(August)
Ma'kayla been killin me with this job of hers its been a month now I know she gotta get her money and that's her hustle but a nigga missin her you know.?
She suppose to be coming over today and she doesn't have work because its a sunday as usual but today ima talk to her.
"Hey babe" she said walking in the house
"Hey Kayla"
"What's wrong.?" She asked walking over to me
I shook my head givin her a signal that nothing was wrong but she side eyed me.
I can't even talk to her, I can't even tell her how I'm feelin because I'm scared to show how I feel scared, and I never been scared of shit in my entire life but now I'm scared of what she will say, I'm scared that she might even leave me for messin wit her grind because all those nights I leave and go do my shit she was prahbaly feelin the same and not once did she try and fuck wit my grind.
I ain't sayin I love her but I'm scared to lose her,but if I did I would know how to bare because I lost a lot of mutha fuckas in my life and that's why I don't get attached to people but getting to know Ma'kayla, I didn't know o would get attach and usually I would cut this shit right then and there before our relationship but I just feel something when I'm with Ma'kayla that I never felt before and not to mention she told me about her while life and I told her about mine, what if she uses it against me, to hurt me, to betray me. I ain't saying I doubt her or anything I'm just questioning this shit because I'm just going on with my life not knowing what's goin to happen next with her in it,before I had planned I was gon get out the game after I get this paper but with her it's different, I wanna make different choices, not that she underestimates me or anything just that she gives off that energy that encourages me to do better, not for her but for myself and I just don't know what it is plus she's underaged and I could actually be in trouble but in 2 months she turns 18 and graduates and she's planning to get up at her momma crib because now that she got that otha job, sjit only gettin worse her mom not only buyin rocks word on the street is that she poppin molly now too and that shit can fuck you up and make you do some shit you don't wanna do and I felt help less towards Ma'kayla because she does her own thing like she a grown ass woman she independent ass hell and she was book smart and street smart but she sure as hell wasn't smarter than me in these streets but she was in them books and that's kinda why we work out I need some of her and she need some of me, don't get me wrong I ain't usin her at all or nun that's just the way we work.
"Well,since you have all that healthy stuff I brought ice cream and root beer and love and basketball AND i brought you those black socks you kept forgetting to get,we can make root beer floats and watch this movie and I don't have school tomorrow I told my mom I'm staying at Brianna's because we have a project to do and its due tomorrow" she said smiling
"Coo"
"August I might not know you like the back of my hand but I know you well enough to know when somethings wrong with you"
"Look ain't nothin wrong you been gettin weird and I ain't wit that aight.? So ima need you to chill out" I said walking away
This shit was killin me but I had to stick to what I promised myself in order to keep my shit together and keep myself from gettin hurt and shit like that I wasn't tryna disrespect her or nun but i just needed some to say to get her off my back
"August, I'm sorry for asking you what's wrong and all that, I don't want you to be mad at me" she said sitting next to me on the bed when I didnt say anything she shook her head and got up
I just stayed sitting there and I shook my head too, was this bad that I was feeling bad about treating her like this.? I already got to attached and I need to stop myself but for some reason my heart was telling me different and I felt like I needed to talk to someone about this and my grandmother was perfect for that I pulled on some sweats and Put on my Tims and a hoodie and went down stairs to where Kayla was sitting on the couch playing with her fingers.
"I'll be back" I said to her as I grabbed my keys
She nodded and began to play with her fingers again I took one last look at her, shes so beautiful and why does god bring me her.? Is he tryna test me.? A whole bunch of questions popped into my head as I rode to my grandmas house when I got there she was in the kitchen cooking like she always was
I smiled at her then kissed her on her forehead since she was so short.
"Hey august"
"Hey Mack"
I never called my grandmother,grandma or anything like that I just called her mack and I honestly don't know why and I ask myself that all the time.
"What brings you here at 9 at night" she asked
I grabbed a cupcake from her stove and jumped up on the counter next to where she was cutting up fruit
"Mack its this girl,this girl that beauty I can't even describe to you she just so beautiful and I dont know why she was brought into my life you know what I'm sayin.? Like it could of been quan or Any otha home boy in L.A but it was me that see somethin in her and she got this job as a stripper mack and let me tell you she good at her job she can pop lock and drop it bring it back all dat but back to what I was sayin, i miss her becuase this somethin she doin new plus She goin through it at home and not to mention she only 17 her momma a crack her and beat her just don't give a fuck about her you feel me.? That's why I feel for her but I can't say that's the only reason mack she just give me this urge to do soemthing good with my future and I don't wanna get attached because you know my story but what if she feel how im feelin.? Because her story as bad as mine just different I don't know how to explain it but today she kept askin what's wrong wit me and I went off because eid don't wanna tell her she might use it against me but then again I feel bad because what if she givin me her all and meanwhile I'm questioning her trust I wanna leave her alone but my heart won't let me what I'm tryna say is why can't I tell my heart to just stop feelin for her and get on with my life.?"
I just poured out my heart to my grandmother and she looked shocked because I was never the one to 'love' or have girl problems because I used to do was hit and quit but she make me wanna change all dat.
"Well august,i never been in this situation but all I can say is follow what your heart is telling you to do" she answered
I smiled at her and then I hugged her little short self and kissed her forehead once again.
"Mack im gone I love you, and don't forget you my thugga" I said setting her alarm back up, I had my grandmother get an alarm because I got a lot of enimies and if a nigga can't get to me when I do some shit they don't like, I can't have them getting to all I had left that would really tear me down.
