Call me a liar because I'm back before June!!
I finished the chapter and couldn't resist posting it right away because I missed writing for this book and all of you so much.
It's a long one, buckle up babies😘
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You knew having a living breathing baby would have a learning curve but oh boy. Even just the first day in the hospital was…. Interesting.
Feeding Aera every 2 hours. The constant movement and general hum of nurses in and out of the room keeps you awake in between the little ones' meals.
And then there's the inlaws. Oh the in-laws.
You were fortunate enough to be surprised by Jin's mother and father while still in your hospital gown, half undone nearing the end of feeding Aera. Yup the Kims just had to come in while you had one boob out, hair in a messy bun, with frazzled pieces sticking to your neck with dried sweat.
Jin was quick to pop in front of them, and greet them long enough for you to detach the baby and cover up again.
Of course they understood, they have two of their own children for goodness sake, but as much as they tried to play it off saying 'it's completely natural’ it's rather mortifying to have the people who were so against you staying in their son's life, see your tits.
But after they saw Aera, and held their second grandchild, their demeanor towards you completely changed, although Jin’s father may never admit it.
Babies change everything. And it's pretty clear with the other inlaws as well that Aera is going to be spoiled with love at every turn.
After Jin’s parents left, you change into a more presentable tshirt and comfy shorts, and you smooth your hair back into a braid. But any more effort you could have expended putting on makeup was sucked out of you a few hours ago.
Jimin, Yoongis, and Taehyung's sets of parents visited that same day, with Namjoon and Hoseok’s respective parents visiting the next day shortly before Dr. Hani signed your discharge papers and gave you the green light to leave.
Thank goodness you have Sangyeol, because none of you knew you had to have a car seat before you could leave the hospital. It makes sense honestly, but it hadn't exactly occurred to any of you either. But Sangyeol had.
“I had to do this same thing for my brother last year,” He explains, gesturing to the fully installed carseat in the third row of the van. “Think of it as my gift to you all. And Congratulations, to you all!
“Thank you Sangyeol,” You give the man a tired smile, as you buckle your daughter into her new car seat.
“Of course. It's the best way I could think to thank you for helping me meet my girlfriend.” He smiles brightly and offers you a hand to climb up into the van that you graciously take.
“Hey, you're the one who got her number, I hardly did anything.” You quip, speaking around the other moving bodied climbing into the van around you. Jin climbs over you so that you can still be next to the baby. Jimin Tae and Hobi take the front row of seats, while Yoongi is squished between Joon and Kookies massive frames.
None of you had accounted for the two extra bodies that would be accompanying you in this return trip, so the van feels a bit more like a sardine can than any of you would really prefer
“Maybe so. But you're the reason we were at the jewelry store in the first place.”
“True.. true.”
“It is true.” The bodyguard looks around the lower level of the parking deck. “Everybody in?”
The eight of you nod and the baby coos right on cue earning several awes, and Sangyeol shuts the side door softly but firmly making sure it latches. He climbs into the driver seat and with a nod in the rearview mirror, starting the car right away he gets on the road quickly.
You find yourself entranced by Aera on the ride home. As much as you would love to lean back into Jin’s chest and sleep on him, you can't help but study the way her tiny hand wraps around your finger. Or the way her sweet little eyes look around the van, trying to take in every single detail, until her little brain can’t process any more.
The soft hum of the van on the smooth highway lulls her and several of the guys to sleep as well. You had spent most of the time awake in the hospital, but so did they, it's not that they couldn't fall asleep, because after being on tour, they seem to be able to fall asleep anywhere, but they chose to stay awake with you, and finally in the solace of the van they are able to rest And eventually you also give in to relaxing back, using Jin's shoulder as a pillow, joining them in sleep.
None of you so much as stir until you reach home according to Sangyeol. Which is also about time for Aera to be fed again.
Thanking him again you all pile out of the van, taking the car seat for easy transportation. The boys take care of letting the dogs out, which sangyeol had also been taking care of for you while you were away.
You go straight up to the nursery, already reading the signs of a fussy, and hungry baby. Setting the carrier on the floor, you unbuckle the straps, and pick up Aera into your arms.
