SPG (Readers discretion is fully advised)
"Roshan.." rinig kong tawag ni Aiden pagkatapos ng ilang minutong pakikipag usap sa labas.
Nanatili akong tahimik at walang kibo.
"What are these? Ibalik mo na yan." inabot niya ang isang bag at ambang tanggalin ang aking damit.
Hinigit ko ito at niyakap.
I put all my clothes in this small bag. May mga natira sa cabinet pero ito ang essentials ko.
"Hey. Let's talk." umupo siya sa kama.
"Bring your clothes back. Walang aalis." he demanded.
I rolled my eyes at him.
"Roshan..okay. I'm very sorry for denying you. I just..."
"Just what?" mataray kong asik.
Huminga siya ng malalim bago nagpatuloy. "She's a good friend of mine."
"Friend huh?" I mocked him.
"Can you just listen first?" malumanay niyang pakiusap.
I rolled my eyes and looked away.
"When I came back here to the Philippines, she helped me to cope up with everything. Tiffany is a friend and she assisted me in a lot of things. Then, years ago, she offered me a place to stay. I didn't accept it at first dahil naka dorm naman ako sa UP, but when I graduated, kinailangan ko na. So that's why I'm here." hinanap niya ang aking mata at tiningnan ng diretso.
Naramdaman ko naman ang pagpula ng aking pisngi dahil sa kanyang titig.
"But that is not an excuse para i-deny mo kami. I'm not your fucking sister nor your maid." sigaw ko sabay palo sa kanya ng marahan.
"Yeah Roshan, I'm sorry. I just needed to say that, because if not, she'll probably throw you out of the house. Throw us out." hinaplos niya ang aking hita bago nagpatuloy.
"She likes me, that's why she's eager to help me. If she knew I got another girl pregnant, she'll be mad furious for sure."
"She likes you? Oh, kayo ba? Girlfriend mo? Gusto mo rin?" tanong ko.
"I don't like her. I don't like anyone else. Hey, I'm sorry." pag-aalo niya.
"So it means you used her?" nanliliit ang aking mata.
"Kinda like that, yes. Roshan look, I'm not rich. I don't have any means in life. I hate to admit it but yeah, I used her. I took advantage of the fact that she liked me. And I'm at fault." mas lumambing ang kanyang tono. Iniharap niya ako sa kanya at hinawakan ng dalawa niyang kamay ang aking mukha.
"In life Roshan, you'll do anything to survive. Even if you'll hurt someone, or be a bad person. That's the reality of life. Hahamakin ang lahat para mabuhay at para sa pamilya."
"Pinapaasa mo siya."
"She knows I am not interested in love or anything, I always told her that."
"Pero syempre umaasa yun. She gave you something, and in return, aasa yun sa kapalit."
"I know. Kapag nakaipon ako, we'll leave this place. Konting tiis lang Roshan. And I hope you'll not tell her the truth, because if you do, parehas tayong mawawalan. Especially you, since you can't go back home."
"Tss."
"Hmm. Do you understand now?"
"Oo na, sige." I rolled my eyes again.
Umaliwalas ang kanyang mukha at hinila ako papalapit sa kanya.
"Thank you. And I'm really sorry for denying you." bumaba siya ng tingin papunta sa aking tiyan.
"I'm sorry if I denied you and your mommy, baby. Daddy just really needs to." I smiled ng hawakan niya ang aking tiyan.
Itinaas niya ang aking damit at hilakan ang malaking umbok.
"Nagtatampo yan sayo." biro ko.
"Really baby? Sorry na. Promise paglabas mo, I'll shout your name from the top of my lungs." sabay tawa niya.
"Eh pano si mommy?" tanong ko ng nakangiti. Pero natigil ng napagtantong hindi naman pala kami.
Everything that he did is not for me, but for our baby.
"No, never mind."
"Of course, I'll shout your name too." bumwelo siya at inilagay ang kamay sa bibig.
"Elizabeth Roseann Davis, the beautiful mother of my little Salvatore." sigaw niya na halos maputol ang litid.
I laughed.
He laughed too.
Dahil singkit ay mas lalong nawala ang kanyang mata. Naipemdemya rin ang kanyang dimples. Ang cute naman ng doctor na ito!
"You're forgiven." saad kong nagpangiti pa lalo sa kanya.
He hugged me. And I hugged him too.
