(August)(2months later)
"BABE I NEED MY CURLING IRON HURRY" Ma'kayla yeller from the other side of the bathroom door.
Shes now model for cover girl magazines and I'm proud of her and all but right now I need her,my grandma just died and I didn't even get to say goodbye,I didn't get to introduce her to Ma'kayla at all I never even told her about my grandma but Now there's no fucking point of telling her she's gone,for good and there's nothing I can do about it and right about now I'm going through the same depression I was going through when my brother died and this shit hurt.
I opened the door and looked down at her she had her hair up in a high pony tail and had makeup on.
"What's wrong.?" She asked looking into my eyes and caressed my cheek with her name hands
I shook my head signaling nothing was wrong
"Are you alright.?"
I nodded and pushed passed her I really didn't want to be bothered I wanted to tell her but my mouth,my body just didn't want to talk about it tomorrow is her funeral and I don't want to Go but I have to,to say a proper goodbye to her,to tell her everything I didn't get to tell her but the worse part is that I have to sit there and act likes she's listening.
I lazily plopped down in our bed and looked up at the ceiling
"You want anything while im out"Kayla asked rummaging through her purse
"No" I said my voice cracked a bit
She sighed then She looked up from her purse and came over and sat next to me on the bed
I didn't look at her but I could tell she was looking at me from the corner of my eye
"August tell me what's wrong,you've been like this for a whole week"
I just continued to stare at the ceiling not trying to pay her any attention
"August"
"JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE MA'KAYLA DAMN" I yelled then I got up and sat at the of the bed on the floor and bent my knees bringing them halfway to my chest
"WELL TELL ME WHATS WRONG." she yelled back and sat next to me
I shook my head then I broke down tears started to fall uncontrollably out my eyes
Kayla moved and got on her knees in front of me and brought me into her small arms
"Baby you gotta talk to me"
"Kayla my grandma died man she the only one I had left you feel me"
She moved my knees out the way and sat on my Lap she wiped my tears and brought my face up
Looking me in my eyes
"Baby she's in a better place now okay.? You gotta accept that im more than positive she wouldn't want you hurting ,she's watching over you just like Your brother" she said
She always knew what to do to make me feel Better because I felt like a big weight lifted off my shoulders but I still falt sad and I don't think anybody can fix that.
"You right" I agreed
"Well I am Kayla" she said in a duh tone
I smiled then kissed her lips
I cant believe I'm here right now,being loyal, dating one girl and I got her to myself Never even thought I would have a "girlfriend".
"Kayla i gotta tell you something you aint gonna like it but you deserve to know" i said
"What is it"
" i cheated, im sorry but i got caught up wit lov'ie and shit got outta hand and ....we fucked.."
She looked away from me then she got up and i didn't bother chasing after her.
Hours passed by and no ones called me or text me im still not sure where kayla went and i dont care right now, right now im debating if i feel like goin to shoot up some shit just for the hell of it.
I heard light foot steps down stairs but all i did was sit there and assume it was kayla.
"August"
I looked over to my door to see brianna
I greeted her by nodding my head
"Ma'kayla came to my house screaming snd crying how could he and im assuming something happened between you guys" she said sitting her phone and car keys on my night stand then sitting next to me
"I cheated on her with lo'vie and she didnt even say a word after she left or before" i said to her
It was silent for a moment then she broke it
"So how does it feel"
I looked at her confused
"How does it feel to cheat"
"Dont worry bout all dat aight.?"
"I know how it is to be lied too and cheated on, it makes you feel worthless like sometimes wrong with you, quan cheated on me a couple days ago and everynight i asked myself, whats wrong with me? Is she prettier? Am i too fat for him? Every single night i asked myself the same thing and you wanna know what he said to it? He said he was caught in the moment and that hurt even worse because i think about every single second of the day and he couldnt even think about, How would brianna feel" she said staring down at the fllor tears were sliding slowly down her face.
"So tell me how to fuck does it feel" she added
" it feel horrible, it feep good but when you realize whats reslly goin on that shit hurt you too,and i aint gon lie i wasnt thinkin about Ma'kayla i was thinkin wit my dick and not my brain, not my heart"
"I get it, but why does it hurt soo bad"
"Because, you never thought they would do something like that to you and you love em so that adds ln to pain"
I was deep in my thoughts thinking about how bad i probably hurt kayla.
"Take me there" i said stopping her before she anything else
" take you where"
"To Ma'kayla"