“Welcome home my darling.” You hum to her, settling down in the rocking chair, laying her out in the trough your legs create, just long enough to get your chest exposed again, to do your motherly duties.
“Baby?” Jungkook's clear voice calls up the stairs.
“In here. She's eating right now.” You say, barely looking up from your new daughter.
Jungkook comes through the door, looking as fresh as ever in his big tshirt and gym shorts.
“How are you feeling?” He asks, striding over, a smile spreading on his face as he watches his baby enjoying her meal.
“Oh, well… I don't feel awful, but I did just expel a human.” He laughs under his breath. “No in all honesty, I really just feel tired.”
“So I should tell my parents not to come tonight huh?”
“No no, they can, they’re already planning on it. I would feel awful if they had to wait while everyone already got to see her at the hospital.”
“Okay, as long as you're sure.” Jungkook's hand comes up under your chin, pulling your eyes away from the baby.
“I'm sure, but thank you for checking. Plus I think Yoongi was planning a big barbeque.”
“He’s prepping the marinade right now.” He chuckles. “When she's done do you want me to take her so you can sleep for a while? I can wake you for lunch.”
“Thank you but no, I'm just gonna put her down in the crib I think, then I’ll probably pump and fall asleep right here.”
“Okay baby, I'll take the baby monitors with me and put them in the other house, just say something if you need one of us. Okay?”
“I will, thank you.”
He leans down and kisses you softly, before gathering the extra monitors, setting them to the correct channel.
You just had a baby, and your anatomy is going to be out of commission for a while, at least 4- 6 weeks, but damn, Jungkook's butt in those shorts is something of a sight…
Dinner with the Jeon’s goes very well, although you don't remember much in your tired state. You remember they were ecstatic to meet Aera, and the barbeque Yoongi did was delicious, he slaved over the grill in true dad fashion, but then again he's always been like that.
The next months go much more smoothly than the first few days however. And then got abruptly more chaotic when you introduced the dogs, but now that you’ve all gotten into a routine everything has pretty much leveled out.
God bless the inventor of the breast pump, because it means you don't have to be the one on call all of the time, and struggling to sleep in the down time. Quite the opposite actually. With 8 of you, you're able to split up the day into shifts. And even when Jin leaves for duty now and again, the 7 of you manage rather well.
But even still, you're never too far from the baby. You set up a bed to sleep in her room, so you're there at night, joined by whichever dad is on shift for that night. And during the day, you’re usually within eye shot of the baby, and certainly within earshot, so if the baby cries you're able to be there in a matter of steps. Yes maybe you are a bit unnecessarily anxious, your men are doing incredibly well taking care of the baby. But you've never done this before, and after nine months of constant attachment, it's a bit difficult to let go.
Which is why its suddenly so jarring when you get out of the shower and Joon and Aera, Appear to have gone on a fieldtrip without you.
Last you saw, he was in his room, planning to read to her. You can even see the snapshot of them in your mind, with Joon shooting you a wink, promising that everything will be fine.
But after you dried off and changed into a comfy thick sweater and jeans, and returned to his room, right outside the bathroom, neither man nor baby are to be found.
Surely they are still close by, they know how you feel about being too distant from her. He probably took her into the common space to be on soft carpet. But a cursory search of the house proves otherwise.
Skipping right past texting you pull out your phone and call Joon.
“Kitten? What's the matter?” He sounds panicked. To be fair you don't really call each other when it's easier to text or just walk to the next house.
“Where are you?”
“I'm at the main house, are you okay?”
“Yea, I'll be there in a minute, sorry.” You hang up, slip your shoes on, foregoing a coat with the unusually warm late November weather, and you hurry up to the main house.
You push through the door to the dining room and kitchen. Joon and Hobi are sitting at the table. A drained bottle and soiled burp cloth sit on the tray of the highchair between them, but again there’s no baby.
Taking a deep breath, you remind yourself that they are all responsible adults and it's okay that you're not in constant contact with your baby. Crossing the room you lean down over Joon, running your hands down over his shoulders, crossing over his bulky pecs , coming down close to his ear.