(Ma'kayla)
August just snapped on me out of no where I didn't even do shit to him but I couldn't dare talk back honestly I'm afraid to lose him I'm afraid to accept the fact that I feel love towards him, I wake up every day thinking about him and go to sleep with him still on my mind no matter what the situation is.
I love the way he smiles,my heart beats out of control when I hear his name and when were together, my whole world revolves around him and I'm afraid to accept that because I've felt this way about people but all they've did was hurt me and august, I don't think those are his intentions and if he did I think I would automatically forgive him.
I don't know why I felt this way towards him but I never felt this way towards anyone besides my brother and when he died this efeelings were long gone and put them in the back of my head and put chains up around my heart, but august he's starting to tear those chains down and I don't know how to stop it.
"Kayla" august said to me
"Hm"
"I'm sorry for earlier baby okay I had alot on my mind and I ain't mean to snap at you like that, let's go make our root beer floats and chill aight.?"
I smiled then I went over and unzipped his hoodie and threw it on the bed and kissed him passionately yet angrily when he broke the kiss he looked me in my eyes and smiled that winning smiled of his
Then he took my hand and started to walk down stairs and I followed when got downstairs he went in his fridge and started eating whipped cream as he sat on the counter.
"How do you make root beer float anyway" he asked
"You mixed up your ice cream until its soft and you pour root beer on it and mix it not that hard" I said as I handed him a bowl
Then I made my own and grabbed my gummy worms and put about 10 in my bowl, august made a stale face at me then came and looked in my bowl and looked at me weirdly
"Why you got worms in there.?" He asked
"I like it like that don't judge me your the one who likes to eat cheese with whipped cream like a weirdo"
"You right don't judge me for I have to tear that ass up and make you eat it" he said pointing his spoon at me
Obviously when august is eating he has a habit of using his sliver wear to talk
"Grab the movie and let's go slow ass"
I said walking up the stairs when he got up to the room he put the movie on the night stand and he came and sat across from me and just stared at me for the longest time.
"What.?" I asked with my mouth stuffed
"Why are you so beautiful.?"
I started to blush then I put my bowl on the night stand as well, "same reason why your so handsome" I answered him
"Kayla, I feel a lot of shit towards you and I don't know what it is but I feel it when I'm with you and I dont know how to explain it it's something new" he said looking me straight in my eyes
"I feel the exact same why august,and I think we might be experiencing love" I said
His face softed and he looked like a lost puppy I smiled then I kissed him and he kissed back
"August movie" I said
Then he got up and popped the movie in and sat next to me along with his ice cream.
I went over to him and laid my head on his shoulder, I hope he's really feeling what he says he's feeling because what he just said just made the feelingn I have for him, grow, stronger,thicker and wilder.
(Brianna)
Ma'kayla still has not spent time with me, the onyk thomt w I see her is in school and she's more focus then ever there so we hardly talk or anything at volleyball practice she's focus and she's just focused every where, and I understand her story how shes tryna get her life together but I'm suppose to be her best friend and ever since her and august I feel like she just knocked me to the curb and my mom said it sounds like I'm being selfish that she hands with him but she can hang with him its just that I hardly get my cut as her sister,best friend and anything in between.
"Quan I need my bag from your house, the one with all my volley ball uniforms, I left them at your house" I said into the phone
Its 4 and school is just now over and its volley ball practice the one day off yesterday was well needed I spent it with my mom and dad not how I expected it but it was better than school I saw Ma'kayla walking over to me and she got way thicker and her hair was getting even longer she had it and curly down her back and it stopped in the middle of her butt and it only used to go to her lower back, today I want holding back I was going to tell her everything I had to say.
"Listen Kayla- and I was immediately interrupted by coach Carter yelling for us to get to the gym
When we entered she provided us information about our game next week
"Okay as our star player,Ma'Kayla will be the giver of all our balls and if she doesn't give off the balls then who ever will, will miss the biggest tournament our volley ball team has ever had is that understood.?" She asked
Every nodded and replied in their own way
We practiced for about an hour and I couldn't keep my eyes off Kayla not to be gay but she honesu looked good with her white head band on and her long thick curly pony tail hanging to her lower back and not to mention she was thick and short he skin was tanned perfectly her nails were done and she looked happy and I honestly felt bad for even saying those things about her and august hanging to much because I can see that he makes her happy.
(Anthony)
I'm a basketball player for North Hills highschool I was getting ready for my game and watching the volley ball league I spotted this girl and she has that glow, she was nice and thick and not to mention her pretty long ass hair.
"Wassup bruh" my homeboy saimad (Sa-Modd) said to me
"Wassup cuh" I greeted him
"Gettin ready for this game you ready.?"
"Yeah trained all weekend for it"
"I feel you ima catch you later"
"One" I said to him
That's me and his way of saying bye to eachother we been sayin it ever since we Kids.
Soon the volley ball league was done and I wanted to go talk to the thick girl everyone went to talk in and she just proceeded to walk away and i could tell when she practiced she was focused because after I practice I don't talk to anyone either.
"Wassup Lil mama" I said to her bouncing my basketball
"Wassup" she said smiling she seemed like a pretty coo girl already
"Aye I was just watchin you play and I wanted to know of we could hangout sometime because I think you pretty an all"
She smiled then she wrote something on my hand and I'm guessing it was her number
"What's ya name.?" I asked her
"Kayla" she said
"Well I'm Anthony and it was nice meeting you" we shook hands and then she nodded in agreement but then I looked at me hand it said Nice try playa boy ;)
I laughed and I looked at her to see her smirking at me.
This was gonna be a hard shell to crack.