Ganoon lang kami pag nag aaway. Palaging siya ang nanunuyo, at dahil cute siya ay pagbibigyan ko na.
May mga oras naman na ako ang nanunuyo, pero minsan lang.
"Sorry na kasi." saad ko sa telepono.
Hindi siya nagsasalita pero naka on ang camera niya. Patuloy lang siya sa kung ano man ang binabasa.
"Aiden naman."
Nagalit kasi siya dahil noong nakipag kita ako kina Kelly at Tris ay nakainom ako ng kaunti. Sobrang konti lang naman, pero heto siya at nagtatampo.
I know kasalanan ko, medyo na miss ko lang naman ang lasa ng alak.
He's at work today, kanina pang umaga ako nag so-sorry sa kanya pero hindi ako pinapansin.
I'm damn frustrated kaya tumawag ako sa kanya. Mabuti na lang at sinagot niya ito, but fuck, hindi naman siya nagsasalita.
"Hindi na ako uulit, promise!" pag-papaawa ko.
"Aiden promise. Last na yun. Huwag ka na magalit." I tried to use my very pabebe voice, pumikit pikit pa ako para maawa siya.
"Aiden!" sigaw ko.
"Hmm. Anong gusto mong gawin ko?" tanong ko pero wala talaga.
Ano bang pwedeng gawin para mapansin ako nito?
I smiled when a sudden idea twinkled in my mind.
Habang busy siya sa kung anong ginagawa ay nagsimula akong maghubad ng damit.
Mainit ang ulo niya, pero sige, mas lalo nating papainitin.
When I'm fully naked ay tinawag ko ulit siya.
"Aiden, look oh!" sabay pakita ng panty sa screen.
I saw his eyes winded at inilapit ang cellphone sa kanya. Gotcha!
"What the fuck Roshan?" aniya habang nanlalaki pa rin ang mata.
"I finally got your attention. Oh ano, papansinin mo lang ba ako kapag nakahubad ako?" I giggled.
"Magbihis ka na, baka malamigan ka."
"Hmm. Actually baliktad. Nag iinit ako ngayon." hindi ko na muli makilala ang boses ko. And damn! I felt hot.
"Take off your clothes too Aiden. Let's play." I teased him.
"Roshan, I'm at work. Put on your clothes and let's end this call."
"Teka lang, wait Aiden." pigil ko.
"Wait lang naman. Let's try this. Never ko pang na try sex on phone. Ikaw ba?" natatawa kong tanong.
"Fuck!" I saw him frustrated. Bumigay ka na kasi.
"Roshan please. Pag uwi na lang."
"No! I want it now. Hindi ka ba naawa sakin? I'm pregnant, and my sex hormones are really active. Alam mong mahirap pigilan ang init ng katawan diba?" Well, I'm being a manipulative sad girl here. But what the fuck!
"I'll just go home early. Not here Roshan." he pleaded pero halata sa boses na gusto rin.
"Sige pag ayaw mo, aalis ako ngayon at maghahanap ng ibang lalaking papawi sa init ng nararamdaman ko." pananakot ko sa kanya. But, I'm not gonna do that.
"Fuck!" he shouted.
"Fucking here really? Wala akong private comfort room Roshan." he said frustrated at ginugulo ang buhok.
"May office ka naman ah? Lock the doors na lang. May cctv ba sa loob?" sana naman wala!
"None." iling niya.
"Yes!" sigaw ko sa tuwa. "Remove it now baby, hmmm. I wanna see it." dagdag ko.
"Oh dear! You'll be the end of me." he said as he removed his clothes.
Na excite naman ako.
"Massage it please." saad ko at agad naman niyang nilagay ang kamay sa ibaba.
While watching him, I also touched my sensitivity.
"Of fuck Roshan!" daing niya.
"Imagine that's me who is touching you." ani ko.
"Shit! Fuck!" I heard him curse.
"Ah! Aiden!" I shouted as I imagined him going in and out of me.
"Fuck Roshan, mamaya ka sakin pag uwi." banta niya na mas lalong nagpaungol sa akin.
"I'll wait for that. Hmm." I continued playing with myself as I watched him play with his masculinity.
"I'm coming." saad niya.
"Me too. Ahh. Ilapit mo, gusto kong makita."
Then, I saw his volcano explode. Mine did too.
And when he got home, he aggressively pinned me down to bed and ruled my body non-stop.