“Joonie,” You ask in a sing-songy voice, trying to calm yourself as well. “Where’s the baby?”
“Jimin has her now.” He says, swallowing his bite of toast. “She started crying while you were in the shower and she didn’t need changed, so I figured she was hungry so I brought her her. I got this really cute picture of Hoseok feeding her, see.”
Joon pulls up a picture on his phone of Aera in her chair, and Hobi holding up a spoon for her.
"Um," Maybe you have a reason to be a touch nervous. "You know she's not eating anything but breast milk yet, right?"
"Oh yea, that was my spoon from japchae." Hoseok pats your waist softly as he goes around the table, picking up the used bottle and burp cloth. "Don't worry angel, we are really getting the hang of this."
"I know I know," You sigh out a breath. Watching the slim man take the bottle to the sink, washing it thoroughly, right away. "I'm sorry. I'm just still getting used to all of this. I should be used to it by now.."
"It's okay love, postpartum separation anxiety is normal for first time moms. Even for this long." Namjoon says, scooting back from the table, pulling you into his lap, nuzzling into your neck making you giggle lightly. "I read that it usually takes some time for new moms to be okay with letting the baby out of their sight. And that's okay, but you have to trust us. You know we are good with the baby."
"I know you are." You smile as Hobi pecks your cheek from the other side. "I promise I'll try to be a little bit more laid back about it."
"It's okay angel, we understand." Hobi settles into the seat next to you, pulling a goofy face when his phone buzzes underneath him. He checks it quickly and his face falls, eyes flicking up to you nervously. "Umm.."
"What? What is it?" You ask, mirroring his nervous look.
"Maybe you should go check on her.." He turns the phone to you, showing you the picture of Aera on Jungkook's shoulders.
"Oh my God." Mild fear strikes in your heart. "Okay, here I go."
You push up out of Namjoons lap, narrowly escaping a swat at your butt.
"Breathe Angel," Hobi calls after you just as your fingertips press into the door.
Taking a breath you relax your shoulders and smile at them, before pushing the door open and making your way to the furthest house.
The second you open the door to Party house, muffled chimes of laughter greets your ears. Well at least that's confirmation that nothing awful has happened.
Following the joyous sounds, it leads you upstairs where Jimin, Jungkook and Taehyung are huddled around a phone on the bed.
Yet again there's no sign of Aera.
"Jagiya! Come see, we took pictures with Aera, they came out so cute." Jimin beckons you over onto the bed with the trio.
"I know I saw one of her on Jungkook's shoulders." Your tone bites more than you probably intended. "She's not a toy, you guys. Where is she?"
They all look up at you slightly confused as you crawl into the bed, laying on your stomach between Jimin and Taehyung.
"We know babe, we didn't do anything unsafe. Taehyung was holding her from behind, we cropped him out." Jungkook swipes over a few pictures, showing you the original version of the photo. "See?"
"We love our daughter, we'd never put her in danger, baby," Taehyung reassures. "You know that."
"I do. I just worry…" Dropping your head you look down at your arms, feeling more and more ashamed at your over reaction. "I'm sorry, I trust you, really I do. I'm sorry."
"It's okay love," Taehyung hums, wrapping an arm around your waist, sliding you over onto his side, kissing your temple sweetly.
"Do you want to see the rest of the pictures? I promise they are a lot cuter than the ones with Jungkook. He kind of ruins them I think." Jimin giggles, dodging Jungkook's swat.
They show you several more sweet pictures of Tae and Jimin snuggling up with the baby.
"Our babygirl is gonna take up all of my phone storage." Jungkook says, scrolling through the large chunk of photos from the past 5 months.
"Oh I know me too."
"What are you guys talking about, mine is already full.” You joke, although it's not really a joke. You're about due for a purge of doubled up pictures, or anything more than 2 years old.
Or maybe you can get rid of a few unimportant apps. No one really needs an app for phone calls anymore, right?
“It’s hard to not take a million pictures of her, when she's so beautiful,” Taehyung coos lightly, brushing the back of a finger down the side of your arm. “Just like her mom.”
