Hi y'all!
This is a little warning for this chapter, it will be including some hints of ppd and body image. I know it can be uncomfortable or triggering for some of y'all, so if you do, I would suggest skipping this chapter.
I love you all so much and I hope you still like it!
-Ev❤️
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Kageyama glanced over at Hinata and smiled.
He was finally getting some rest after being up with Kazu almost all night, feeding him or just having to hold the fussy newborn.
So when Kageyama woke up this morning, he made sure that Hinata got some sleep. He leaned down and gave his fiancé a kiss on the cheek before picking up Kazu and taking him out of the room, that way the pup wouldn't wake him up.
Luckily Hinata was not only breastfeeding, but he was also pumping, so there were plenty bags of milk in the freezer that he could just warm up so he would have to wake him up.
Kazu huffed and started whining, while wiggling around in his fathers arms. "I know I know, I'm getting you some food now" Kageyama kissed his forehead and proceeded to get his bottle ready.
He unscrewed the top to the bottle and opened up the freezer, pulling out a bag of milk and setting it on the counter.
He popped the bag into a bowl of hot water to help it defrost, then once it was a liquid again and warm enough he put it into the baby bottle.
"Alright, here you go honey" he gently rocked the fussy newborn as he fed him the bottle. He walked over to the couch and sat down, waiting for the little pup to finish.
Once he did, he burped him and set him down. Little Kazu pretty much fell asleep right after being put in his rocker. Kageyama took this time to get some cleaning done.
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Hinata stared at the clock, watching the minutes go by. 10:00, 10:30, 11:00.
He has been up for about an hour, but he hasent gotten up. He can't. He pulled the covers over his head and closed his eyes, but didn't fall asleep.
Instead, he just laid there for another half an hour before finally getting up, only because he needed to pee.
He sat up and swung his legs over the edge of the bed, then got up using the support of the nightstand when he got dizzy.
Making his way into the bathroom, he passed by the mirror. Just taking a glance at his reflection made him turn his head.
He used the bathroom and washed his hands and looked up at himself in the mirror. He lifted his shirt up, staring at his reflection. He hated the way he looked.
He sighed and dropped the grip on his shirt, letting it fall back down. He climbed back into bed and just laid there, staring up at the ceiling.
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Kageyama had the twins watching a movie in the livingroom, and he was getting ready to bring Kazu up into his crib.
He made sure the twins were all set before making his way upstairs.
He opened up the nursery door and flicked on the light. He kissed the sleeping pups forehead before setting him down into the crib.
He stood by the door and just waited a minute, making sure he didn't wake up before turning the light off, and leaving the room quietly.
He walked down the hallway and stopped at his and Hinata's door, slowly opening it up and peeking inside.
He saw him now laying on top of the blankets, so he quietly walked over to the bed to check on him.
When he got closer, he saw that his eyes were opened, so he called out his name. No answer, so he called out again, this time earning a small head turn from the other.
When he got to the bed, he kneeled down in front of where Hinata was laying and gave him a warm smile, but got up when he noticed he was crying.
"Sho- what's wrong" he said, sitting bed to him and put a hand on the others back.
Hinata sat up and stared at him for a minute before pressing his head onto his lovers chest, and let out a weak sob.
Kageyama looked down at him with wide eyes. He wrapped his arms around the smaller and sat there for a minute, not knowing what was going on with him.
"Shoyo, baby. What's wrong?" He asked, kissing his head and running his fingers through his hair.
Hinata didn't say anything for a couple of minutes, but after that time passed, he finally spoke up.
"Tobio- I'm sorry." He said and pulled apart from him, putting his hands in his lap and avoided eye contact.
Kageyama gave him a confused look, "Sho, what are you sorry for? You didn't do anything"
Hinata looked up at him again and shook his head, "I'm sorry that I feel like this" he said and wiped his cheeks as more tears came out. "Feel like what sweetheart?" Kageyama asked.
Hinata took a deep breath for continuing. "I hate the way I look. I'm just so disgusted in myself, and even more because I feel like this" he choked out.
