The morning after gender reveal party. I'm not taking a smile of my face knowing I'm carrying baby girl. Deep inside me I hoped it will be a baby boy who will be the whole little Ben, but now when we know it's a girl, I hope she will have the most Ben's genes.
I really want her to have his eyes, hair and smile and then personality, the loving everyone side, funny side and all these sides that comes with Ben. I want to have second Ben beside me when we won't be supposed to be together, an example, when Ben will be on national team preparations, national team tournaments. I will need to work at that time, and I won't be able to go with him on all matches and it really will be great to have little version of him beside me.
I was humming on Justin's songs while making Ben and me breakfast while he was still asleep. I don't judge him because I'm the one that is waking up early since I am pregnant, and I want him to have a good sleep now when he still can because when baby will be born, he won't have full nights of sleep anymore.
I was stinging bacon and eggs for Ben and making porridge for myself because I'm taking care of what I'm eating even if I know porridge is not enough for my baby, but we eat a lot of times per day.
I made us breakfast, but Ben still wasn't downstairs which means he is still asleep, so I decided to bring us breakfast to the bedroom.
I put everything on tray and took it upstairs. When I came into bedroom, I sat on my side of bed putting tray on nightstand.
"Ben" I whispered pulling few locks of his hair away from his face
I smiled brushing my nose over his as I left kiss on his nose. Second later I was found on back with Ben above me.
"Morning fiancé" he whispered as I just smiled even more
"morning" I whispered, and he just kissed me gently
"Good morning princess" he said kissing my belly "How are you doing today?" he asked leaving one more kiss on my belly
"I guess you're fine, but I really can't wait for you to come out" he said and looked back up at me
"Three more months, god damn" he mumbled and looked at me surprised when he saw breakfast on the nightstand
"I made us breakfast, but you were asleep, so I brought it here" I said, and he smiled even more
"I should be the one making you breakfast" he said taking tray and putting it on Ben between us as we sat up
"You know I'm not happy with your meals, the most not now, when you're pregnant" he said chewing his food and pointing to mine
"You eat much less than me, I'm eating many more times per day than you" I said, and he shook his head
"You're eating really poor meals, but you have to feed two mouths not one like me" he said
"You heard four days ago that baby is doing well and that nothing is missing to her" I said
"I hate that you always have a right excuse and then I don't know what to say" he said, and I laughed
"Um...good morning little one" I said rubbing my belly as I felt kick
Ben immediately got closer to me putting his hand on my belly, but he still can't feel it from outside.
"You still don't want daddy to feel it?" he said with his hand on my belly
"Just few more weeks" I said putting my hand on his cheek as he looked up at me "she's already so active and you will feel it for the most a month and half" I said
"that's six weeks not few weeks" he said
"If it's comforting you, you will hold her for three months" I said, and he rolled his eyes
"that's 12 weeks and it's not comforting me; it will comfort me if she can already be here" he said and this time it was me rolling my eyes
"Okay listen" I put tray on the side and got closer to him cupping his face
"it's normal thing for everyone to wait for baby for nine months when they create it, ask James, was easy for him? It wasn't and you need to be patience, we are two thirds through it already, just a little bit more, baby" I said rubbing my thumb over his cheek and leaving kiss on another
"You will hold her soon, you will play with her however you will want to, you will teach her football as soon as she starts walking, you will teach her and do with her whatever you will want to, you just need to wait a little bit longer" I said leaning my forehead against his as he rested his hands on my hips
"I'm just so excited" he said quietly, and I nodded lightly
"I know, I am too" I said closing my eyes with my both hands on his cheeks and forehead leaned against his
"I can't wait to swear in front of our friends that I'm going to love you for the rest of my life" he said, and I just bite my lip
"I can't wait to say I do" he said, and I just pulled him into kiss
"I can't wait to do that either" I said onto his lips