“Stop.” You roll your eyes, waving a dismissive hand. “She gets her good looks from all of you guys. You’re the attractive ones.”
“No no, baby, I thought you were so sexy when you were just ‘noona’. But you’re extra hot as a mom.”
Your cheeks heat slightly and you try to fight the proud smirk that tugs at the corners of your mouth. Even after so long, and literally having their baby, it never fails to reassure your ego when you hear them say you are hot or sexy.
“Yea Jagiya, you’re definitely a milf.”
If you had been taking a drink it would have come straight out of your nose, with the speed at which a laugh seems to erupt from your throat. Luckily you were not.
Never, in your wildest dreams.. Okay, maybe in your wildest, but certainly not in any normal dreams, would you ever consider yourself a milf.
“That's very funny.” You chuckle, wiping a fake tear from your eye.
“I'm not kidding,” Jimin hooks his index finger under your chin, pulling your gaze to his lips “Youre a mom, and I really really like to fuck you.”
“Mm here, here!” Taehyung seconds.
Your chest tightens with the eyes of the 3 resting on you heavily.
“Maybe later,” you redirect slightly, not entirely in the mood for a foursome at this very moment.
“No pressure babe,” Junkgook winks slyly.
"Oh believe me," You pull on a coy air, reaching out to stroke Jungkook's bottom lip. "I couldn't stay away from dilfs like you." Shooting each one a salacious look, you lick your lips. "You're all totally daddy's I'd like to fuck."
You can't help but giggle when all three of the men groan.
"Woof, you sure know how to get a guy hard in two seconds." Taehyung's deep voice growls in your ear.
That's a delicious thought, but still, you were on a mission to find the baby.
"Well as tempting as it is to take all of you right now, I do need to find Aera." Reluctantly you push back onto your knees. "Which brings me back to my question. Where is she? Do we know?"
Take and Kook look at Jimin, apparently he holds the answers.
"Yea, I took her to Yoongi and Jin, he said he wanted to test out some new music on her."
Jimin pulls out his phone showing you a picture of Aera, comfortably in Yoongi's arms in the darkness of his camper van.
"Oh yea!" Jungkook chimes in, "He had me record some bits of lullabies the other day, I wondered why."
"He did the same with me, it was only pieces of songs. It was really weird." Taehyung adds, realization dawns on his face.
"I wondered why he had me do that, he wouldn't explain. But maybe he'll tell you Jagiya, he likes you more than us."
No better way to find out what all of that is about, than to ask. What could he be "testing" on your daughter? Is he working on a new single?
That's a stupid question, he's always working on one single or another.
And so you find yourself back out on the hunt for your child in the crisp autumn wind. You try to remain hopeful that you will actually find Aera, but you get a sneaking suspicion you won't find her with Yoongi either.
Trekking across the lawn you make your way to the shiny silver camper van. It sits alone, away from the house. Solitary. Just how yoongi likes it.
Although he has become a lot more present in the house since Aera arrived. He really does love her so much. They all do.
It has been hard on all of you of course. Not in a usual way, not because you aren't getting any sleep, or because chores aren’t getting done.
But it has been difficult for your men to feel like they are sharing Aeras time equally, and bonding with her equally. Especially in these formative years.
Arriving at the pod of a dwelling, you knock on the hard metal exterior. You know better than to barge in on the genius Min Yoongi, when he’s in his sacred space.
It takes a few moments but eventually you hear a scuffling from inside and the pop of the latch.
Yoongi’s soft face squints against the light, like a cute little mole so accustomed to the dark that even the dreary cloudy day like today seems bright.
“Hey, cutie” Stifling a laugh as you grin up at him. “I hear you’re testing something out on Aera huh?”
“Oh yea, hi babygirl, I was but She started getting fussy and I was done needing Jin, so he took her to nap I think.” Finally some upfront exposition. “Want to come listen?”
Jimin was right. Yoongi offered you the exclusive privilege of hearing his newest works even when he has refused the others who recorded pieces of the song.
“Is it done? And are you sure, I thought you weren’t letting the others listen?” You question, trying to see if he really means it.
