adolescence has kept from me
But I need time.
The time I need I cannot find
The time I need holds me back, for I cannot change time or time up
Does time even exist
Or is it something we make up in this figment of the world?
If I could make the time I need and use it to my advantage would I grow up?
Or would my body be stuck as it is as time passes me by?
Only I am frozen because I want to change time
In the end if time will only stay one way
Do I really want to grow up?
The memories so strong in my mind now, will fade with age
I will change until even I do not know myself.
But that is the price of growing up.
Will I be able to pay the price?
For now I am unsure,
And question my whole reason to wanting to grow up.
I am expected to be immature, childish, and overall not grown up
I am supposed to not understand most of life even though I try so hard to.
These last lines are hard to write
As I do not know
If I do not want to grow up now
Or if I am embracing my, Adolescence.
No matter, I will grow in time.
By: Imanni J.
Feb. 10th 2013