Kageyama just looked down at him, pulling him into a comforting hug as he continued to listen to him.
"I don't know why I feel like this, I wanna it all to go back to normal. I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore" he covered his eyes with his hands and just sobbed into Tobio's chest.
Kageyama let out his scent, bringing him closer.
"I don't wanna feel like this, Tobio"
Kageyama felt like his heart shattered into a million pieces. He had no idea he had been feeling like this, and he hated hearing that he was going through this pain.
"Shoyo" he said and looked down at Hinata who pulled apart and made eye contact with him.
"Im so sorry honey, I'm so so sorry. I had no idea you were feeling like this" he reached out and caressed his cheek, wiping away the tears.
"I feel like such a bad mom and partner right now, I can't even get out of bed and be with my kids or spend time with you" Hinata shook his head, putting his hands on his head.
Kageyama put both his hands into Hinata's, and tilted his head up.
"Shoyo, listen to me. You are not a bad mom, or partner. You are the best mom anyone could ever ask for, your kind, caring and so loving. And I couldn't ask for a better partner." He kissed his head and smiled down at him.
"I love you so much, I'm gonna help you through this. We'll do whatever we have to in order to help you get better, I promise" he kissed his forehead and pulled him in for a hug.
Hinata just whispered a small thank you, and just sat in his lovers warm embrace.
Kageyama gently swayed back and fourth, rubbing his hand up and down Hinata's back. Lightly humming his favorite song, he scented him and did his best to make him feel as safe and comfortable he could be.
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The couple just stayed like that for a little while.
Kageyama finally got Hinata up and made him some breakfast/ lunch.
He first helped him into the bathroom so he could clean him up a little, so he had him sit on the toilet seat while he got a wet cloth, then gently wiped off his face and brushed his hair for him.
He kneeled down in front of him and gave him a warm smile, kissing his forehead and helping him up.
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"Mama!" Harumi stumbled over to him as he took a seat at the kitchen table. "Hi baby" he lifted her up into his lap and rested his head on top of hers, making her giggle.
"Mama okay?" She looked up at him and pat his face, he just smiled and nodded.
Hanako came over and hopped up on the bench, resting her head on his side. He wrapped his arms around the two and held them close.
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Kageyama smiled and looked over from the kitchen as he prepared some pancakes for Hinata, he also made some smaller ones for the twins.
He cut up some fruit as they cooked on the pan, and took out some chocolate chips. He sprinkled them on-top of the pancakes and flipped them, letting the other side cook.
When it was all finished, he put some whipped cream on the top of the small stack of pancakes and stuck a strawberry in the middle.
He brought over the plate and set it down in front of the other, watching as Hinata smiled and looked up at him. "Thank you babe" Hinata had him lean down and he kissed his cheek.
He sat down with them and together they all ate.
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Later that day they all sat in the livingroom together.
Hinata and Harumi were snuggled up on the couch, both falling asleep.
Kageyama put a blanket over the two and sat down on the floor with Hanako, watching as she just stared at her brother and giggled.
The little pup was just huffing and wiggling around in his rocker, so Kageyama lifted him up and held him.
Hanako sat next to them and held Kazu's little hand, she kissed his tummy and giggled as she watched him stare up at her with a pouty face.
"Milo!" Hanako let go of his hand and hurried over to the cat. He brushed up against her leg and stood there as she sat down in front of him and started petting him.
He purred and walked off to go wander around the house. She giggled and trotted back over to the couch and climbed onto it, "daddy, sit!" She looked down at where he was sitting on the floor, and pat his head.
"Okay, okay" he chuckled and stood up, taking the spot next to her. He shifted Kazu in his arms to where he was not cuddled up to his chest.
Hanako snuggled up into his side and put her head under his arm, they just turned on a show and cuddled for a while as the other two slept.
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Wassuppppp
Soooo, idk how that was, kinda hate it, kinda don't.
Also, I need help with the next chapter cuz I have no idea what to do loll. So if u have ideas just let me know!❤️
Here's some fanart, cuz we need to appreciate how pretty Shoyo is🥰
I love u all, have a great night/day!❤️