“Well almost yea, I was gonna surprise everyone tonight at dinner, but I like you more than them.” Yoongi gives you a sweet gummy smile.
“Then I'll wait. I want to be surprised with everyone else.” You smile back, and push up onto your toes, leaning into the doorway, pressing out your lips obviously for a kiss.
Yoongi chuckles and scrunches down pecking your lips from the high first step up in the camper.
Your hands brace against his hip bones to steady yourself on your tiptoes. All of their kisses never fail to rattle your brain and make you weak in the knees.
“Go get back to work Mr. Min.” You pat his hips playfully coming down onto your flat feet.
“Hmm Mr. Min, I like that baby girl. How about you and me...” He wiggles his eyebrows suggestively, “Tonight after dinner?”
“Well, I think I'm going to get ambushed by the trio later…” Your voice trails, not sure if you can do all three of them tonight. You’re post partum enough that you’ve had sex but you havent had more than one man come to you at once, since before Aera was born.
Yoongi lifts your chin slightly, making you look into his eyes.
“No worries, just make you set boundaries with them-I know you will, I just feel the need to remind you.” He cuts you off before you can quip back. “We will have plenty of time together when Aera is sleeping through the night.”
“Yea that should be soon, maybe another month and a half, maybe two months…” You and Yoongi both grimace at the projected timeline, but the long run with all 8 of you pitching in it won't be too bad. “It will be here before we know it.”
“Yea…” Yoongi hums, glancing over his shoulder in the direction of his work station. “Well, I better be getting back to work if I want to be done by dinner. Can you see if Jin will cook tonight? I know he's only got a few more days on this break, but I really want to get this done.”
“I'm sure he won't mind, or I can make dinner, either way we’ll get fed.”
Yoongi bends down and pecks your lips again and sends you off in the direction of the Sleep house.
The house is completely quiet, and still, not even the sound of white noise breaks through the silence.
“Jin?” You call in a hushed whisper, training your ear to the slightest sound. "Jin??"
You peer into his room then Jimin's, and then Yoongi's with no avail, but you're not as frantic about your search this time. It's going to take a while to be fully okay having her out of your sight, but if you've learned nothing else today, it is that you really can and should trust your men. They are completely capable fathers.
Slowly you begin the climb up to the second floor with the nursery and your bedroom. It's the only place left that you haven't looked, and there are only so many places to go here even if there are 3 houses.
Your feet reach the top of the stairs and you hear a faint breathing coming from the nursery. The door is closed but not quite latched.
"Jin?" You whisper again, and again receiving no answer.
Gingerly you press the fingertips of one hand into the smooth nursery door, pushing against it opening it just a crack.
The small room is dimly lit with hazy mid afternoon sunlight cast through the sheer curtains, and right in the middle of the ethereal haze is the rocking chair.
And in that rocking chair, is one very handsome, broad shouldered man, asleep, clutching a small fuzzy bundle to his chest.
Stepping lightly, you cross the room to gaze down on the sweet sight.
Aera shifts and coos in her sleep and your heart is stirred suddenly. A small drool spot she's left on her dad's shirt makes you sniffle a small laugh, trying not to wake either of them so carelessly.
Quickly you take out your phone and pull up the camera. The others were right. It's very hard to not take a million pictures of her, especially when she's with one of them.
You snap a few…okay, a lot of pictures, and send one in the group chat.
Me: found her :3
Sliding your phone back into your pocket, you lean over slowly, bracing one hand on the arm of the rocker. Leaning in, you press a kiss to Jin's sleepy lips.
"Mhh?" He hums, barely doing more than raising an eyebrow.
"Hi," You whisper softly, pecking his nose, then his forehead, earning a low chuckle.
"Hi princess," Jin greets you groggily, yawning widely and opening his eyes looking up into yours. "Is it dinner time already?"
"No baby, we've got a few hours still." You tell him, feeling very endeared by his sleepy confusion. "I was just looking for you two that's all."
