For the first time in your life you stayed inside the shower for an hour, maybe more. You were never really a fan of being in there for long but now it was deferent.
This time it was actually quiet and you we feeling so relaxed. This time you were calm. You let the hot water touch your skin, relaxing your muscles and washing away everything that was burdening you up until now. You closed your eyes and enjoyed the sound of silence in your head, combined with the beautiful sound of running water.
This was peaceful. You loved it.
When you finally got out of the full in steam bathroom, you were feeling great. At that point you weren't thinking about anything. For a while you had forgotten about all your problems and worries. Every single one of them was suddenly gone.
You didn't even bother getting into your pajamas when you let your body fall on your king sized bed. You closed your eyes for a few more seconds, still enjoying the silence and lack of headaches. When you opens them again you turned your head and looked outside your window.
New York was even more beautiful, if that was a thing. A smile was suddenly being formed on your lips and you couldn't help but giggle. This was definitely one of the best days of your life.
But then, the dream had to end.
It suddenly hit you that Frey was still unconscious in a bed in the infirmary. And then you were feeling guilty again. You started thinking that it was because of you that she was in a comma. Maybe if you hadn't done anything, if you had taken more time to research, you would've been able to find a better solution.
"Pease don't do this to yourself." You suddenly heard a familiar voice and quickly stood up, only to see Loki standing in front of your door.
"Are you spying on me?" You teased him.
"You are actually being quite loud darling. I would have been able to hear you a block away."
You laughed. He was right. You knew that your thoughts could get quite loud whenever you got anxious about something.
"How many times do I need to tell you not to blame yourself?" Loki took your hands in his.
"I know, Loki. I know. I know that it is not my fault but-"
"There is no but Y/n. Frey is going to be just fine. The only reason why she is in that state is because she needs time to adjust to her new habitant. I have not a single doubt that she will wake up soon."
Loki's words were actually very helpful. You loved how he always had the right thing to say in order to make you feel good. Then again he was able to read you pretty easily.
"Y/n, while you and Frey were on the medical yard, I ran a few tests on you." Loki said.
"Oh?"
"Yes and....Well..." He was hesitant. You didn't know why.
You always struggled reading Loki but now was different. You didn't have any of your powers. You suspected that they would come back some time soon but you never knew how much you could actually miss them.
If you had them right now you would have been able to reach out to him better. You would've been able to know at least how he was feeling. Now you didn't know if he was worried, anxious or angry. Now you didn't know anything.
This was really killing you.
"Listen Y/n." He started again. You heart was racing. "The spell you did was the hardest one I haven't even seen performed live in my entire life. And it was remarkable how you managed to execute it perfectly. Well, almost."
"Almost?"
You definitely didn't like almost.
"Almost." Loki sighed.
You knew something was wrong.
You had done something wrong.
Well of course you had done something wrong. An inexperienced witch like you should've never even gotten close to a spell like that.
But you had to be the hero. You had to prove yourself and now who knew what had happened. All you knew was that you had never seen Loki so nervous. Or at least you thought that he was nervous. Because apparently you weren't strong enough to even hold on to your powers, so now you didn't even know how your boyfriend was feeling.
Well done Y/n. Well done...
"Y/n!" You suddenly heard Loki shout your name.
"What?" You asked with a lost look on your eyes.
"Will you please calm down? I told you that Frey was going to be fine. And she is." He said and a sigh of relief escaped your lips.
"Then what is it?" You asked.
"Well, I don't know how it happened but..." Loki took a deep breath and then looked you I to the eyes. "During the spell, while Frey was leaving your body I suspect that she...Managed to take some of your magic."
"What?"
"I promise it is not as bad as it sounds." Loki tried to calm you down.
It was very much too late for that though. You had already started to panick.
"Hey, hey." Loki placed his palms of you arms gently and looked you in the eyes. "There is no reason to worry about. The amount of magic that Frey has inside of the her is nothing compared to what you have."
Was this supposed to make you feel better? Frey still had powers. She could still hurt you. She could still hurt anyone. And it was all your fault.
You could've done the spell right but you failed. You miscalculated, you underestimated her and now you and your family were all in danger. Frey was going to wake up very angry. And if she still had, even the tiniest bit of magic, she was going to make sure she'd use it to hurt you, deeply.
"Y/n, Frey is not going to hurt anyone. First of all she has Tony's handcuffs on." Loki said, desperately trying to calm you down. "Second, there is not a single chance in the world that she is going to wake up and immediately have her powers back. You are so much more powerful and yet you are without a trace of magic."
"You are not really helping darling." Only the thought of being powerless against Frey terrified you.
"Okay listen to me, love." Loki placed his fingers under your chin and lifted your head so you were looking into his eyes. "I need you to trust me when I tell you that everything will be fine. You are now going to get dressed and we will go outside where everyone is waiting for you. You are going to talk and laugh with your family and have a great time."
"And Frey?"
"When Frey wakes up we are going to handle her just fine. You have me and a literal team of super-heros right beside you."
Loki's words really did manage to put a smile on your face. He always had the ability to do that. That was one of the main reasons why you loved him so much.
"Fine." You finally sighed, which made Loki extremely happy.
"I will be waiting for you outside." He gave you a quick kiss on the forehead and tried to leave but you held his hand.
"What if....we were a bit late."
Loki slowly turned to you with that smirk on his lips that you loved so much. He came closer to you and took your face in his palms.
You didn't missed a bit and with a quick move you were on your toes while your lips touched his. You couldn't say that that was your first kiss in three years, because it wasn't, but it was definitely different.
Maybe because you both knew it wasn't just a kiss. You knew what was going to follow, and you had both been waiting for it for so long.
Loki didn't waste any seconds either. Once your lips touched it was over for him, he had suddenly let go. He grabbed your waist and pulled you as close to him as possible, untill he realised it couldn't get closer. A small groan left his through and it made you smile into the kiss.
Then his hand travelled up to when you had secured your towel and with a quick move he made it drop to the floor. That didn't bother you. If all it made you feel more free. You wrapped your arms around his shoulder while your fingers were running through his raven hair.
A few moves later you were laying on the bed with Loki on top of you. Somewhere before that his clothes were removed as well. Everything was happening so fast and somehow you wanted them to go even faster.
You simply couldn't wait.