Expressions

I Want To Grow Up

I want to grow up I say.

I want to grow up and be free, be my own person

I want to grow up and escape my adolescence

Experience things through my own eyes

And do everything my adolescence has kept from me

But I need time.

The time I need I cannot find

The time I need holds me back, for I cannot change time or time up

Does time even exist

Or is it something we make up in this figment of the world?

If I could make the time I need and use it to my advantage would I grow up?

Or would my body be stuck as it is as time passes me by?

Only I am frozen because I want to change time

In the end if time will only stay one way

Do I really want to grow up?

The memories so strong in my mind now, will fade with age

I will change until even I do not know myself.

But that is the price of growing up.

Will I be able to pay the price?

For now I am unsure,

And question my whole reason to wanting to grow up.

I am expected to be immature, childish, and overall not grown up

I am supposed to not understand most of life even though I try so hard to.

These last lines are hard to write

As I do not know

If I do not want to grow up now

Or if I am embracing my,  Adolescence.

No matter, I will grow in time.

By: Imanni J.

Feb. 10th 2013