"Ah Yea, sorry, I should have texted you that I was taking her from Yoongi, I know that makes you nervous not knowing where she is... sorry baby." He presses a hand to Aeras' little back, keeping her squarely against his chest as he sits up in the rocker that squeaks as he shifts. "She was crying after I changed her. I sat down with her and we got so sleepy, I completely forgot."
He's so sweet with her. There's no denying how much they all love her. And there's no denying that she is safe with them.
"Actually, it's okay." You tell him, sitting on the bed next to the chair. "I need to learn to relax more when she's not immediately within reach. Besides, I trust you all."
He gives you a soft smile reaching out to stroke your cheek, just as Aera yawns clutching her fists to her face, scrunching up very cutely. Both of you melt for her.
“She is so perfect.” He beams down at the baby.
She squirms in his arms pushing up wobbly away from his chest, looking at you with searching curious eyes. Jin helps her sit up on his lap, supporting her back
You smile widely at her and she smiles back with a gummy grin. Pulling your hands up in front of your face, you hide for a few seconds and then pop out from behind quickly.
“Boo!”
Aera gives the most adorable belly laugh. It's no wonder she has all of you wrapped around her tiny finger.
After a few more rounds of peek-a-boo belly laughs, the sweetest little hiccups come out between laughs, and Aeras eyebrows furrow cutely making you and Jin laugh hysterically.
“Is her pack-n-play downstairs?” You ask, “She should get some more tummy time today.”
“No, I think it's at the main house.” He says turning Aera around with a hand under her but, a hand over her round little tummy and he back against her chest to stand up with her. "I'll go with you, I haven't worked out yet, I should before dinner."
Together you make your way to the main house for Aera to have some tummy time. And so Jin can workout.
"I can't believe it's been four months already." Hobi says grinning from ear to ear as he lays on his stomach across from his daughter, with Bam and Mickey on either side watching intently. His feet kick idly above him as he brings a small stuffed bear to life. Speaking in a goofy voice that makes the baby laugh so loudly Namjoon comes down from the balcony library.
"I'm just a silly old teddy bear! Yes I am. I'm gonna kiss your nose because you're so cute Miss Aera! Yes you are yes you are!!"
"God, that laugh is adorable. Can we get that on tape, I want that as my ringtone." Namjoon gushes flopping down on the couch next to you, rubbing his hand on your thigh excitedly.
"Yoongi can probably pull it off of the baby monitor." Hoseok says absentmindedly.
"What?"
Has the mastermind tapped the system?
"Yea he said he pulled some audio from the other night."
"That would sound really creepy if I didn't know Yoongi better." You say ticking your head to the side slightly.
"Good thing you do know me better then huh babygirl." Yoongi chuckles strolling into the room twirling a flash drive on a lanyard.
"Is that the mysterious track you've been working on all day?"
"It is," the man smiles slyly crossing the room to the Soundsystem on the entertainment center. "I finished it early. Can someone text the others to come join us?"
Joon beckons the others to the main common space while Yoongi cues up the TV to play the new song.
"Ohh my goodness,"Jimin heaves, picking Aera up from the pack-n-play, "She's getting so big already."
"I know, she's almost double what she weighed when we brought her home.”
“Hyung, once we get the song playing, can I have her?” Taehyung asks politely, giving Aeras toes a little squeeze.
“No I wanted her,” Jungkook whines, “I barely got to see her today.”
Well this fight sounds familiar.
“Fellas, fellas please.” Joon cuts in, stopping their bickering abruptly. “I think y/n would probably like to hold her daughter. We did kinda played keep away from her earlier.”
“Yea I want you to be holding her when I play this anyways.” Yoongi points to you speaking authoritatively. “It will add to your experience.” He rainbows his hands in front of his face, wiggling his fingers in a goofy little way with a gummy smile.
Graciously Jimin hands the 4 month old down to you and plops down beside you, with Moni and Yeontan between himself and Taehyung. JIn finds a free chair and Hoseok and Jungkook find spots on the floor with their dogs, training their eyes up to the tv.
“Okay are we ready?” Yoongi asks, drawing all of your fawning attention away from the cuteness that is your daughter. “I wish this had more of a visual element, but what I had in mind would have ruined the surprise.” He explains, absently gesturing to the tv screen as he crosses the room to turn out the lights. “But here we go. This was written by Myself, with some spoken word from Hoseok and Namjoon, and vocals from Jin, Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook. Featuring our very own, beautiful, talented, sexy, patient, and loving eomma!”
Yoongi finishes announcing and slides into an open swivel chair, withholly hopping into his lap right away, leaving you wondering how in the world you could be featured when you had no idea he was making anything to begin with. He hits play on the remote and a picture of Aera sleeping in her brown hooded onesie pops up on screen.
You recognize the picture right away. It's the one you took, a very close cropped version, but still it is the one you sent to the group chat.
A beautiful soft guitar melody with a twinkling piano accompaniment starts playing over the picture. Namjoons deep warm voice comes in reciting a few lines over the soft instrumentals, then slowly Jungkook’s bright tenor vocals come in, to what sounds like the chorus contrasting with Jin's soothing lower register.
They speak and sing so sweetly of their daughter, with lines like. “I never knew love until there was you.” Their honeyed words make the back of your throat tighten and tears well up in your eyes.
Looking down to the baby in your lap you study her small features again. Her eyes wander with half lidded amusement, yawning as the lilting voices of her fathers put her to sleep. Something about the tune sounds familiar but you can’t quite place what lullaby it's from.
Hoseok’s happy tone makes your baby’s eyes open a slight bit more during his poetic verse, but the melodious combination of Taehyung’s velvety voice and Jimin's delicate pipes ensure her eyes close again. Their chorus transitions into a bridge with Yoongi’s calm raspy voice giving another shorter set of lines that speak further to the adoration all of your men have for their daughter.
You can’t help it, tears, happy tears are falling down your cheeks and you don't even try to stop them. Every singleword written and sung by them are exactly what your heart has been feeling ever since the minute Aera was born.
Finally Yoongi’s voice, the guitar and the piano fade out to a popping fizzling sound that carries on for a few seconds, and just as you think this must be the end of the song, another voice comes in.
Or a cry to be more precise, Aeras cry.
And then your own voice responds,it's hazed by the poor audio quality, but it is definitely your voice.
“Oh baby, it's okay. I know, I know,” you hear yourself saying to calm her, “ohh come here my little one. I love you so much my darling, its okay, we’re okay”
Your words and Aeras cry still for the soft creak of you settling into the rocking chair. And then the recorded you hums, it's very quiet at first, you can barely hear it over static from the baby monitor. But as the track goes on, the past you grow slightly louder, and now you know where you’ve heard that melody before.
Your weepy tears come faster, touched deeply by Yoongi's thoughtfulness to create a whole song from something you hummed while you were in a half awake- half asleep daze.
The song comes to an end and you are a mess, trying to cry as quietly as you can to not wake the soundly asleep baby in the trough of your lap.
Someone brings up the lights and a tissue is presented from someone else. You take it gratefully and pull yourself together.
Looking up to the huddle that has formed around you, it's evident you’re not the only one affected by the sweet song. In fact, Aera is probably the only one with dry eyes out of all of you.
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Okay 2 thingys.
1. I know the pictures are not all very good, they are all my own edits except for Taehyungs that I believe is the doppleganger that looks a lot like Tae, sorry I don't know his name. And I also know not all of the babies pictured are 4 months old, I'm sorry but edits are hard. Major respect to anyone who does edits.
2. I love you all so so much, you have no idea how much I'm gonna cry when this book is done, and when all of the other books are done, I promise to find a way to keep writing. Not necessarily fanfics but some how I will. But that's a good long ways away.
There are 3 more books in the works(Flowers Smell Sweeter in the Morning, Foundation of Jealousy, and Making Lemons Sweet.) And one still rolling around the brain (Lust and Hospitality).
I am also getting married in August and currently in the process of buying/moving house, so please be patient with me, if I don't update super regularly for a while.
Okay that's all the news.
I appreciate all of you so much, the world needs you here, and if no one has told you today, I love you and I purple you.
I'm so glad you are here and I look forward to having you here again.💜
Love Avis💜